It sees me through.

New blog.

2009-09-27T16:58:00.001+08:00

Okay I know I keep changing blog links and stuff'd.
But this is really the last time I guess. (I shan't promise, I know I always break promises haha.)

www.lizse-herstory.blogspot.com (:

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2009-09-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

I can't work with Livejournal. Like seriously.

I will try out with it tomorrow again. I'm so tired of doing this. Should I just stick to Blogger? But I'm going to open a new blog soon. Current link is freaking boring.

Freak what is this.

2009-09-25T16:22:00.002+08:00

Prelims is over!

But some things to WTH about:
1. Why am I stuck at home today? (Where are all those friends and why are they ALL not free!)
2. Mum is ranting about my usage of the computer. (Link it to part 1 and understand why I'm on the computer for so long.)
3. I'm really on the computer for too long. Shoulders are aching. I'll stop after this.
4. WTH we're going through papers next week already!
5. There is math homework which I don't feel like touching, afterall, it's one day after end of prelims! ):

WTH WTH Blogger takes forever to upload my photos! And there're only 3! It's not like I upload a thousand of them. Gosh this is it, I'll switch to Livejournal tomorrow. I so look forward to tomorrow.

And... this practically summarises up my pathetic life. Well, probably next week will have more things to blog about. How sucky/awesome (I doubt so!) results are, and there'll probably be some meet-ups too! :D Like with Shiqi and Sam dear.

And I tell you, reading chatlogs and viewing past photos are the most terrible thing to do. It makes you really emo thinking of the past. Gosh and I did both things today. And I just hate it when I see that for some people, the conversations get lesser and lesser every month. MSN shouldn't have invented this option of saving down conversations or maybe I should not ask MSN to auto save every conversation. Oh freak.

And yes, livejournal tomorrow! Too bad, blogger.

Start all over again.

2009-09-20T22:36:00.002+08:00

I think sometimes, it's quite cool if everything can start all over again.

http://www.uhzilove.blogspot.com/ has been receiving poor response I really don't know why. But, I've realised, (at least blogs that I visit) that people have not relinked me. Gosh and Peisi did mention before that the link is not nice or something is it. Whatever the case, back here.

Have been wanting to post up some photos. Heh, did I mention that I've got a new digi cam. :D But it's so not a birthday present! I've to pay for it! ): Well, looking at the bright side, at least I don't have to see there waiting for people to upload photos real slowly.

Okay yeah, there it is. It's pink! But not entirely, pictures do deceive you see. The flipside is black though, nevertheless, it's still rather gorgeous! :D What else what else. Will upload the photos as soon as I finish taking the pictures haha.

Okay seems like I've nothing intellectual to say. I feel like changing to livejournal. But I freaking hell can't figure out how to use it. Someone please teach me! And then, I feel like starting to whole new blog so I can't bear the 240plus posts that I've accumulated over the years haha. Well, alright after A's, when another chapter of my life ends and another one starts, I might have a newborn blog again.

Will be mugging tomorrow. Please do disturb! Haha I'm be real bored from mugging.

I really hate it when I take that long to realise that I feel so used all along. URGH but promises are supposed to be kept right. I'll meet you, I don't know when, and after that, goodbye! 5/6 years is way enough, I want to stop this.

I miss Samantha Lim! She's coming to NJ on wednesday but I don't have papers that day! ): That's sad! But maybe we'll gather sometime like next wednesday if we're free! Can't wait again! :D GOSH I HAVEN'T SEEN HER IN MONTHS! Oh yay Lissya, Sam and I are going Island Cremery (Yes it's the ice-cream thing again, and P.S. I guess all A01-ers who read this and are interested can contact both of us!; we'll have awesome fun catching up! )

Senior girls outing! Is it going to be confirmed! Huiwei Joycelyn reply my message! I can't wait to get out and oh yes, wear the necklace and the bangles Lissya and Gwen got for me! :D

Can't wait!

2009-09-19T21:10:00.002+08:00

Can't wait for...
- Prelims to be over.
- Super belated birthday celebration.
- Meetups with loves! (Senior dancers!)

As you can see, I'm already slacking here. But I do feel a little more not worried when I see that Spins has been updating her blog every alternate day or something HAHA.

And yes, after talking to dear yesterday, I realise that YES I REALLY DO HAVE A LOT OF THINGS I WANT TO GET ON BLOGSHOPS AND I SHOULD START TO SAVE UP! Dear is really guilty for forgetting my birthday and so is Elin.

And I have to go on and on reprimanding all those who forgot. But well, I know it's the Prelims driving everyone else crazy. I shall be more forgiving this time round. No more next time.

Blog is not dead, but why is there just no comments and tags! HELLO PEOPLE! Read and tag leh, let me know you're alive. Or is there no one reading at all? ):

I'm not confident that I will do well for Prelims. And it's not only Prelims, it's ALREADY Prelims. And I freaking hell hate it when Sharon Tey keeps coming over to disturb me in the midst of my paper. Like looking at my EZlink card but I can't do anything 'cause she's the teacher so she can see nor do I want to start poking her in the middle of my Phy paper. I will trip her the next time HAHA :D Don't tell her people! Oh yes and that's the punishment for forgetting my birthday and I shall pretend that I didn't know her birthday is coming soon. BLEH AND SHARON OWES ME LUNCH! -.-

Perfect way to start 18th.

2009-09-11T21:45:00.004+08:00

" Date: 7th September 2009

I wish I wouldn't need to mug on my birthday and that I can celebrate with my loved ones. I know I've been ranting non-stop to Lissya, Gwen, Saniah and all the dancers to give me a birthday surprise. Yet I know it's kind of impossible. They won't have the time to organise and I wouldn't want to waste their time too. "

Look at that entry in my diary. And guess what, the malay dancers totally surprised me with a surprise visit, right at my doorstep! I really love them. The day started off with me switching my phone on and off (and Gwen getting anxious I guess). Well, I feel that if I switch off my phone, like after an hour or so, when I switch it on, there'll be lots of messages flooding in together. It feels so much better right. Alright, I know I derive joy from doing such lame things.

Anyway, it was GREAT and AWESOME! :D Seriously, they caught me at my most unglam moment, with hair all messy and awful specs. Well, I hid behind the door most of the times and they wouldn't stop singing happy birthday haha. They even brought the guitar here so yeah TK was playing it right. (According to An because I was hiding behind, so I see nothing.) And they brought me little presents and heartwarming notes and a cake (which was extremely sweet and fattening; no wonder everyone gave it to me and no one wants it.) Well, I remember my hand was still trembling (out of joy and surprise) when I put on contacts (to look less unglam). What have I done to deserve such wonderful people?! :D

Nonetheless, morning ended on a happy note as we camwhored at the playground! :D

And... I know presents are belated and I'll thank these people again when I get the presents haha.

As for now, a million thanks to :
Miss Khoo, Gwen X3/4 times, Jiahui, Thinking X 3/4 times, Steph, Peisi, Charmaine X 2, Joseph, Lissya X2, Jingmin X2, Antonio, Lilin, Cheryl (Loh),. Saiful X 4, Shaun, Huifang (Rare guest), Shiyuan, Katrina, Hazi X2, Masu, Saniah X2, Aqilah X3, Alison X2, Khenghwee, Sean, Junya, Shuyi, DaisyX2, Peizhen X2, Tianhe lychee, Jinghui, Zhengpin, Yangzhi, Pinyan, Siqi, Sinhua, Pinxuan, Junjie, Chrislyn, Zhengning, Weiyuan, Daoxuan, Gensen, XiaoJun, Geraldine X2, Sipei, Marian, Nicholas (Ang), Beixin, Edmund X3, Quyen X3, Jenny X2, Xiuling, Vignesh, Shaoying, Baojun, Sijia, Leon, Meiying, Khue, An X3, Nam, Sara, Yuan, Travis X2, Eunice X2, Huiwei, Ly, Phuong, Porkpau X3, Shairah, Kurt, Xihong, Pinglin.

Okay, I really really hope I don't miss out anyone. The multiple ones are for those that has wished me multiple times. Well, all in all, thanks dancers who put in effort to organise that surprise visit though I'm not v convinced that you guys meet at 6am! And dancers who take effort to type/write/draw a little note. Those from the past (primary schools HAHA) who still remembered and those who currently bothered.

However many channels through which you can wish me (via MSN, Facebook, Email, SMS, Personally, Note, whatever.), it wouldn't have been possible for me to feel so loved if you guys do not take effort/bother to care for me. Although there are some people who really matters a lot to me and have yet to wish me happy birthday (maybe they'll, there's still 1.5hour more to go), still I'm glad that this new year started off awesomely with the surprise visit and well wishes.

18, everyone has been saying I'm legal to do what and what already. I kind of look forward to clubbing, though I don't really like the clubbing atmosphere and everything. Still, excitedly looking forward to after A's and I can go clubbing with dancers + S21 + all other loved ones (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIZHU! :D

Coordination problem.

2009-09-07T12:13:00.002+08:00

I have a coordination problem. I especially hate it when my brain, heart and body cannot agree on things. (Which they always don't agree.) And then they do things that generate negative externalities URGH.

For instance, my brain says : " Don't go near the computer; don't use it!"
And my heart says : " But I want to use it."
And my body is the ultimate winner, it just goes ahead and switches on the computer. That's why I'm blogging here right now.

Another example, my brain says: "Go and mug now, if not you will regret later."
My heart says: "Mugging is so boring."
And my body, once again, being self-opinionated, just makes my eyelids close when I sit down at the table.

Why can't my body, heart and brain all agree on something, which is that education has positive externality so I should go study right now. And I'm so going to defy my body. I will force myself awake using whatever methods. My heart has no say, my brain/mind is the leader right now. Bye!

Stupid body, I really hate you.

This is not a break.

2009-09-05T21:23:00.002+08:00

Seriously, look at the title above, this holiday is really not a break. It's full of mugging and I didn't touch anything today yet. So far. I just thought I need a break after three papers but I know I'm just giving some lame excuses.

The papers, whether good or bad, have passed. I won't think about them already. No more regrets nor any complacency (like I can.) so yeah work harder for the coming few luh! I already am so looking forward to after Prelims. Did I blog that I sit at the table at least 10 hours everyday. At least, for some days, it's 12 or 14 or 11. This is real crazy man. I didn't think that I can do it too.

I'll start intensive mugging tomorrow again. I know recently, for the month of August and September, there're lots of birthdays. Sorry people! Really didn't have the time to go and get the presents. But I hope I haven't forgotten anyone's.

Haven't been hanging out with the dancers recently due to mugging. I miss all of them! And I see the seniors doing the umbrella dance! Heheh the guys are damn funny. Cute is not a word to describe them. I want to dance it too! :D When will this whole thing end so that I can enjoy my life, dancing away and stuff.

I feel that my hair is growing yay! :D When will it grow longer and longer and long enough?

Oh yeah Porkpau said that he always sees me online. He wonders if I'm v confident or whether I know how to balance between work and play. I choose to think that I just don't really bother mugging a lot. And thanks juniors for all the notes, but just to clarify something, I'm not smart not am I a mugger people!

Oh yeah yesterday was at JP then I was in a daze or something luh. And Shuyi was like calling me 'cause Aubrey was there too! Heh I wasn't paying attention. Anyway missed the chance to chat a bit with her. But I miss her so much! :D She doesn't even come online often now too! And anyway, we'll meet up after A's! (: Oh yeah and shopping with Sharon also haha.

Muggers deserve breaks, not me.

2009-08-28T21:25:00.000+08:00

Alright look at that title I have. Muggers deserve breaks, not me. Cannot be more suitable. HELLO I'VE BEEN MUGGING FOR SO LITTLE HOURS AND I'M TOO DISGRACED TO EVEN CLAIM THAT I NEED A BREAK!

5more days to prelims! Planned out a schedule just now, oh my gosh, how am I going to finish studying so much everyday. Well well well, I have to, somehow. Am online just to write my testimonial.

Oh yeah I do have to mention that LW messaged me yesterday. I didn't see the message till like 4 whole hours later but anyway, I think time is too little for me to go mugging with him. I really cannot afford to chitchat with him during the course of mugging. As such, I'm sorry.

And, I freaking hell got a shock today. The bus was cramped and this guy squeezed past me and he looked down at me (literally) and for that instant, I was so hopeful that he's YL. But oh well, I figured out that it wasn't YL afterall. But seriously, for that split second, I really thought it's him. Then I realised it isn't. The height, the smile, everything just so isn't YL luh. I guess I haven't seen YL for too long and I'm hallucinating. And it better not be him because it definitely isn't my glammest moment.

I really hope I'm not ever going to be online already till after prelims. Bday wish list has been pushed all the way down. As such, I'm going to re-post it HAHAA. (Yes I really do want presents to make up for the fact that I'm mugging on the 18th birthday!) Oh yeah smart girl, Shairah Ramazan! She actually spoilt the surprise and told me she have already drawn my birthday card! There goes the surprise Shairahaha!

1. LG Lollipop phone.
(Freaking hell when is the phone coming out? ._. I'm so tired of waiting for it. Anyone else has other equally nice flip phones to recommend?)

2. Wallet.
If you guys read Teenage magazine, get the October 2008 issue, flip to page 49. There's this 'Paul Frank monogram white wallet from Flash&Splash. Flash&Splash is located at Heerens.

3. Camera.
I've no comments about this because no one in the right mind would get me this. Probably Sharon, if you ever read this, you can. Because you're a working adult and is thus rich enough.

4. Pretty clothes + shoes + accessories.
Which is crap, 'cause you wouldn't have the same taste as me. So why not give me money straightaway haha.

5. NIKE bottle.
Okay I don't know how to describe it, but I'm sure you guys have seen it before. http://www.sheactive.co.uk/images/items/338x451/IMG61992096.jpg this kind. Haha, I remember seeing a purple one. I want the purple one, actually the pink one is okay. Aiyah, you guys know my taste right. Those kind of girlish colour. I swear this is one of the most practical gifts already.

6. Body Shop's strawberry/pomengrate hydrating spray.
The strawberry one is nowhere to be found. If only Lissya stocks up many many bottles in her house. Therefore, I will settle for pomengrate one, btw pomengrate one is limited edition. So, it might disappear off the shelves anytime.

7. New shoulder bag.
I haven't decided what I want though but just not the same old boring kind luh. Even Lissya is bored of it haha, the same old black rectangular kind.

Okay I can't think of anything else already. I'm being really impractical here haha. Somehow this year's wishlist are like all rather expensive products. Okay, oh yeah but please, no more soft toys. I know they're cute and stuff but my house has thousands of them. And it's always piggy stuff.

1. Awesome Prelims results. (Since I spend my birthday mugging for Prelims, I must gain something from it right.)

2. Followed by even more splendid Alevels results.

3. I hope hair grows long enough by end of year so that I can get my curls soon! :D

Randomly distributed.

2009-08-23T22:18:00.000+08:00

Weekend policy did work this week. But from today onwards, I should just not go near this computer already.

Just because I had the concession pass to skip school for this week, I actually started slacking and stuff. Bad bad timing to do so. A week or so to Prelims, and I'm still here, haven't really started much on revision, and needing someone to desperately give me a push. Never mind, I still have a week more. One more week, I can survive the first half of mugging for Prelims. No more dramas please. Oh freak I really hate myself for the lack of determination to do anything.

Facebook and MSN are getting boring due to the limited number of people online. I can't believe I actually still lingered around for so long even though I claimed that they are boring. Once again, I hate how I use all sorts of excuses to carry on procrastinating. It's a self-delusion that I've lots of time.

Colours award on friday. It was such a rush and I ended up ON TIME, waiting for Lissya for 20mins. Fine, I shan't complain because I was the one who insisted on waiting. I promise I will never be late for outings again; it's such a torture waiting. As usual, camwhored haha had lots of groups like Singaporeans, Chinese, Mainstreams etc. Dancers brought a smile onto my face once again, and that night of no mugging was a great one. Slacked the whole of Saturday too and had dinner with Mummy and Sister because Sister and I are supposedly treating Mummy as her birthday gift or something. Once again, we said but we never paid haha.

BUT we went out to get her gift today. Oh yes, and my sister and I are having many disputes recently. She's so becoming TK, forever bickering with me. Bro's birthday is next Sunday! I'll be broke again yay! I'll get him a super belated present maybe. But hey, how come he isn't bringing me out for treats and stuff like other brothers do.

Let's put everything aside, and I'm serious this time round. Byebye cyberspace, I'll come back to blog during the September holidays. Or if I can't mug finish, then after Prelims then! :D

Yay I will conquer this and survive. If we want to do something, we do it to the best we can! (: NJC MALAY DANCE SPIRIT HUH. Oh yeah juniors, all the best for all upcoming performances! Three more months or so, I'll be back. :D

Farewell, it's just a short goodbye.

2009-08-16T22:02:00.002+08:00

Seniors' farewell yesterday was a blast! :D Can't imagine how sweet the juniors are. Everything is like so personalized and stuff. And the dress code colour thing which we're assigned to made us all curious for a whole day.

Daisy was ranked No.1 junior and Aqilah No.2. I officially forget who is No.3. Okay, the whole point is, we were totally sitting there like queens and alright, one king. (Eww I didn't want to say that but let's not be mean alright.) While food were just being brought to us, we sat down there, chitchatted and talked. Alright, it's an honour to serve your seniors right.

Had cool video watching at cool places. Haha, video is projected against a wall beside the swimming pool. Some kids were obviously fascinated with the shadows they form and stuff. Laughed a lot just by seeing how they tried to block the video and stuff, which was impossible 'cause it was way too big. Oh and how Lissya tried to push the little boy down and stuff HAHA.

Mrs Jalleh brought Zoey along. She has so many hair already and is utterly adorable. I carried her and she didn't cry yay! :D This reminded me of what Seah Junhao said about babies disliking people who smell. Okay so I didn't smell bad yesterday yay! (Despite all the sweating and stuff.) Camwhored a lot with the graduating batch and then after a while Ly and Daisy joined in too. I love the box photo, as well as the one at the stone. Played a while at the playground haha. That pole thing which I kind of miss. Those carefree days aww! (: Saniah please upload the photos fast!

As I've expected, no one cried. Okay yeah not even Lissya. It's not that we're not touched. It's just that to me, this farewell is just a short goodbye. After A's, we'll be back again. It's like how you will return home, back to your FAMILY, after studying overseas and being away from them for months or even years right. It's the same thing here. For the upcoming performances, we'll probably not have the time and energy to go down to support the juniors. But yeah, the malay dance spirit lives on right. When we're on stage, we perform to the best we can! :D

Oh yes, how sweet. The juniors gave us a tee-shirt with all the well wishes. Alright not totally well wishes 'cause Saiful Teo is being sarcastic. And they sewed a bear for each one of us. When I say sew, I really mean sew from just cotton and cloth. And the bear is wearing our SYF Liku Hidup costume. :D AWESOME! The stitches may be obvious, and bear's head may be flimsy, but I really sensed every heart and soul put into it. I wonder if anyone had accidentally poked themselves with the needles. How sweet right. Life can't get any better knowing how great juniors you have.

I will survive mugging.

Funny huh.

2009-08-14T21:57:00.002+08:00

I'm going to post a short part on it. (Okay I admit I'm afraid that if someone sees this post, I'll get hit/slapped/whatever.) But I've to say it luh. How can someone be so ungentlemanly?! URGH I can't believe such things still happen. And he can still laugh like it's a joke and tell everyone so loudly. He ought to be ashamed of himself. And the funny thing is, he's the one in the wrong and he actually dared to rebut back. WOW AS SUCH, IMPRESSION OF HIM DROPPED TO NEGATIVE INFINITY AND WHATEVER GOOD IMPRESSION OF BIGBIRD DROPPED TO ZERO.

I can't believe I am still tramautised everytime I see the policemen. I bet it's those stuff I hear since young. Things like if I don't behave the policeman will catch me away or something. Why should adults say such things to scare me? Anyway, I just happened to walk home and saw some policemen interrogating some people. And I was not to the extent of terrified luh, but am a little scared when I walked past them, when I did nothing wrong at all! Ha, kind of funny huh.

Dark eyecircles. Does anyone have anything that can remove them for me? Oh yeah, yesterday Physics lecture doing the Alevel08 MCQ right, I was being lame and poked Sharon. OMG what a wrong decision! I think apparently her mood wasn't very good or something. Because she raised her voice at everyone in the lecture hall because we're too noisy or something. OPPS wrong time to poke her! :X

Mugging is getting intensive. Have done lots of comprehensions for GP and lots of MCQ and paper2 and 3 for Physics. Hopefully they help! My two lowest percentile subject. URGH ):

Wishing upon a thousand stars.

2009-08-09T21:34:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Singapore! :D
Happy birthday Wong Hui Fang, the nation's girl! I miss you freaking hell much, because you never turned up for outings. Unforgivable, but I still love you so much girl! (:

As promised, wishlist will be up so that people do not have excuses that they didn't have time to get them. I give people one month's notice in advance okay haha. And I actually spend time thinking it up, so please take time and effort to read through it.

1. LG Lollipop phone.
(Freaking hell when is the phone coming out? ._. I'm so tired of waiting for it. Anyone else has other equally nice flip phones to recommend?)

2. Wallet.
If you guys read Teenage magazine, get the October 2008 issue, flip to page 49. There's this 'Paul Frank monogram white wallet from Flash&Splash. Flash&Splash is located at Heerens.

3. Camera.
I've no comments about this because no one in the right mind would get me this. Probably Sharon, if you ever read this, you can. Because you're a working adult and is thus rich enough.

4. Pretty clothes + shoes + accessories.
Which is crap, 'cause you wouldn't have the same taste as me. So why not give me money straightaway haha.

5. NIKE bottle.
Okay I don't know how to describe it, but I'm sure you guys have seen it before. http://www.sheactive.co.uk/images/items/338x451/IMG61992096.jpg this kind. Haha, I remember seeing a purple one. I want the purple one, actually the pink one is okay. Aiyah, you guys know my taste right. Those kind of girlish colour. I swear this is one of the most practical gifts already.

6. Body Shop's strawberry/pomengrate hydrating spray.
The strawberry one is nowhere to be found. If only Lissya stocks up many many bottles in her house. Therefore, I will settle for pomengrate one, btw pomengrate one is limited edition. So, it might disappear off the shelves anytime.

7. New shoulder bag.
I haven't decided what I want though but just not the same old boring kind luh. Even Lissya is bored of it haha, the same old black rectangular kind.

Okay I can't think of anything else already. I'm being really impractical here haha. Somehow this year's wishlist are like all rather expensive products. Okay, oh yeah but please, no more soft toys. I know they're cute and stuff but my house has thousands of them. And it's always piggy stuff.

1. Awesome Prelims results. (Since I spend my birthday mugging for Prelims, I must gain something from it right.)

2. Followed by even more splendid Alevels results.

3. I hope hair grows long enough by end of year so that I can get my curls soon! :D

Okay post is getting boring. I wonder how many people read this in the first place. Hopefully, there won't be repeated presents luh haha. Okay, bye till I decided I need another break. For now, it shall be dead.

Oh yes, can someone teach me how to navigate around in Livejournal. I had such a hard time creating a blog in Livejournal.

Hiatus soon.

2009-08-08T21:41:00.002+08:00

I'm going to cut off connection with the cyber space by Monday hopefully. This so-called extended holiday hasn't been good because there're just too many homework to complete. Once again, I'm feeling the stress for the coming Prelims especially when I haven't done absolutely well for CTs. Okay, I've to admit that there were significant improvements in all subjects for the percentiles luh. But looking at Lilin's, you just can't help but feel demoralised and that you haven't worked hard enough.

And the fact that somehow, my immune system broke down and I've been sick on and off makes mugging even harder with all the headaches and stuff. Hence, I decided it's time to go on a hiatus and this blog will remain dead till after Prelims, which is like 25th September I think. Probably I will just pop by from time to time to update it.

Hate the fact, totally, that my 18th birthday is going to be spent on mugging. No birthday celebrations nor surprises, just mugging. And that reminds me that from today onwards, anyone else's birthday presents will be damn belated because I've absolutely no time for anything right now. I know people won't measure our friendship with superficial things like presents right. But then again, fine I'm indeed superficial and materialistic so I want my presents. I'm giving people extra notice and I'll upload the list of birthday presents I want for this year. HAHA. But nothing beats awesome Prelim results luh really. And of course awesome Alevels results too. But no one can give me that, except myself of course.

I've looked throught the past chatlogs and I realise I've absolutely no reason to subject myself to stuff like these. Mr S's action will be deemed as abnormal and I'm not giving a hoot about it until further improvements can be seen. And I will use time wisely. Instead of lamenting over stuff like that, I might as well spend time mugging and stop procrastinating.

So glad that I'm not tired these days and I haven't been falling asleep in classes nor lectures. In fact, more awake than ever.

Bye, this won't be the last post because I haven't posted my wishlist yet. HAHA

Overwhelmed.

2009-08-07T22:02:00.002+08:00

A series of events happened this week, so to get things clear and understood, I shall summarise it.

Firstly, was absent from school once again on Tuesday. Stomach flu I guess. I got a whole week of MC from PE 'cause of that. I am clarifying something. It's not that I'm some unenthu freak who doesn't want to go for PE but tennis seriously doesn't interest me at all. Wednesday is a boring day, just that Zhengpin made me day by telling me that she loves my eyes. AWW HOW SWEET! :D

Okay for Thursday and Friday (which is today), there were exciting stuff! :D
1. (: I'm still feeling so happy that I got 14/16 for Phy E.Field MCQ. (Opps that's on Monday.)
2. ): Mr. S is freaking hell giving me false hopes.
3. |: Was that me?
4. (: I talked quite a lot to her! (Without feeling v. uncomfortable or smth.)
5. ): Lissya has been not accepting my request to mug/chat/whatever everytime I ask her.
6. (: Had an awesome dinner yesterday.
7. (: Found a new MK (Lissya do you remind what MK stands for!) yesterday.
8. ): Decided to not have this MK.
9. (: Miaoqun talked to me!
10. (: Bryan Lim! HAHA.
11. (: Class outing was nice.

Okay, I'll elaborate on some of the points.

Refer to point 6. Had dinner with badminton people yesterday, sort of a farewell dinner for Xiaojun and Weirong. (Freak luh Weirong not even going off that early.) It wasn't awkward as expected because I thought we haven't gathered for very long and are becoming distant. I guess it really shows that 4years of bonding together did make a lot of difference. It was a fun night, I laughed a lot. Everyone looked the same actually, just that Woonshin became a hell lot more hilarious.

And I found a new MK yesterday. Okay MK meant my kind (short form for my kind of guy). It was damn funny and weird luh. It's like I totally didn't expect to see him there. Haha okay. So seeing point 8, people must be wondering how come I decided not to have this MK. Well, if you read my facebook note 'my kind of guy', he totally didn't fulfil one of my most important criteria. He's freaking hell about 1plus month younger. Okay, so goodbye MK.

Points 9 and 10. Miaoqun came back today! At the end after the whole celebration, Miaoqun walked up to me and said this: "I remember your face, but I can't remember your name. What's your name huh?" I replied her saying it's okay but I remembered her face but I couldn't remember her name too haha! Until I ask Ningxin of course. But I couldn't blame her luh. I only talked to her like thrice the most.

OMG and point 10. Bryan Lim came back as well! Gosh, I didn't know and didn't realise. Until don't know when, I turned my head and saw him. I practically shrieked (inside me) haha and Dhiya and Peisi sensed my excitement. According to Dhiya, my face went all red and I think it was only in a matter of seconds. Gosh, haha I'm saying this because I presume that he doesn't know me nor the existence of this blog. And A01 people who read this won't tell Nicholas Ang to tell Bryan Lim. Okay, anyway this is so over. It was in the past okay. Xiaoxi is going to kill me if she ever reads this and realise that even though I've sweared a thousand times that I'm over him, I'm still sounding like I'm damn gaga over him. But seriously, I ain't anymore. Just only that few minutes HAHA.

Please let that be me. I sensed some form of concern from it. And your trust in me, if it's me. And that's almost everything. That can translate into the strength I need.

100 days.

2009-08-02T22:27:00.002+08:00

Quoting from N.T.H (Haha Tinghui I still can't believe it. It's super funny when I know it's you.) haha, there's only 100 days left to Alevels. It should be accurate right, though I wish it wasn't. I can't believe it, there's only 100 days left for me to consolidate 2 years of work, of which I'm still largely unfamiliar with. Oh gawd. And yes, Lissya is right, 33 days to Prelims to consolidate 2 years of work too. URGH I can survive this. I've to right?!

Life sucks, with just mugging. Mugging leaves me with nothing except fatigue and lethargy. So much so that I really want to just go home everyday to rest. So much so that, sad to say, I don't even feel the passion to run down to dance practices anymore. You just aren't in the mood for anything. Oh and so much so that I'm feeling indifferent about it when I'm seeing it slip past me. Alright, but I do have to admit that life's a lot better and crappier nowadays with BCD, especially when Ah C is getting crappier by the day. I still can't believe we have the weirdest clique name ever, ABCD haha.

Oh yeah, and I decided to give myself some alone time and after dinner yesterday, I walked to the library. I actually wasn't really taking a stroll, 'cause it's close to 8 already and the library closes at 9. I enjoy the alone time in the library as always and the stroll back after that, feeling the night breeze. (But actually there wasn't any breeze yesterday, just imagine there is okay.) I did feel a lot better, less stressed and stuff. But something to rant about, how come an hour before closing time, the library is still as packed huh!

Oh yeah, haha I know this is damn long ago but Saniah, and maybe Gwen as well, stop being so intrigued by the fact that I can take buses from both sides. What's wrong with that LOL. And stop being so jealous that my journey to everywhere is always so short and stuff.

Oh yeah should be meeting Xiaojun and Weirong and rest of badminton gang for dinner this Thursday. It better be okay, 'cause Xiaojun's going back on 10th August! Oh yeah, and NDCs is something I look forward to. S21 outing! :D

P.S. There's assembly again tomorrow! Awesome, I'd be able to ramble on non-stop to Lissya again. Heh, see how important you're to me Lissya! :D Oh yeah and sorry for the emoing. I just have to get the words out and maybe you'll see it and we can salvage the relationship or smth.

How vague, I'll never know.

2009-08-01T11:51:00.002+08:00

I shouldn't have sneaked online to use the computer. Sorry, weekend policy must really start to hold soon, no, I mean right now, immediately. Seeing how my classmates mug and stuff, I really felt like I'm freaking hell wasting all my time away. And then turning around, complaining to another gang of people that I've no time for everything. I could have, but I just refused to use it wisely. So, I shouldn't be blogging right now right? But I figured out that since I'm online, I might as well blog now so that I'll have no excuse to come online again at night :P

First, happy birthday to all these awesome people:
Alan Lee, Qin Tianhe, Wong Jiaomei - 29th July.
Masu Monyi - 30th July
Sharifah Saniah (...) Aljunied - 31st July.

I actually did not mention Alan nor commemorate that day on my blog nor my personal diary. WOW after like 6, 7 years? Haha, does it prove that I'm over it or mugging just deprived me of time for other things? But oh well, I was over it long ago seriously.

On a side note, I have to mention this. I recently love this song a lot. Invisible by Taylor Swift.

I just wanna show you
She don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me
If you only knew me
We can be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable, instead of just invisible.

Okay, that wasn't the whole point I was trying to make. In fact, it's a contradiction to what I want to say.

From here onwards, this is going to sound vague. And if you think I'm referring to you, then think again. Almost impossible to be you, because I don't think the person I'm referring to ever comes this anymore. And warning, long post ahead I think. Stop reading here if necessary.

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Was just happening to read your past entries and realise that everytime there's this vague portion where no names are mentioned, it never seems to refer to me. Things that sound like 'Aww you care so much' but then somehow, nothing, not a single part of it feels like it's ever meant for me. Because when you just shed a tear, complain a little, people are all waiting to comfort you. Maybe you'll never know this, because you've stopped coming here. Just read through the past entries yourself, how many times am I mentioned inside. Insignificant, compared to one thousand other times you mention them. This is vague too, 'cause I'm not mentioning any names, so even if you happen to see this, you probably might never know it's you.

It takes a huge amount of courage to just drop a sms and say hi. Infinite number of times, contemplated settling things all at a go. But then, stopped when I wanted to say it. It's not as easy as you think, or maybe you thought it's hard too. That's why we're leaving things as it is, not caring and not bothering, hoping that time will erase all memories. But it's not possible, totally. It did started off fine, I really felt it, and I still believe you do too. Then there was this blank, and we seem to have disappeared from each other's lives. Which wasn't what I wanted. I meant every single word when I said " I don't want to be just part of a memory". Oh freak, is this getting obvious? Although the feeling isn't as strong now, but I still want you back. Alright fine, I admit I won't do everything to get you back, but I definitely won't do nothing to get you back.

One day, we will have to resolve this. I know it takes immerse amount of strength on my part, probably yours too. But it hurts more to leave things as it is. There's this gloomy feeling everytime I see you, hear about you. Which definitely isn't supposed to be the case. I remember Aubrey said this to me before: " If they are your favourite seniors, they're supposed to make you happy, not sad." She's referring to YLW then, but this whole thing applies too. You're my favourite person, and the thought of you is never supposed to make me tear. Don't say things like "At least we've wonderful memories before". No at least, it can't just stop there. There're so many more years to go, we should continue to create awesome memories. No things like "It's not like I can't survive without you". I can of course, but it hurts to luh seriously. The mere fact that you share my lowest and highest moments makes it hard for me to forget. And then, there're so much more too. If you haven't hurt me that much, I'd probably never realise how important you're to me.

When there's this day I can finally take down my mask to face you, and let you know how much you truly meant to me, how much I want you back, it'd be awesome. When that day comes, I'd be able to stop lying about how much I don't really care and bother about you, because I do, a lot. Maybe it's not like everytime I get so bothered, but you'll never know how bothered I get when it happens.

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Okay, end of emoing. Back to mugging.

Stop and think.

2009-07-29T22:19:00.002+08:00

Life is so hectic and mundane now, seriously. I guess this word will appear in a lot of people's blogs recently. When everything all fly past, maybe by that time, when we stop and think, we would have lost a lot. All the awesome memories we would have created with our loved ones.

However, the point now is I don't even have the time to pause (Stop sounds longer than pause.) and think. Still, I try to make time for it. Going to dance practice yesterday, although short, was great. Seeing the loveliest people and feeling the passion to dance that same dance again is splendid.

Oh yeah I do have to mention something not very nice. Somehow, few people have been asking me if I have gained weight. Alright, I think this is just an euphemism for directly asking if I have grown fatter. Oh man, see the need for me to follow to my diet and exercise regime strictly?!

Oh yeah, Miss Lee said something nice the other day. She told us last year when she took over our class, our percentage pass for Econs was 2nd, from the bottom. We made her really proud because this time round, for CTs, our percentage pass for Econs was 2nd, from the top. Awesome! (: But S21 people are really scaring me with how mugger everyone has turned into.

Maybe mugging with loved ones could be a solution to the lack of time. 24 hours is not enough gosh. By the way, dark eye circles and eyebags are awful and urgh, just ugly!

Headache is killing me.

2009-07-26T22:40:00.002+08:00

Awful bad headache. My head has been that heavy since yesterday afternoon, I guess.

It's quite late. Okay maybe it isn't. But I just want to get to my bed with such an awful headache.

I talked to Lissya about something today. Haha it's so exciting, will Lissya do it?! Please say yes Lissya :D

Headache did go off for a while while I had an awesome chat with Lissya dearest. She's ever so mean again, running off to watch her Liverpool match instead of chatting more with me.

Sorry for the constantly changing blogskin. I shall keep changing until I find something I like. Suddenly had a thing for simple skins recently.

Anyway, had an awesome friday night watching TV shows.

-To grow with love is an superb show seriously! :D I cried a little towards the end.
-Absolute Boyfriend totally made my eyes swollen and puffy the next day. I cried SO SO much, I haven't cried so much for so long.
-100% Entertainment made me laugh a lot haha. Gosh laughing so much after crying so hard.

Something not as nice. I was lying in bed, half-dead luh yesterday, and I only watch a bit of Boys over Flowers. ):

Something is wrong with me ever since I fall sick. Felt like vomiting along with a bad headache since yesterday. Appetite hasn't been good these days. In fact, the headache was present for the whole week. Stupid bumpy bus ride. I think I lost a kg luh haven't ate much these days. I better do!

Alright, I figured out that if I'm online so often, I must be not spending enough time on my studies. Weekend policy must hold somehow soon.

Today is a rather happy day afterall cause someone talked to me. (: In fact, I haven't smiled to myself stupidly for a long time. You're good man.

A break I deserve, I suppose.

2009-07-24T21:54:00.003+08:00

An extract from part of an email:

" After numerous discussion and argument, the dance group has come to a conclusion that we should have a chalet on the 15th and 16th Aug (we'll be staying overnight there). 15th and 16th are the best days we could think of so far, as other time period will clash with either your prelims/a level or our promos/ ip assessment week. The tentative venue is Pasir Ris. So please, please try your best to be free on those two days (you can't possible live your lives with only notes and notes and notes right, there should be some entertainment at times (= ). "

- President, Nguyen Thanh Phong Thinking, on 24th July 09, 9:05PM.

Awesome! (: Haha, duh I'd go. Anyway it's organized for the graduating seniors what. Unfortunately, Prelims is just round the corner. Convincing Mummy that I'm taking a break because I deserve it from all the mugging is going to be quite hard. I need some reasons people. I need to give a reply by this weekend. So, help me out here!

I'm getting freaked out by the CTs results seriously, especially Physics Econs and GP. Mr Goh came to relief Ms. Lee for Econs lesson today. He said that whatever he has mentioned in the lecture is not applicable to our class because we did pretty decently for CTs. (: Awesome, haha I think we're quite excited about this. Finally, we're not looking at the lower bars when the classes' results are flashed.

Ion @ orchard is opened already right! Gosh I will probably only visit it after Alevels. Why is life so mundane and stuff urgh.

By the way, a few awesome shows are coming out. Notice the word awesome appears pretty frequently, showing not only my love for the word but also my lack of vocabulary. Yeah anyway, the shows have been capturing my attention. And then, yeah, I guess I need some breaks at times. So yeah, off to watch TV now :D

Too many rantings.

2009-07-22T21:42:00.002+08:00

I'm so full of rantings today. Actually it's yesterday. I was being a grumpy old (I'm still young though) lady yesterday. And today was slightly better.

For people who are running out of time, this is a summary of all the points I'm going to make. Seems like a long post huh. And, these all happened yesterday.

1. Homework.
2. I've this craving to eat something soupy.
3. I wanted to eat Sakae buffet/ Thai Express.
4. I've a totally different taste in food with my sister.
5. Why can people consume other food in Burger king!
6. I seriously need to improve my GP! (I'm sick of the same old ugly grade.)
7. I feel that I should stick to my diet/exercise regime.
8. I need to know more words seriously.

Okay, I said to mug yesterday but obviously I didn't do it again. I seriously need to work harder and start doing that right now if I ever want awesome results for Prelims and A's because CTs have clearly showed me that the effort I've put in is not enough!

And then, yesterday I just feel like eating stuff that has soup. Like fishball noodles whatever thing that has soup. Thus, linking to the Thai Meesua which I wanted to eat at Thai Express. And then linking to my sister who just absolutely doesn't want Thai Express nor foodcourt (foodcourt has all the noodles thing what) and yeah. I seriously think that she can be buddies with Tk since Tk and I are so different just like how different me and my sister are. Sisters, how contradicting. Okay, maybe we're born to complement each other. That, I'm not sure. The only thing I'm sure is we never come to an agreement on almost anything. Oh, and I just wanted to eat Sakae buffet yesterday.

Then, I being vulnerable and weak? decided to give in to her about her crave for fastfood. Settled at Burger King and there was this bunch of students that bought and brought outside food and started camping at BK and eating. I was like astonished (I hope it's the right word). I mean, girls remember the day we went KAP MAC, and Daisy and I were reprimanded sort of luh because we bought sushi. And that's when like majority (75%) of us were eating Mac. However, none of them were eating BK. Oh crap, this is so unjustifiable!

Next, point 6, I need to improve my GP. And then look at point 8 and my attempt to throw in words that aren't as simple in this post (I hope you guys see an attempt!) Okay, I was freaked out by how someone can score that mark for GP Comprehension. And Saniah was the one who amazed me because her score was far beyond what I'll ever expect myself to get LOL. Okay, now I realise the utmost important to increase/enhance/whatever my vocabulary a bit so that summary + transposition + vocabulary questions aren't a chore anymore. And then I can focus on attacking the other short answers.

That's actually all. Has it been a lot? Oh no, point 7 diet! I feel like dieting, a healthy one with a planned-out exercise regime. Well, yeah I just feel fat. Unhealthy thought but yes, go find out and you'll realise not many girls really ever think that they're not fat. Oh yeah, have to mention that after being sick for 2weeks, my appetite shrank. During EXCO dinner, I was so full after I ate half the plate of stuff and yeah luh, just wanted to substantiate my point that my appetite shrank. Which isn't totally good. Because I want to eat a lot of things but can't. But if it helps me to shed some pounds, then fine I shall be contented.

That's all yeah. New blogskin signifies a new style of blogging?, haha I don't know. Oh yeah, I didn't mention right but I absolutely love the way Xiaoxi blogs. It is like entertaining yet meaningful in some sense I think. Okay, her posts around the period when she sat for SAT really added words to my vocabulary haha. But well, no one here who reads my blog knows Xiaoxi right. Except Lissya, who doesn't even bother to visit now. And I just realised my close friends are all GP pros. Oh freak Saniah, Gwen, Lissya (Enhancement huh!) and Xiaoxi too right if I did remember correctly.

Oh shucks what should I do to improve GP! By the way, CTs really isn't awesome, alright except for Math and Chem. Which isn't totally splendid too luh.

The start maybe.

2009-07-21T22:43:00.002+08:00

I figured out that www.lizhu.blogspot.com is way too boring. This blog address has multiple meanings haha.

Saniah and Gwen said my blog song is irritating. So there it goes.

I've a lot to blog about. But I want to watch TV.

I'll blog tmr, I hope I've the time.

P.S. Hypothesis testing is crap. I missed two lessons of it and one lesson which I attended is rubbish. Thus, I end up not understanding it at all. I can still do the tutorial though.

Back to school, no more skipping lessons, I hope.

2009-07-19T22:43:00.002+08:00

Back to school, no more skipping lessons, I hope.

I've been having extended weekends for the past two weeks because I've been taking MC for the past two Thursdays and Fridays. I meant to recover fully this time round so that I'll not be forever sick and I won't have to skip lessons again.

Much as I dislike it, lessons are getting increasingly important, especially when it's that few weeks left to Prelims and then Alevels. If I've a choice, I'd definitely love to lag around at home, anything but mugging. But I have no choice, or rather I have, the other choice is to do badly for my coming papers, which is the last thing I want to happen.

Thanks people, I've almost recovered. Yeah almost, because I am still coughing. I am so glad no one shunned me around in school haha.

The last EXCO meeting on tuesday, along with EXCO elections. Congrats to the new EXCO! (: Continue to be awesome, if not more awesome. (: Life in Malay Dance is just going to get better and continue to have fun dancing! Old EXCO dinner haha tomorrow night! Can't wait :D

I don't have a lot of time to blog nowadays. So, tag and comment luh people if not the blog will be dead! ):

What else to do?

2009-07-16T11:16:00.002+08:00

I remember that when I was in sec2, we had music lessons and every group is supposed to write a song. Here is my group's song, which I feel some people need to read it:

Believe in yourself, believe it's true.
Never gonna give up, no matter what you do.

Stand up for what you think, stand up for what you believe in.

Believe there's sunshine, believe there's rain.
As you hear the raindrops on the window pane.
The birds fly up high, way up in the sky.
Believing is soaring, better than goal scoring.

Live life believing,
True dreams are coming,
Wonders are appearing.
Colours resulting,
Hopes renewing,
Miracles are happening.

Some people just need to get this into their head. Stop being emo people!

Exco list is out people! Heh I think I am the first one to know because I am the only one who is not in school now I guess. Unless Mango and Saniah is still sick. Exco 08 dinner! (: I hope I would have fully recovered by then.

Oh by the way, I got back my Math paper yesterday! I was so afraid that I will fail but heh, it wasn't too bad afterall ): Though there was still some distance from my target of A but then it was not bad already, considering that I thought it was seriously the hardest math paper I have done. I so do not want to fail GP again so please please please, let my essay pull up my awful compre marks ): Chem paper was alright although it was a grade lower than my target too. Phy was like stunned, I actually passed it! But after knowing not many people failed, I got quite disappointed too haha.

If you are wondering, I am given a MC by my doctor so I'm forced to stay at home. Okay I think this post is getting too long, byebye!

Random thought.

2009-07-13T22:17:00.002+08:00

This is damn random.
But I just feel like saying this.

是不是过去了，就只能偶尔拿来回忆？

I know not a lot of people who viewed my blog understood chinese, but I am not translating this. It would have lost the meaning if I had translated it.

Faster and faster.

2009-07-12T22:12:00.002+08:00

Everything is just going faster and faster.
Homework is coming faster and faster.
I've to write faster and faster to finish them.
Prelims and Alevels are approaching me faster and faster.

Anyway, that was just a random thought. I've to type faster and faster now because I am supposed to go and study for a test. I was actually quite shocked to realise by yesterday night that I've like one thousand and one homework to complete. And I thought it was only that few. So, the whole of today, I was rushing homework throughout. Boring day, yeah I do know that.

I missed the last dance practice. Not only that, I missed the chance to see Mrs. Jalleh and her cute strawberry. (By the way, strawberry is her baby). I also missed the chance to see Nghia. (Not that I desperately want to see him.) I also realised, when I saw the photo they took, that Yida and Jeanette came too and I missed the chance to see them dance too. Last but not least, I missed my last chance to learn Zapin properly so now, I will step down as the only malay dancer that doesn't know the full Zapin. Oh freak, what a big loss! URGH.

On a happier note, Alicia, my cute little neighbour has been running over to my doorstep to say hi to me. Heh, she's so so so cute! :DDDDDD But I couldn't really go near her, because I've not yet fully recovered and she's so young, her immune system is not strong enough and I don't want to make her sick as well. If I ever have a chance one day, I will quickly snap a photo of her and upload it. She's totally adorable man. Speaking of babies, next saturday, I will see both my cousin's son, Enjie and Javier (I think that's how his name is spelt?). Heh, I just have a thing for babies. I LOVE CUTE BABIES AND ACTUALLY, ALL BABIES ARE CUTE (((((((((((((((:

Okay, I will go and mug for a test tmr, nothing v big I suppose, but all tests are to be treated as equally important now. Many papers will be back this week, please please pretty please, I cannot afford to not do well. But I can roughly gauge how I did. So people, wait for my emo updates! ):

Good or bad.

2009-07-10T21:48:00.002+08:00

For those who already know and for those who don't, I didn't go to school today again. Woke up with flu and cough and a slight fever and figured out that they will send me back home if I had gone to school. So I decided to be once again, socially responsible and stayed at home.

But that does not mean there isn't homework. Swetha kindly delivered them to me after school, haha that sucks. Mummy assumed I wanted to pon school, I suppose, and scolded me really harshly. I haven't cried so much for months and years and anyway yeah. The thing is she always only got half the story right. Don't call me a crybaby okay, I'll just slap you!

Went to the clinic and I was asked to wear a mask because I've flu symptoms and stuff like that. At least there wasn't a lot of people staring at me weirdly. Anyway, I wasn't the only one who was wearing a mask. But duh, I didn't have H1N1, it's just the common flu luh.

Daddy actually called home in the afternoon to ask if I've seen the doctor or something. Seriously, I was kind of touched. He hasn't done such things before. Mummy, who was still angry I suppose, insisted on me going to the clinic alone and stating things like I'm already big enough which is a fact, but she still came along with me all the same. Heh, a blessing in disguise afterall. See, no matter how negative situations seem to be, there'll be things that're positive, if we were to learn to appreciate little things. :D

Might be going K with the girls tmr, but my voice is half gone and coarse now due to the cough, how do I sing?! Haha, I will see how it goes tmr, and they just have to endure with my singing if it's that bad. :P

I missed the last dance practice today. But I also missed getting back my math paper. Half the class failed, which made me even more scared. Freak, I can't fail math!

Here it comes.

2009-07-09T22:01:00.002+08:00

Omg here it comes! As I was saying, after sore throat, I'll have flu followed by fever. Now it's the second stage, i'm having flu. But just a little luh. I practised social responsibility today though by skipping school haha! But it was due to my terrible sore throat which is gone now! The flu is damn minor, i had it in the morning and it's gone now too! So glad!

Actually, I kind of wish that I don't need to go to school tomorrow. I don't want to get back math paper. Although I know I haven't performed well, I still don't want to see the actual marks that directly reflected to me how bad I've done. ): And following which, there will be more papers coming back, I think I can go and start crying.

Probably one of the last one or two dance practices I can go to. Tomorrow there's dance! Mummy's getting not very pleased that I've not yet stepped down. Haix, I do hope the results are really satisfactory enough to let her know that I can manage dance and studies well too.

Life is starting to feel empty, like real empty. Without dance, without something to look forward to after school. And this is going to carry on for the next few months. Quoting from Lissya, it's going to be terrible to think we've to go through the same thing and mug that hard again, in fact even harder, for Prelims and Alevels again. Hope that these will all be over soon, there're so many things to look forward to after A's.

By the way, just helping Debbie to advertise this: Her cousin and her cousin's friend recently set up this blogshop. Just take a look luh and do buy it you like! And Debbie looks really great as the model, I think I should stop telling her that though, her ego is like damn huge now haha! http://illicity.livejournal.com

And why isn't anyone making full use of my comments section! ): It's saddening to see 0 people responded at every post! Anyway, I should blog for as much as I can because life is getting more and more hectic soon.

How to stop the pain

2009-07-08T21:35:00.002+08:00

It hurts so much. It's so painful. How do I stop the pain? This sucks. I want to recover from it soon. I don't want to be hurt by it anymore...

Heh, just in case you're wondering, it's not some lame crush or something. It's just my sore throat. Because GP teachers say that we have to have an interesting introduction to capture the reader's attention, I feel that this is kind of attention seeking, was it?

And yeah, I have a sore throat. It hurts so badly. I attributed it to the fact that I was actually still kind of strolling in the rain instead of running for shelter when the rain grew heavier from a drizzle to a downpour. And I went up an aircon bus straight after and didn't bathe after I reach home for about half an hour. (Cause my sister is taking a long time to bathe.) As a result, I had a sore throat yesterday, I don't know why it isn't flu. But mine always happens in a sequence: sore throat, flu, cough, fever and the flu and cough will continue forever, at least 2 weeks.

And, as much as I like it, I really have to be firm and really not run back to dance practices. All the teachers are telling us how many weeks to Prelims then A's and stuff. Then, aiyah, I don't know what to say already luh, sore throat just sucks.

Relieving childhood moments

2009-07-06T22:02:00.003+08:00

Uploading photos on facebook is such a chore. Gwen, I admire you for uploading thousands and hundreds of photos all along haha.

After seeing Gwen's funny childhood photos, I have this urge to upload mine too haha. But you know, because I always thought that aiyah why do I need a camera when my phone has one. You know that kind of thing? The pictures are really blur, that's when I realise I should get one good camera soon!

Okay, it's actually just a random compilation of photos. Go facebook it! Heh, anyway, there's a new Hong Kong drama so I'm going to watch it now!

P.S. : I still haven't touched my DAQ :/

everything beats mugging

2009-07-06T11:48:00.003+08:00

CTs have been over for quite long and I'm still happily enjoying it. Obviously I know that tomorrow there'll be school again, and that I still have my DAQ not done yet, but opps haha! I really am not in the mood to touch any homework yet.

Had lunch with Saniah and Hwarng yesterday at Holland V. I just don't know how to go about finding places in Holland V. Don't someone agree with me that everywhere looks alike in Holland V? Anyway, we happened to stop outside Thai Express so we decided to have our lunch there. I had a good laugh hah! And realising that Gwen and Saniah haven't done and submitted their Group VII tutorial, I feel quite glad that at least I had already submitted it eons ago.

Then, they proceeded to thread their eyebrows while I sat outside, looking at their areas around their brows that have turned red after threading, wondering when I will decide to bear with the pain just to get a neater eyebrow haha. Anyway, we went to eat yoghurt and I am so glad that I chose mangoes over strawberries (It has nothing to do with Phuong) because the mangoes are really sweet! (Again, nothing to do with Phuong) While eating, I happened to see Singgih haha, haven't seen him in ages. But he walked the opposite way so fine, anyway I doubt he can remember/recognise me.

Movie outing with dancers was cancelled due to the low enthusiasm and bad response. Okay, I guess it's because I gave a rather last minute notice of it. Refused to stay at home and asked lissya to go out with me. Even though I have already given in and agreed to meet her at Causeway Point, that woman refused to leave her house. In the end, I have to stay at home, thus now, having the time to blog and stuff.

By the way, I added this Comments section and I wanted to remove my tagboard actually. But well, let's just leave it there.

And quoting from PP, I've fallen in love with this phone - LG Lollipop. Please do ignore their weird names, I actually don't see how the phone has any association to lollipops besides its vibrant colours, but just take a look at it; I think it's really pretty! Especially the pink one.

http://i182.photobucket.com/albums/x27/lifeatmost/LG_LOLLIPOP.jpg

There're news of it being available in Singapore in the 4th quarter of the year but it is not a confirmed one. That's why, should I wait for it to come or should I just settle for another one which I don't like as much. I need some help here!

happenings

2009-07-04T20:46:00.002+08:00

Some interesting stuff happened today. Hah.

There was a mini explosion in my house. My sister was charging her MP4 or something then there was just this loud explosive-like sound and she screamed. All the next moment I realised it, the supply was cut off already. Went around the house switching off every switch I can find. And then with my sister still in shock, I decided to wake my brother up. We tried to behave like calm adults to solve this situation but couldn't. Tried to turn on the main power supply but no electricity came back. Actually, the moment we pushed up the thing it was really scary. At least it was to me, you never know whether the next moment you'll get electrocuted. Haha, in the end Mummy called the electrician or whoever luh, and he said how dangerous it was and stuff. Because it tripped not only the house one but also the one outside the house. And stuff like if the current (or is it voltage) bypassed the one outside, my sister would have gotten an electric shock. Anyway, nothing happened in the end which was phew!

And then, I overheard some conversation somewhere. Okay I eavesdropped :P It's like that,

A son: Mummy why don't we have a car?
The mum: Because we can't drive. Next time when you grow up, you can learn driving and drive me around.
A son: When I am in secondary school is it?
The mum: No, when you're older and working. When you're already an adult.
A son: Will you die by then already?

Haha. I tried my best to control my laugher. Actually kids are so innocent, although they often say things like that without thinking properly. I actually kind of miss going for CIP and seeing my Group9 girls (:

P.S. I still don't know what flip phone to get!

short rest before starting again

2009-07-04T19:45:00.002+08:00

It's finally over yay (: Okay I know if im going to type a lot a lot (Because I've a lot of things to say) It will make it seem like I'm writing paragraphs which a lot of ppl have been complaining about. So I'm going to divide my posts up haha so it doesn't look as if I wrote a lot.

Firstly math is bad, I've never felt so inconfident after finishing a math paper. Worse, I had a really bad headache and I really wanted to raise my hand and ask the invigilator to allow me to proceed to sick bay and I take a retest or something lol. But after that I decided to be smarter and not torture myself so I skipped those I don't know. Ended up at the last page and started again on trying to solve the qns I skipped, and the headache came back.

Secondly phy, the last paper, was a total killer. Okay maybe my phy sucks that's why but to me, it's really hard. Ms Tey said it's easy, I mean duh, she's a phy tcher! I've nothing much to say luh, just let me pass. I don't aim for my C in phy alr!

Seems like I've set too high a target for cts: math A chem B econs gp phy C. I wonder how many of the subjects will reach my desired grade. Probably 1 or 2 or none?!

It'll be kind of demoralising for me if I can't reach my goals. And then for that week I will probably be really emo, although I dislike people being emo. If you're wondering, gp chem and econs were okay. surprisingly haha. I really hope the results will show that I do know something and it's not just a self-delusion or something.

I haven't made much plans to go out yet and I think that will really mean that I'm going to be stuck at home all day. But even if so, I don't see how this can be worse than mugging nonstop.

And I'm quite sad because the outing with Shiqi is cancelled. ): Jurong Point 2 has opened for so long and I haven't had a proper walk around it before. That sucks! ): Maybe I just have no fate with JP, the other time Peisi Steph and I wanted to go there too but ended up having not enought time.

Okay, this shall end this post. I shall start another one :P

h1n1

2009-06-21T22:41:00.002+08:00

actually, i kind of hope that sch holidays will be extended due to h1n1. but that still isnt a good thing right. somehow, you can link it to the fact that the cases are rising.

anyway, passed by body shop during lunch. haha, omg lissya, i saw the hydrating spray luh finally! but its pomengrate, not strawberry ): nevertheless it smells rather good too. and i realise its limited edition luh omg omg! anyway, maybe some nice soul can go buy it now and give it to me on sept 11 haha :P cause its limited edition so u've to buy it now, but don't use it away okay!

oh and brother came home on friday after his 2 weeks confinement in pulau tekong. and he said he lost 3.5kg, which couldnt be seen. haha i guess he has to lose 10kg before i can start seeing the effect. well he went back to tekong today, sent him there and had dinner there. when coming home, daddy took a wrong turn and then i had to direct him cause the road looked familiar to me. but alas! i told him turn left when it was right. so it was wrong, and we had to look for the road directions along the way. was lost for 15mins? its quite cool actually that ive to look for directions together with my dad. maybe that will help when i take the theory for driving license. when should i do that? after a's or what? haha.

jingmin dear is influencing me to get lg icecream. but online reviews said how bad it was and stuff, like how it always lags and stuff. and my sis said all phones will tend to lag. and if i get lg icecream everyone else on the streets will have my phone. if i get se t707 its quite unique. but the keypad sucks man. so how?! should i get a phone that lags but nice keypad or what. whatever, actually its still three months till my contract is up.

oh and recently i kinda lost the motivation to mug. and wth, it had to happen during my last crucial week. oh well, i hope i dont regret when my results are out.

mugging2

2009-06-20T20:16:00.002+08:00

mugging...
nothing much to update, just telling everyone that im alive here haha.

lissya are you back from ur holiday. omg thats so unfair, she's having fun while im mugging?!

anyway its just a week to cts.
that means less time to study.
that also means cts will be over soon. and i can

-continue going to dance pracs like ive not stopped dancing,
-go pluck eyebrows w saniah,
-go window-shopping (cause im broke) and then cant resist the urge so buy things and end up being more broke,
-catch up w lissya (i havent had a nice talk with you for so long),
-chiobu outing w shiqi darling! (which has been postponed for a year?),
-lunch w sharon (which has been postponed for weeks),
-mugging sessions (which will turn into chatting sessions) with liwei and masu,
-meetups w good old friends like sam dear, xiaoxi, and go explore zb's house again

i'm totally ignoring the fact that results will be out soon )))))):
and then prelims and a's are actually right after cause time is so tight.

so am i supposed to hate the fact that there's only one more week or should i anticipate what happens after cts?

btw, its three more months and i will change my phone alr yeah! (: anyone got nice suggestions of clamshell/flip phones that're pretty and user-friendly?!

mugging

2009-06-14T23:09:00.001+08:00

i seriously hate mugging.
i wanna meetup with all my good old friends.
this sucks.

but its just two weeks more.
i cant let all my efforts so far go to waste.
fine two weeks more, urgh, then i will go shopping, meetup with everyone else, continue going to dance pracs like ive not stopped dance.

and till the few weeks before prelims, i will start worrying again.

antonio's bday

2009-06-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

meetups are fun! (:

i think i shd meetup soon with all those ppl i havent been keeping in touch with or havent seen for months or even years. just went to antonio's bday party which was like overcrowded with girls haha.

i seriously miss antonio alot! and im glad i went for this party. i truly enjoyed myself (: and knowing more about him again from all these updates. but omgosh, what happened to you man and your love life. haha, dont worry be happy! (:

dance performance: ip team at INSPIRE concert at hwachong jc. helped out yesterday and i finally found smth im good with. smoothing and blending the eyebrow part. i did a hair yesterday- yuan's and she kindly volunteered to let me do her hair today as well. i must really applaud you for your courage haha. did half of dengxuan's hair too today. makeup is fun! oh gawd, this may sound saddening but i probably wont have a second chance to do makeup for the juniors or any other person already. cause ive no more performances and im supposed to concentrate on mugging.

although i wont have a second chance to do this already, i still didnt regret leaving halfway before i can even do the eyebrow and makeup and went for antonio's party. seriously, everytime when im supposed to do dance stuff, but im somewhere else meeting friends or whatever, i always go home really grumpy cause ive less chance to spend time w my fav group of dancers. but not today. antonio has been really important to me all these years, my best guy friend ever. so yeah you know i left so early for you man. 6 years is definitely really long.

and before i end this post, if you happen to see this antonio, do know that 6 years is really very long and i appreciate you for being there for me throughout all these years. and sorry for not always being there for you haha. happy birthday and we're going to meet up soon after cts. attack your house again! btw maybe i can play with ur dog and try to conquer my fear of dogs.

happy birthday to my best guy friend ever! (:

online ):

2009-06-09T22:21:00.003+08:00

sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks! i knew it, i'll break my own promise and come online. but at least i do have a valid reason, ive to download my chem ws to do. but... mrs poon doesnt seem to have put it up yet. gosh i wanted 1.5hours coming online and slacking to find out aft 1.5hours that ive no ws to download!

anyway this will be a longer update cause pp will complain. seriously, everything also complain. and its not like you've updated ur blog. and even if you have, you have alot less updates than me! so dont complain. just read and appreciate that im spending time blogging.

heard from gwen that we actually have quite alot of invites! (: yeah haha, malay dance love is truly spreading far and wide. and more money rolling in yay. BUT BUT BUT. i cant perform! wth wth i dont even know if ive time to sit down there watching my juniors perform and controlling my urge to run up on stage to perform along with them. it sucks so much why cant i perform! and i dont remember there was that much invites last year. this is unfair, im grumbling so much i know. but you know how big this matter is! i cannot dance for any of these! ): its like last year irir, the seniors sacrificed their time to dance but but but, i think even if i were to willingly volunteer, i also wont be able to dance cause it just clashes with my prelims. wait, it suddenly dawned on me, does it mean it will clash with sh1s promos? oh please, okay i shant grumble anymore, let them perform. its better that the seniors cant perform than the whole team cant perform.

and that just goes to show how much i love njc malay dance. i havent gotten use to life without dance. cause im still involved in dance stuff, even though mummy kept on nagging. the choreography went well for ip team :D and quyen, the new nam, learns really fast :D to be honest, i was seriously impressed by how great the ip team was. i rmb last year, we cant change our steps immediately even though ms maya changed it. we have to like dance once or twice to get used to it. but the ips were so great. they rmb everything we changed. so proud of you guys (:

okay, this update is getting long. i know i shd stop complaining, but still, why cant i dance anymore ):

last time?

2009-06-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

i better blog and update before someone in vietnam spams my tagboard and tells me to update. and thats you pp :P

this might be the last update until three weeks later. but probably not so. i will probably not be able to control my urge to come online but only on weekends.

and till then, this will be my last update. bye

cip@rgps

2009-06-06T23:48:00.003+08:00

i sent my brother into army ytd. took a shuttle bus from pasir ris interchange to changi ferry terminal and then from there, took a ferry ride. about 15mins i guess. pulau tekong was interesting to me, haha altho my seniors all disagreed. i mean duh, if u've to go there and train 5days a week plus 2 weeks confinement at first.

its quite hard to find places close to nature nowadays alr. pulau tekong looks nice from far seriously. the buildings look some holiday resorts on a small island. and its definitely not small. my legs ache from too much walking. and please luh, ns men are lucky. the food so do not suck, the mushroom soup is nice okay.

and then i forgot to talk about cip@ rgps. we had some cip at rgps along with 2 or 3 other classes and then our roles there is to teach the girls there leadership and stuff like that. group9! : ANGELS! okay i so did not give the name but anyway, group 9 girls are so cute, esp huixin haha! they're all so innocent and stuff. i couldnt upload a photo of them cause i officially snatched my bro's laptop over ytd and the photo is not in his laptop.

anyway, yeah pp you're right the last random thought is definitely not random.

and ive to get into serious mugging mode. i know ive said this a dozen times but i still cant get into that mode. and then i know ppl have been telling me to relax instead of giving myself so much stress but then somehow, i cant. its only three weeks left for so many unfamiliar topics. wkb is seriously funny haha, he told me what to do and stuff. but his method is not applicable to me. or maybe i shd change my method of studying so that i can score like a scholar haha.

oh and i updated also 'cause i will blog less for the next few weeks till common tests are over. at first i forbid myself to come online at all but then yeah decided to give myself some free time by allowing myself to come online on weekends.

btw the episode of boys over flowers today is damn nice :P and then next week's episode looks equally nice too. gosh haha im so glad i controlled my addiction or smth.

oh oh and i kind of quite like certain things wkb do. like when he promises to himself, he will do it. (i will still assume that you do most of the stuff you promise) and i seriously dont have his kind of determination and stuff. and okay, that is going to make you feel significant again haha. but seriously, common tests is like irritating. i havent felt so stressed out for a TEST for so long. a TEST not even A'S yet and not even PRELIMS. but okay, probably that would really mean good results and it better do.

and i miss dance. so much. but i will not be dancing again. but at least i shd be involved in dance practices or performances and stuff so that i dont feel so distant from dance. and im glad that the hwachong INSPIRE concert performance is coming up and im helping the ip team out so yeah, i will see the dancers and i feel that im doing some dance stuff. thats gonna take 2 days of my mugging session out but who cares.

i love njc malay dance. and gwen said malay dance love is spreading far and wide :P

btw lissya, stop doing all those stupid quizzes luh haha. it will only disappoint you more, so sorry to burst ur bubble but you know its true. haha and stop doing for me luh!

-

2009-06-03T23:04:00.004+08:00

a random thought.

seeing everyone's blog link, i was thinking if i should change mine to smth more fanciful and cool. should mine be smth like lizhululu (haha for those who understands kawaitian language i.e. lissya, saniah, gwen and me) or lizhuhohiheha. (haha this one is lame) come'on people, give me some cool suggestions. BTW I DONT WANT THINGS LIKE LIZHU-THE-TSUNAMI OR LIZHU-THE-CUCKOO.

another random thought.

why is everyone not updating their blog. alison chew, the one who's supposed to be most active and gosh what happen to her blog. wkb closed down his blog (oh well like his updates were v frequent in the first place, haha but there's one less channel to know if he's emoing or not :P ) pp claimed his pw got lost, and the camera i installed on him tells me he's merely just giving an excuse by telling a lie. nghia's blog is stuck at the vietnamese post i cant understand. ok, for those who at least bothered to update, i shall not comment on you guys :D

one last random thought.

i really wonder if you know that ive been still frequently visiting your blog and reading every other line, trying to find out if you're happy or not. and my conclusion is you indeed are, besides all the mugging you've to do and stuff like that.

i always have this urge to comment but i dont want. or maybe i dont dare to. ive sort of disappeared from ur life for the past few months and i dont want to appear again cause i see that ur happy the way ur life is now. i seriously dont want to accept the fact that we've drifted apart, too far apart.

ive tried you know, trying to maintain a positive attitude and stuff, but this time it just doesnt seem to work. and i also dont know why. its a pity that it ended this way. i never thought it would be like this when we knew each other. yes, we may be different in one thousand ways, and i might not have a good impression of you beforehand, but i really enjoyed the few months we spent together. short-lived happiness.

i see you online now, and im like contemplating whether i shd talk or stuff or not. i cant seem to find a common topic already. its funny how two people who were that close are reduced to strangers with a mere few words. i dont want this to be another regret. i know i always say that i normally dont regret cause i dont believe in doing things i'll regret later on in life.

i just miss the old times. and i dont understand what made us drift apart so much. its cause you were there during my down-est moments that made you so special. its cause you're so important to me and im able to share both my ups and downs with you that makes you so awesome. i know whatever you say isnt a lie, but whats this. what happened in between... i want to know.

my blog link

2009-06-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

taking into account that i wont be blogging much for the next few weeks, i shall blog as much as i can these few days. i know pp's always there reminding to update when he himself dont update. and i know its a lie when he said he forgot his pw. eh pp ask me how i know :D

yesterday, i actually didnt come online at night. wow surprised D: i was busy mugging away seriously. you know, over the past week the sisc week 25th may till ytd 1st june, i actually have 4sets of chem ws uploaded online for me to do. this whole week of hw, and i only actually realised its existence yesterday at 12pm. MYGOSH. at 1230pm, i rushed off to CIP and unfortunately was still late, cause of the bus. only managed to reach home at around 5pm and only started mugging at close to 6pm. praise me, im so efficient, i finished one week of work in 4hours :D i knew it, if i really concentrate, i can do it :D i hope this means common test results will be satisfactory. oh and there isnt alot of mistakes luh after the chem session today :D so thats double joy?!

and hence that explains my temporary msn nick : ask me why im going to die soon. but then, ive recovered :D haha, so great. i didnt die afterall. im still so amazed at my own efficiency. however, ive been saying this for a long time but still, i have yet to come up with a timetable. there're so many things to revise for common tests and im freaking hell still here, blogging away instead of planning my timetable. but i promise i will be in serious mugging mode after this week.

life's boring without dance. tell me how to survive without dance. i like what gwen said :D if only we can have a company called njc malay dance and we get to work yet dance yet get paid. i want to dance forever.

scared

2009-05-31T22:29:00.003+08:00

i know this is stupid, dont ask me why. but im just scared. i think i shd go sleep soon, cause im feeling scared.

okay ive been having nightmares quite frequently. i know this sounds stupid that im still scared of nightmares but i am indeed! and i cant help it. i want to grow out of it too. but its quite hard for me. i wonder what is it indicating? im too stressed out? im really quite stressed out by common tests cause im having v high expectations of my results this time round. but the thing is i havent even started revising! i wonder how many nightmares i will have every night if im having intensive revision.

im going to stop blogging and stop coming online soon. okay probably only on weekends. and weekdays will be spent studying and mugging. people havent been updating their blog why huh!

its only 1030pm. wth the night is still young for most people. but im freaking scared cause of the nightmare i had ytd. why is the dark so scary. im scared to fall asleep cause i will have another nightmare but im even more scared to stay awake cause the dark is just so scary. so ive to force myself to go to sleep. at least its like, not every night i would have a nightmare right. maybe i can try to think of nice stuff before sleeping, probably i will dream of nice stuff.

the dream the previous night was a funny one though haha. no one shall know what is it. i shall just laugh alone whenever i think of it. its super cute and funny haha.

funny story

2009-05-27T22:58:00.003+08:00

my mum was telling me this interesting story.

at some crowded area, there's this woman and her daughter. they were walking and a teenage guy accidentally knocked her daughter. the woman claims that the guy molested her daughter and insisted on making a police report. the teenage guy, probably hasnt met with such problematic situations before, was like at a loss luh. so he kept on pleading with the woman to let him off. but the woman refused to (WTH IS WRONG W THE WOMAN)

and they attracted a large crowd luh. a lot of passers-by were like telling the woman forget it luh, since the guy didnt do it on purpose (and i bet the guy probably just brushed past the girl) and even if he did, just give him a chance luh. and the woman just refused to. so the passers-by were like saying you can go make a police report, they will be the witnesses for the guy that he didnt touch the girl.

anyway, this smart guy. as the woman was like ranting on and stuff, and like describing the situation or smth with a lot of hand gestures and movements, this guy silently stood near the woman. and when her hand accidentally touched a part of his body, he screamed MOLEST really loudly. haha quite funny, and the passers-by were like testifying for the guy that the woman molested him. so in the end, the woman had no choice but to not make any report.

smart guy huh. what a great way to solve this problem. but he made such a big sacrifice. he better go wash whichever part that the woman's hand touched. its like eww full of germs. whats wrong with that woman man -.-

i dont know why im wasting a post on this LOL

the last dance

2009-05-27T22:27:00.004+08:00

no matter how unwilling im to face it, the fact remains a fact. yesterday was the last day im dancing liku hidup.

when i wake up today morning, the hairspray smell still lingers around my hair haha. the shampoo i use just wouldnt get rid of that smell. but that is also going to be the last time im going to have this irritating smell on my hair. and actually suddenly, it doesnt smell that bad afterall.

thinking about the past syf trgs and stuff and post syf performances, i realised that all the rolling and that 200plus rollings at the raintree on a half day mrng doesnt seem v tiring afterall. the 'again's doesnt sound irritating anymore. the FT doesnt seem as painful and the PT doesnt feel v exhausting afterall. i'll in fact gladly do all these again if ive another chance to prepare for syf09 again.

all the outings, all the performances, every single dance practice, every birthday we celebrate leave me thousands of things to look back on. cause of njc malay dance, my jc life has been utterly awesome and colourful :D

so how can i bear to leave and step down urgh. gwen and i have got ready our running shoes and we will run back to practices anytime! so the next generation, dont think you can slack your way through huh. you will literally feel our presence. i could rantle on and on but my whole post will only revolve around one point, which is i love njc malay dance so much. i used to have thought that if only ive ip-ed into njc two years earlier. although ive to study in nj two years more, i also get to dance malay dance 2 years more. but then, things would have been different. i wouldnt have gone in cause angela went in, i might not even be in njc malay dance. everything happens for a reason.

okay anyway, and i want to say that it will not be my last dance. and it applies to all the sh2s too. it wont be our last dance, next year aristal, we will be back :D

and im seriously touched by all the 5 letters ive received : pp, thinking, eunice, shairah, saiful. and im expecting more right :D haha, whatever the case, ive read every single word carefully and i really appreciate all the time and effort you all have put in (:

and i remember that on syf day, charmaine's ipod was playing the national day song right, we will get there haha:

Remember the days,
we set out together with faith? (believing that we'll get our gwhs)
Remember the times, so fine, (thats before we know we're dancing w plates)
when we thought that nothing could stand in our way.
Then things weren't the same,
the life that we knew had to change. (thats when we know we've to dance w plates)
We've struggled through the darkest storms,
we thought we couldn't tame. (thats when our plates drop)
Together we've tried, (thats when we practise how to handle plates)
As we stood side by side (like literally in the formation)
I knew we'd build a new world,
a world of hope forever after. (we built njc malay dance)

Deep in my heart I just know,
right from the start we will grow. (our love grows& we grow into dancers)
Look where we are,
we've come so far and there's still a long long way to go (MORE GWHs)
With all of my heart, I will care.
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends, together we'll stand (so we can't sit next time)
And in the end, hand in hand, we will get there. (and we'll always be up there)

So now we begin, working together to win
Believing in trust, it must be possible to overcome anything.
There's so much to do,
there's so much we can contribute
By sharing just a little love,
we will start again anew
So why don't we try?
If we stand side by side
I know we'll build a new world,
A world of hope for ever after

downs

2009-05-24T22:05:00.004+08:00

i dont know how to phrase it. its not a v nice thing.

sometimes i really wonder. whether a short happy life is better. or a longer life but ur stuck with someone you dont love for 20years and counting.

life is actually so unpredictable right. lots of things happen all the time. and before you know it, you've lost the chance to do so.

it made me realise something. i really hate mugging you know. cause you get so tired so stressed up and stuff and the disappointment when you just cant get ur desired grades. but it really made me realise that as much as i hate it, i still have to mug. and it'd have been a total waste of my time if i had just gone to sch, not learning a single thing at all. and the thing is i dont have much time left for me to waste. as such, i shall not come online after 5june or smth like that. why 5 june. cause i still have alot of activities until up to 5th june.

dance is going to stop soon. like real soon, like in two days time. there's this huge part of me that will be like forcefully being taken away and ive to mug. (thats another reason why i hate mugging, 'cause ive to stop dancing). and it kind of feels weird and empty, cause ive nothing to look forward to when i come to sch, after im released from a tired day. and all im going to do for the rest of the year is to mug. and i better do well for a's 'cause i sacrificed so much. 'cause i've to stop dancing entirely. 'cause im going to see my dancers so much less.

and then yeah back to the topic again. i wonder how someone can endure being stuck with another person you dont love for 20years and counting. the thought enough is kinda scary right. it alr feels hard to be living with the one you love for 20years, seeing the same face for 20years, i mean not only love, understanding, communication all those are necessary to sustain this relationship for 20years. so its hard. and someone you dont love... but there isnt really an excuse right. whatever, i just pray and hope that it will never happen to me. i mean duh, it absolutely definitely wont.

ive been losing my temper quite alot these days. being really pissed off at my mum and stuff. seriously, mums are really naggy gosh. i appreciate all she has done for me but sometimes, its just irritating luh. but alright i shant complain. scholars will kill me for not appreciating what ive.

i will pray and hope that she is happy wherever she is. they are happy and the baby will grow up healthy, happy and stuff. we will all be there together for them right. although i dont know her v well, i still couldnt help feeling sad. this shouldnt even have happened in the first place.

on a happier note, my little neighbour, cute little alicia, has learnt to speak :D she's always so excited to see me around these days and she just brightens up my whole day! yeah yeah she just called me jiejie, like finally! after so long that her mum made her say that, she finally said hi jiejie to me and omg you shd just see how cute she is :D btw scholars, jiejie means sister.

greedy

2009-05-21T22:16:00.002+08:00

the other time at gp lecture, ms kaur said that greed is not good. haha, i was just thinking probably in my case right now, it isnt so negative right. in the case of greedy for higher marks. last year, i aim for pass in all my subjects, okay probably aiming for smth better in maths. now, im actually not satisfied with a mere pass. i aim for higher marks, smth way higher than whatever im getting now. but i dont know if the effort that ive put in is enough. it doesnt seem so, cause if it was, i wouldnt get the marks im not satisfied with...

perhaps this kind of greed is alright? it motivates me to work harder hopefully. haha, okay some other things. sharon tey said to hang out someday next week. haha aww, i know she loves me :D could we go to the icecream place at sixth avenue (: i miss the waffle alr haha since the other time i ate it with dancers :D

and then i randomly talk to ly about prom dress. haha oh yay she'll design for me RIGHT haha. its quite early to talk about prom but omg im so excited to see what wonderful designs she could come up with :D haha someday, i will meet up w her to discuss about it. what kind does she thinks suit me and what kind do i like.

oh and shiqi darling, when's our outing. it has been dragged for MONTHS. were we supposed to go out last dec or LAST JUNE! mygosh haha, and then we will go marks and spencers to get FOOD. haha shiqi is a greedy woman too when it comes to food :D i shall go and get my all-time fav biscuits which ive been eating during dance pracs.

i see mdm teh today haha. i saw pinyan too. i ate jap food today. ok the proper name is asian delights or smth like that. it totally sucks with udon. seriously haha or probably its just me. i dont like udon i think that ramen are better. but speaking of which, kobayashi's udon is not bad. i miss it, but i probably only can find it at cineleisure now.

i want to eat sushi luh. next wed? hopefully can, if not i dont need to eat alr luh ):

happy birthday

2009-05-18T22:07:00.002+08:00

TO TWO OF THE MOST WONDERFUL LADIES IN MY LIFE :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:

to hwarng (17/5) and lissya (18/5), i love you :D

to mingli (16/5), jimmy (17/5) and mark (18/5), happy birthday as well :D

mingli, hope ur ns life is GREATTTTT HAHA
jimmy, hope you and ur wife and daughter will live happily ever after :D
mark, hope you will be happy always :D

bdays are nice occasions. have a great day people!

life's good!

2009-05-17T21:14:00.002+08:00

haha i thought that ive really changed. being real positive about life and stuff. and totally unaffected by those emo kids haha. thursday wasnt an awesome day. some things just werent going my way and i was kinda affected by it.

but just when i wanted to go and emo away for a while, something nice happened! :D liwei called me at 11:13pm! it came as a huge surprise, i was totally too surprised and i didnt know how to react for a second or two, but quickly picked up the call. haha it was a nice conversation but you know, i wont ever sacrifice my sleep for anyone/anything. so yeah hanged up after a while and went to sleep. obviously for the first 15mins i was tossing around in bed, too excited to sleep! :D

and then on friday after tech run, saniah gwen and i cabbed down to vivo to support ly for her compt :D some of the dresses are really pretty and the dress that ly the great designer is wearing is really pretty! and it was the purple dress she told me about last dec hols that she designed and made in vietnam. wahlao eh, cao nv hai ly, i officially engaged you to design my prom dress for me this year luh! :D oh and ly's design got into top10.

then sat, i went to fareast. haha just walked and walked and walked. great sg sales is coming! 29th may haha! hopefully all the pretty clothes and shoes and accessories will be even cheaper and then i will SHOP haha. i freaking hell need to go get a job after a's in order to spend on everything i wanna get.

and then, channel u showed the korean drama, boys over flowers, at 915pm ytd! omg omg haha its damn nice! :D i was so tempted to continue watching i immediately went on youtube to watch the next episode! so next sat ive to watch a repeat of what ive watched. but alright, they're all cute guys so its okay :D still, ethan ruan is cuter. but as the show progresses they might be of equal standing as ethan ruan. anyway, thats the 2nd reason why im so happy. the show is nice! :D and the first reason is cause liwei called me luh.

the next 2 weeks are going to be rather slack. if im not called back for lessons, i actually have nothing to do for week 10 except preparing for sisc opening and helping ip team prepare for sisc cultural night.

and talking about it, i just couldnt help but to get a lil sad. this week is going to be like my last week of official dance practice. sisc opening is my last dance performance. im so unwilling to face it, that ive to step down, but its approaching real fast. next week, at this time, it will be only 2 days to my last dance performance...

anyway, hope secret mission succeeds! :D

love match

2009-05-12T22:12:00.003+08:00

im actually not supposed to be online, i can do like 1 hr more of hw, but urgh im on a secret mission :P and therefore, im online, so i will be blogging. haha 'cause i've some interesting things to share (:

okay there's this sort of like game thingy in my hp, and then okay i was feeling bored in the afternoon so i was playing with it. you know its like those love calculator thingy, but this one calculates work and friendship too. ive some calculations and i thought its freaking true! but wait, first, you must follow the step to obtain your day number first :

- Add the digits for your day of birth, and keep adding them until they reduce to one number. eg:
7 June = 7
14 March = 1+4=5
28 Nov = 2+8=10, and 1+0=1
29 Jan= 2+9=11, and 1+1=2
30 May= 3+0=3

okay, so following the examples, i got my number which is 1+1=2 and i found some that're like freaking true. so im going to share here. you can ask who these ppl are. but the initials may or may not be their surname or first name or last name.

MY EX CRUSHES WHICH OBVIOUSLY FAILED TO BLOSSOM:
the person's number: 7 (Mr. X and Mr. O)
2 stars! not an obvious success! 2 respects 7's mind but feels a duty to drag them out of being unhappy. when what 7 really needs is solitude. to work longterm, much negotiation is needed.

the person's number: 9 (Mr. Z)
3 stars! could be good! you broaden each other's horizons and are willing to learn from one another, but 9 needs emotional privacy. patience is required; let this bond find its own pace.

SOME FAILED RSHIPS OF MY FRIENDS:
5+4 ( Mr. X + Ms. H) :
2stars! tricky! few areas of common ground, here : 4 will always be trying to hold 5 down to discuss the future, while 5 lives for the moment. 5 will have to be flexible and 4 indulgent for this to work.

7+7 (Mr. X + Ms. M) :
3 stars! strong magnetism! you excite one another and may bring out the best in each other... or you may compete, and turn highly critical. this meeting of minds may not be grounded enough; handle with care.

i believe no one is interested with my relationships w my ex-colleagues but well, they're all quite good! like at least 3 stars! so now, i will move on to friendships!

the person's number: 2 ( Ms. X)
2stars! can be strained! you've too much in common, perhaps and may hit out at each other's weak spots. mutual understanding of each other's sensitivity should help here. not the easiest of friendships.

the person's number: 4 (SHARIFAH SANIAH AND ANTONIO ZB :D )
4stars! close friends! 2 finds 4 truly reliable and loyal, and makes 4 laugh quietly at small disasters, and 4 encourages 2 to be more hands-on about life. these numbers give each other support.

the person's number: 5 (Mr. J + Mr. J)
1star!!! chalk and cheese! 5 seems short-sighted to 2, undervaluing things that 2 feels have great merit, while 2 seems too serious and strait-laced to 5. different styles to everything!

the person's number: 7 (WKB, PP)
5stars!!! kindred spirits! things that may irritate 2 about 7 in a romance are an inspiration in friendship: 7 takes on the world and doesnt back down - and 2 adds considerable charm to the argument. a good bond!

the person's number: 8 (GWEN HWARNG)
4stars! lifelong chums! you think, feel believe in similar things, and each see both sides of an argument. and 8 relies on 2's good judgement - which so often corroborates theirs. a very strong friendship!

the person's number: 9 (NURLISSYA BINTE SUWANDI)
3stars! good friends! 2 brings practical thinking to 9, and 9 bolsters 2's self beliefs. 9 likes 2's kind spirit, but may wish they pushed themselves forward a little more. perhaps 9 can help here?

AND LISSYA SPECIALLY CALCULATED FOR YOU, PLEASE DO SEE THIS AS GOOD ADVICE :
8+9 :
2stars! lacking in romance! both are spiritual numbers, which can be liberating and exciting as lovers, and you have similar mindsets... yet passion may not feature strongly. perhaps a little businesslike?

and with this, i shall end this kinda long post. if you've smth you want me to calculate, just tag at my tagboard. your number and the person's number so that means you need the person's bday luh. haha this is like 75% accurate from what ive done so far. like even the words and stuff, not just the number of stars.

result of too much dramas

2009-05-11T00:01:00.002+08:00

i was watching some drama on youtube and the result of it is that you get a lil down. 'cause the plot is like so saddening luh! but i like watching these dramas. good dramas seriously reflect whatever we will encounter in our lives. altho i love happy endings, but sometimes i like sad endings as well 'cause our lives are never perfect. and thats why we should all learn how to make it more perfect by being less emo (:

eunice is getting out of her emoing mood already (: lissya dont start emoing okay. im your 2nd motivation :D alison's recent blog posts consisting of alot of unknowns feel emo, alison stop being emo! wkb is less emo too (: yay he's slowly reviving haha!

okay sorry to the vietnamese people and malays, you cant understand these but well. these are song lyrics. dont ask me to translate the whole song, it would have lost its meaning 'cause if i can translate it that well and still retain its meaning, i can go be a songwriter already lol.

刘力扬一个人就好

街挤满了欢笑
太不适合眼泪凑热闹
快跑快寻找无人的转角
不优雅时候一个人最好

爱说退就退潮
我松开手回忆却没放掉
未来不来了地球继续绕
躲回温暖的梦我一个人就好

为什么越相信谁能依靠
越换来又一次灵魂寂寥
有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药
如果说越踏出世界一脚
越不能保留住天真微笑
那从今以后我一个人过就很好

心很平静地跳
只是寂寞潜伏像海啸
突然某一秒偷袭我眼角
眼泪自己擦掉我一个人很好

S.H.E. - 天亮了

天亮了天亮了地球又转一圈了
世界还活生生地存在着还活着没想到我还活着

穿越一场海啸什么滋味我终于亲身体会
天崩地裂精疲力竭灵魂不在身体里面
然而万岁万岁终于和你有个了结

你一边我一边我们的世界最好别再重叠
也别再回想那个太长太长的昨天
太多爱太多泪别再这样浪费

天亮了天亮了地球又转一圈了
既然我还幸运地活着当然要全力以赴去快乐
天亮了天亮了世界还是好好的
什么痛都是很渺小的看太阳不是又升起来了

结束一段感情当然不像搬个家那么方便
太多细节太多碎片堆在回忆那间房间
但是忍耐一点不去碰它就不危险
你没变我没变我们到最后才弄懂这一点
人活着不就为了实现一个个心愿
好可惜我和你许了不同的愿

天亮了天亮了地球又转一圈了
既然我还幸运地活着当然要全力以赴去快乐
天亮了天亮了世界还是好好的
什么痛都是很渺小的看太阳不是又升起来了

我的心是我的不会再给你了
我是我自己的我很快乐

sometimes, i seriously wonder why people can write out such meaningful lyrics. haha maybe i will have one more ambition besides wedding planner and hotel manager, i shall be a songwriter too :D

200th post

2009-05-10T00:09:00.002+08:00

its my 200th post, as what blogger has stated. it ought to be some special post. BUT nothing extremely special has happened recently. i dont have special things happening in my life, only small lil things. but its all these small lil things that make life great. ive said this a thousand times, and im glad its beginning to sink into eunice and emo ppl lol.

okay i'll try to find smth happy to talk about. i realise ive been improving for econs. i was damn damn happy to realise that whatever ms lee said in her essay outline, ive written them down in mine. i couldnt felt any more proud to know that i actually seem to be moving in the right direction. damn glad, oh and quantum phy quiz was alright :D

maths test was horrible though, i just hope that the marks dont come out bad. and by bad, i mean just pass.

dance on thurs! smth i was kinda looking forward to 'cause this week has been draggy and urgh. altho it started off w a half day on monday. anyway, lt5 stage is seriously freaking small to be considered a stage of a performing arts theatre. plates fly, ppl and by ppl i actually only mean joey haha, got stuck to the wall while backrolling, and then our circle became an oval, at least from my point of view, it was an oval. but overall, i laughed a lot haha life's great w dancers around :D

BY THE WAY, smth not really nice : there're only like 6/7 more dance sessions to go. i really really really really dont want to step down. gwen, lets carry out our plan haha. we will run back to prac even aft we're forced to step down (:

OH and strawberry has arrived! on thursday night isit. a new addition to our big family yay! (: when are we going to visit mrs. j and zoey! gosh gosh gosh im going to carry her dont snatch from me people! *JUMPS AROUND EXCITEDLY* mean people, can you guys stop thinking that i will drop the baby... i wont luh! its not like ive never carried a baby before.

ppl seem to be less emo recently. yay :D

fan!

2009-05-03T22:52:00.003+08:00

okay pp told me to update, haha i was going to anyway.

sat spa, hah its expected or maybe not so. i only got to hear that its thermistor on the bus. but anyway, you know my attitude, i dont really care/bother to study about spa. and i didnt die haha. at least not that badly. i managed to do the application part too. although i found out i wrote it wrongly WAHLAO.

mr lim said stack the tables and chairs up haha but i dont care. i grab my bag and run out, im the first one out! and then when i ran down i saw huiwei gosh haha. the two of us were the first two to dash out of the hall i guess. the canteen stairs were blocked but we dont really care. we ran down lol, although there was some man fixing smth on top. and thats exactly why we ran, in case anything drops down and hit us. half the dancers are already done and some of the guys were sleeping. so all in all, they were all really fast and cooperative so thanks dancers : D

okay, soon by 10 or so, me and huiwei were done too. ms ting bought sausage mcmuffin for us, i ate half of it but were too full, somehow haha. but anyway thanks ms ting :D went to the raintree to try out and was SHOCKED to know that the stage we're dancing on is actually half of what we're practising all along. MYGOSH. while trying out the stage, 'cause there wasnt boundaries, we unknowingly extended the stage ourselves haha.

okay got to malay heritage centre and we have to go through temp check. yeah okay i must say the sg is really vigilant alr, so tgt we can fight back the swine flu :D was kind of HORRIFIED when we got up the stage 'cause its really small. i dont know if its just me, but i wasnt enjoying the performance. i was worrying whether i will hit the equipments behind me or not, or will i backroll down the stage. i know a few ppl purposely didnt do a proper backroll in fear of rolling down the stage. all in all, weird but alright, we managed to all stay on stage hah!

after that, wasnt feeling well. so im sorry if i was fierce eunice. but i dont think i am what! haha, wanted to go have lunch w the dancers but really felt terrible so i went home to rest instead. had like 2 hours of nap so i was kind of feeling better and i ate lunch at 5pm haha. oh yeah, thanks to the guys 'cause i know they pack up the stuff really fast. i was at one side, didnt feel like doing anything, and before i know it, they're done. thanks guys :D

then some fun things happen! at 6plus PM or so, i went out to meet this fan guy haha to buy FAN lol. damn funny, and he's DAMN PICKY haha. and he knows it. anyway, we managed to get this fan luh, and his room is now well ventilated huh. and then yeah kind of fun, its the first time im shopping for a fan! and im glad i was being totally decisive and said 'BUY!' when he left the decision to me 'cause if not for me, both of us would be stuck there forever. i went home soon after.

and after that he said this to me :
'but i dont feel that guilty when i trouble you like that'
'haha to other ppl i wouldnt want them to come even if they offer help lor'
'yea coz youre close friend, close enough you wont feel guilty la'

and it just summarizes up everything. that all the quarrels are not that bad afterall, haha quite worth it but then again its going to be PEACE from now on.

so lissya, gwen hwarng, saniah and all the other dancers, peisi lilin steph, haha see this! i dont need to feel guilty for troubling you all next time :D

yay once again, i shall repeat this to emo ppl : its all this lil things in life that makes you feel significant loved and happy (:

nghia

2009-04-30T23:35:00.003+08:00

nghia, this post is for you. be touched (:

being in malay dance for 1.5years, i really hate it that ppl have to leave. firstly, dinah left. then, seniors step down. and then shiqi left. its 'cause i love malay dance so much that i hate to know that some ppl in this family is going to leave us. today, your last dance trg w us, nghia. i dont know what to say luh actually. im not close to you enough to talk about whatever the vietnamese boys have mentioned in their blog. urgh wait, my thoughts are all jumbled up now. okay lets start from when i first know you. i rmb it was until like aristal period that i finally know the guys in malay dance. and then after that, when i got into the exco, became your exco leader, then its when i start to know more about you.

cant really find a right word to describe you. haha, definitely not anti 'cause i know that we all love malay dance a lot. it sucks to have ppl leaving. esp when i only start to know more about you this year. but i know that you're going to soccer which you love alot. and everyone will hope that you're happier there, im sure. but its not going to be the same anymore. i wont come to the hall and see someone sitting at some corner and listening to mp3 haha. i wont see someone wearing some stupid hat. i wont dance with this someone again. i wont see this backview in the photos that we take anymore. i wont see this expressionless face in pictures anymore. haha, its going to be different and weird that you're not dancing w us anymore, but like what whoever said, njc malay dance is a family, and you will be part of us forever.

and then some things ive to say first : you're not supposed to pretend that you dont know me! you're supposed to come down as often as possible, even if you're just sitting there doing nothing. you're supposed to come for seniors farewell and join in the planning and best if you are performing haha. you're supposed to wave as enthusiastically back at me as i will wave to you haha.

I LOVE NJC MALAY DANCE MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY <3

chinese

2009-04-26T18:29:00.003+08:00

maybe i was too influenced by the vietnamese post on porkpau's blog. haha i have this urge to post in chinese. and i know half the people who bothered to read my blog and tag and stuff dont understand chinese, but whatever. ask someone to translate for you, or approach me :D either that, or you can use the link that ive provided, i use it to translate the vietnamese words i see :P haha, its not a good translation, 'cause its direct translation i guess. but you shd be roughly able to get the meaning: http://www.translation-services-usa.com/vietnamese.php

最近我身边的人都很想不开心。快乐真的可以很简单，如果你愿意的话。烦恼谁没有？一个人要开心或烦恼其实都是自己决定的。我猜想身边的人因该都是有烦恼的事吧。遇到困难时，你可以选择面对它，解决它，然后不再让它打扰你的生活。可是，就有很多人选择逃避，然后然它继续一直追着你，直到它追上你，向乌云一样笼罩着你，让你喘不过气来。其实，你可以回头面对它，打倒它的。可是，大多数的人就是没有那个勇气-他们害怕身后有个大巨人。

我们似乎总是把事情想得太复杂。如果你鼓起勇气转过头，你会发现它只是只迷了路的小狗。那个骨头打发走它，或者帮它找回主人，它就不会跟着你了。它的主人或许还回答谢你，给你一个意想不到的惊喜呢。逃避不是解决问题的方法。即使你穿山越岭，逃到天涯海角，摆脱了之前的那只小狗，在天涯海角，还是会有另外一只迷了路的小狗的。摆脱了小狗后，记得不要老是回头望; 那只会给自己没必要的担心。

我们不能老是逃避，我们必须学着面对。遇到问题时只会逃脱的人，千万不要跟我喊累，因为你的累是你自己咎由自取的。如果你早就肯解决问题，你不会感觉到压在身上的负担，也不会感到疲惫。

真的，如果每个人都能抱着这样的观念，问题都能解决，你们都会开心，我也会。世界会更美好，天空永远都会晴朗。真的，其实快乐就这么简单，只是看你有没有勇气去寻找你自己的快乐。

i tried translating with the online translator. HAHA its quite funny. maybe you can get it maybe you cant. if you cant then come and find me or some chinese luh. they will tell you. its not an emo post ppl, its an inspirational post btw :D

lots of things

2009-04-26T00:17:00.002+08:00

lots of things have been happening this week. okay, firstly, life is roughly back to normal, ive been catching up quite well. but i know i will lag behind again, once dance starts. but okay, whatever i can do now is to just do as much hw as possible.

speaking of which, i cant keep to my schedule of finishing maths and chem hw today! urgh, this com is really a huge distraction man. i really should start to stop myself from coming online. okay anyway, the weather is really bad nowadays, take care people! ive been having headaches almost every single day, and it sucks 'cause you just feel like sleeping and not doing work.

i was almost crazy from mugging maths on thursday. some unpleasant things happen lets not mention it. unpleasant things always happen, you've to learn to forget about it. anyway, i was almost on the verge of breaking down 'cause i spent so long doing stats qns, which is like wth! at 5pm, finally exco meeting starts, so i took my mind off from maths for a while. realised that there're more performances then ive expected (:

friday which is yesterday i received back phy lecture test. gosh i shant say the marks it was really bad. but i cant expect much 'cause i didnt study a single thing. okay obviously i tried to get some equations into my head before going into the lt, but yeah i really didnt touch the notes the night before. and i knew i was dead, 'cause efield, bfield, gfield is one of my worst topics. but the marks on the test paper shant discourage me, in fact, it shall motivate me to work harder. being weak in the fields isnt an excuse to not do well.

today went bugis w my sister. 'cause i thought its so long since ive gone out, i really felt like a no-life person. okay, i purposely bring as lil money as possible so that i wont splurge, and luckily i brought lil money. if not i'd be really really broke right now. but it sucks to be unable to buy all the pretty clothes and shoes and bags URGH i really need money! okay that sounds materialistic but whatever.

and... my brother is going to enlist into army soon :D 5 june! okay, not really soon. but the thought of grabbing his laptop over and use it as mine. and then, yeah he's going to not be home for 3months or close to 4months! 'cause he's obese and he has to have extra 2 months of basic military trg haha. yay i hope when he's allowed to come home, i'll see a totally different brother, some hot dashing one :DDDDD and i heard that guys are nicer to their sister after going through ns, i dont know why, but i will wait and see if its true (:

oh btw, tmr is star awards. ethan ruan is coming. mygosh, jiamin will be there too. i dont know if she's performing but wth, does that mean she will be able to get to see ethan ruan?! i got to stick to the tv tmr, afterall its a once in a year event and somemore this year is like 1.5year from the previous one. therefore, conclusion i must finish my hw in time tmr! thus, off to sleep. so i can wake up early to do so :D

thanks to my significants

2009-04-19T22:09:00.002+08:00

http://www.facebook.com/posted.php?id=1121297104&share_id=69349664300#/video/video.php?v=71479658035&ref=share

this is the link to the jc team syf video which gwen has kindly uploaded. i dont know why im putting the link here. for non malay dancers who want to see i guess.

its been almost two weeks after syf. and life is getting real boring without dance. three weeks of break is seriously way too long. im getting fat without pe and dance haha. and chinese dance syf is coming soon soon soon! so is angklung's! all the best people (:

I WANT DANCE TO START START START START START!
okay anyway, on friday, we gathered to have dance dinner. i practically just kept eating the veggies 'cause that is the only few non spicy stuff. nevertheless, the dinner was nice and i was super duper full. im ashamed to be later than most people when i live the nearest haha. quite sad that i didnt have time to meet up w jimmy and alvin before dinner. but yea, hope everything's good for them :D

reached home earlier than the scholars! first time ever :D supposed to mug chem spa but ended up chatting online again. haha, woke up normal schooltime for spa. it was alright luh, except a stupid equation that ive gotten wrong, that isnt anything missing i guess? anyway that was the last chem spa ever alr :D met saniah and gwen and went to kap for breakfast! attempted to wake the scholars up but gave up knowing how lazy scholars are LOL. sat at one corner and started crapping and gossiping and whatever not. i want dance to restart!

and then recently ive started to learn to be more appreciative of things and people around me. and lissya told me in the morning that i was the first to know about TAC AWW :D i thought i was the first few i didnt know i was the first! HAHA and i hereby thank nurlissya binte suwandi for making me feel so significant. and to ________, haha i guess you dont want your name to be publicized, but aww thanks for all those lil stuff too! you make me feel significant as well! and it was so nice to hear that you feel equally significant too :D

i shall acknowledge people often (: btw eunice lim, you better correct your spelling mistake on your blog RIGHT NOW! but its such a heartwarming scene. 20 years later haha :D

btw i found a nice song (: its time to change my blog song!

why unhappy

2009-04-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

after reading some blog posts, i realise people like to post v cheem stuff, things that are really profound which i couldnt quite grasp. and some of my friends' posts are really emo. sometimes, why can't we just look at things more simply? it makes everyone happier you know.

09 has been a great year for me, i dont know why. probably when i start growing older, and hopefully being more mature haha, i start to look at things from a different light. its not that i dont have my sad times whatever not, but its that i choose to ignore them and remember only the happy moments. 'cause ive learnt from past experience that there's no point weeping and crying and sobbing over smth that most likely couldnt be changed. thats why you cry right, 'cause you know you cannot do anything to salvage the situation. and i always tell myself this, after i cry, i must get up again, forget about it and move on with my life.

it sucks to see friends emoing and being sad. seriously, life is never easy and i used to feel that its so hard you know. 'cause ive to laugh and smile like nothing happened but deep down i actually dont feel like smiling. 'cause i just want my friends to not get affected. but i started to change. i dont know if ive turned more selfish in a way, or ive just learnt to love myself more. i dont force myself to laugh for the sake of laughing, and surprisingly it gets increasingly easy for me to smile and laugh, truly, sincerely, from the bottom of my heart.

really, if we just look around us, look at the small little things that happened, be appreciative of them, im sure you can find smth to make you genuinely smile for that day (:

to all friends, really be happy. esp the one emoing away you know who you're. and those that has emo posts too and that girl who is having a moodswing or whatever not. 'cause its really when you're happy that i'll be happy too (:

jiamin!

2009-04-13T21:45:00.003+08:00

i think jiamin did well yesterday (: and i know she gave her best, so im really proud of her. truly proud of her like how im proud of my malay dancers :D

just read the newspapers. there're some rumours going around saying that jiamin lost 'cause her popularity dropped due to her rumours with yuyang or smth. smth like that. i couldnt rmb the real thing so i dont want to give the wrong info.

but what i want to say is... PLEASE! DONT WE HAVE MORE INTERESTING THINGS TO TALK ABOUT?! like how well she sang or smth, why do we have to keep on harping on the same issue?!

i used to ask someone smth, and he told me this answer which i wasnt satisfied with. so i said 'wahlao dont lie luh. its so obvious that its not true.' and he told me this, which really sort of like enlightened me. 'if you dont believe me, why do you even bother asking me in the first place' VERY TRUE!

ive not personally asked jiamin about this but since she've clarified so many times that they're just good friends, then let it be. i believe her! (:

and people who tagged on jiamin's fc blog, you can dislike her style of singing, disagree with her choice of songs whatever. as long as its a professional judgement, but stop disliking her 'cause of whatever rumours you've heard which might not even contain 1% of the truth. 'cause she's my friend and i know she's the best! (: and im really proud of her that she's so strong and she really dont get the least affected by all these crap. go jiamin! i love you the way you are : D

okay, smth nice happened today!
at 9.56am, cao liwei messaged me! on his own accord, i swear i was utterly surprised i screamed haha. and i couldnt stop beaming for the next 15mins when his smses were being received. sometimes, we shldnt look so deep into things. the fact that he actually sms me first is smth really rare alr. if we could all be appreciative of the little things that happen, imagine how wonderful life would be! (:

sick

2009-04-11T22:00:00.002+08:00

im still sick ): it doesnt seem to be any better from yesterday. i hope im okay tmr if not i wont be able to go support jiamin luh! anyway all the best jiamin!

and happy birthday xiaojun! (: though you probably wont read this! haha i guess you'll be super excited for me knowing that ive future mugging sessions with liwei :D :D

okay i forgot what i want to say ): thats stupid right haha.

anyway, i really think that its all those little things in life that accumulates up to all the big happiness (: i never felt that life was that great, 09 has been a wonderful year for me! my results are improving, malay dance has given me lots of love, s21 has been fun all the things. i really felt like life couldnt be any better!

okay, and what i want to say is that the national day song 'we will get there'.

' deep in my heart, i just know.
right from the start, we will grow.
look where we are, we've come so far,
and there's still a long long way to go.

with all of my heart, i will care.
i'll play my part, i'll share.
with FAMILY and friends, together we'll stand
and in the end, hand in hand, WE WILL GET THERE'

and yes malay dancers, we've alr gotten there! yay and right there's still a long long way to go. im sorry im still in the malay dance got gold w honours mood. i was dancing to sarong dance music and plate dance music just now. and replaying the recorded part ' national junior college : gold with honours' along with travis' screams, i just cant help but think of our glorious moment again.

and i want to talk about this really long ago but i kept forgetting. alicia! she's my neighbour. she's like about 1 year plus. she's super cute you know! she knows how to call jiejie alr, but she just wouldnt call me ): but she'll wave hi and bye to me! omg and she knows where is her hair and eyes already. omg she's so adorable man! :D

oh and ive lost one or two kilo since dance camp. and i presume i will lose another kilo 'cause i didnt eat much this two days since ive no appetite. ahah which to me, is a good thing! 'cause i can shed away fats easily :D

syf day

2009-04-10T22:56:00.002+08:00

post syf celebrations! okay luh it wasnt a total failure considering we changed plans at 11pm yesterday. it wasnt that bad afterall! (:

gossiping session was fun though! haha but what is said remains within venezia. so for those who werent there, haha toobad!

okay im down with a cold. had a slight fever and flu. actually my head was kind of heavy before i left house for lunch alr. but 'cause its malay dance outing, i dont want to miss it! :D im sorry to anyone who happened to share stuff with me. i think no one except lissya. but we ate our waffle separately so it shd be alright. no germs going around i hope. haha im okay alr now! just that i still feel weak and yea weak. but i made it home safely so yea. being sick sucks, so lizhu get well soon (:

let me recall about syf. i remember on tue, we were excused at 12 to start and therefore end training early. didnt end at 430 as planned. it was dragged till 530. but i remember i was feeling nervous 'cause the dance doesnt seem to be perfect or smth yet. and whats more, during warmup, in an attempt to prevent muscle aches the next day, i stretch myself to the maximum and in fact over the max. 'cause i heard some tearing sound in my left thigh, i think i pulled smth. it still hurts now!

on wed mrng when i wake up, i was so afraid 'cause i couldnt walk properly. i was limping and i cant put my weight on my left leg. i jumped around and walk alot although it was quite painful 'cause if i dont, i cant dance properly later! the first warmup round my thigh was still painful and it was a horrible one. oh yea and thanks joycelyn's parents for fetching me to school. how do i say. it was cool. the makeup is COOL and this time, i can see my fake eyelashes :D :D :D :D :D :D so pretty but pricky and heavy. went up to get brunch for the dancers along w thinking and kurt. haha i think everyone was staring at me and thinking 'cause we're like in makeup and everything alr. thinking seriously needs to learn some chi!

okay just lag around for a while and before we know it, its time for the last few warmup rounds. some teachers came to watch and some students were there too. the ip team was sitting right infront of us. i really feel like im dancing just 'cause i want to show how great njc malay dance is. and at that point of time, i felt that we were ready. truly ready and we did it!

the 7minutes on stage passed by like 2mins?! i didnt cry 'cause i didnt want my makeup to smudge haha. and partly 'cause i was enjoying the moment that i didnt think about crying i dont know luh. the wait for the results is kind of torturous. altho we kept saying that the gold w honours isnt that impt, somehow it just is to me. its a way to prove that njc malay dance can do it. dialogue session, wth the judges spoke in malay. whats more, lissya couldnt understand everything they say 'cause its diff from the malay she know, and she gave up translating i gave up listening too. thinking wanted to sleep 'cause he wrote notes till 2am the previous night -.- haha but we ended up talking, quite alot, about random stuff.

smth funny happened:
me : eh thinking can you put down your legs.
thinking : why? you put down yours luh.
me: i cant put down mine.
thinking: why not?
me: 'cause my legs cant touch the floor and it feels weird!

i just like attacked myself haha. when the gold and gold w honours came out of the judges' mouth, i really couldnt take it anymore but cry. imagine all the hard work and everything. even up till today, i still cant believe we really did it :DDDD im so proud of all the dancers. my last syf, the best one. no wonder they always say save the best for the last. haha

btw smth random, A for pw! like what huiwei says, it just multiplies the joy!

and P.S. happy birthday huiwei! (:

gwh!

2009-04-08T23:12:00.001+08:00

my mind is still in a whirl and i still need time to calm down. quoting eunice, 'we always know that we will shine, what surprises us is that we shine so bright.' and quoting pp or whoever, 'we came here as winners, and left here as CHAMPIONS'.

i need to sort out my thoughts so i will blog properly tmr. for now, all i can say is

NJC MALAY DANCE IP TEAM:
GOLD!

NJC MALAY DANCE JC TEAM:
GOLD W HONOURS!

i'm so proud of every single one of us. i love you so much, really. today's a good day 'cause everything seems so pleasant today. i had a nice chat with you today :D

emo period

2009-04-06T22:12:00.002+08:00

syf is really like bringing out the emotional side of me. it makes me nervous yet excited and blahblah not.

ip syf was today! like approximately 6hours ago, we were sitting up there in the audience, waiting and watching out for njc malay dance ip team. i heard that when they said njc malay dance, the ppl infront was like 'WHAT?! NJC MALAY DANCE DOING TRADITIONAL!' yes we're doing traditional, and i know that you're eagerly waiting for our contempt part. fret not, its coming up this wed!

yes, its the first time we're sending in an traditional malay dance team for syf and really, ip team, you've done so well and the seniors are just so proud so proud of you! and i guess you guys give us the motivation to train harder tmr so that we polish up every single thing that is imperfect and we can present the best dance ever on wednesday. i really dont know how to describe my feelings now. ive read nghia's email. its kind of rare that he's so sentimental but yes, i was really touched by it and tears flowed out unknowingly.

i read alison's blog, she's talking about post syf. i cant imagine it. in two days' time, im going to blog about post syf too. months of hard work summarized into a 7 minutes dance. and im v glad to see that everyone's so motivated to do our best and enjoy every single moment on stage up there performing with each other. it has been so long since i last participated in syf. 7 or 8 years ago? i really cant rmb much about that. but what i know now is, im going to perform with this team of lovely people. people whom i love so so much and we're going to show that njc malay dance has what it takes! :D

but i cant help feeling emo you know! i'll terribly miss the vietnamese. i cant imagine life after stepping down and so on. i know syf is not the end, there's still whatever not thing. but syf is telling me that ive to step down soon. and after a's, i might probably never ever see the vietnamese again (besides seniors farewell). for all i know, they will go back to vietnam after a's, i'll stay in my singapore and for this whole lifetime, i might never see them again...

TO ALL THE VIETNAMESE & ALL OTHER SCHOLARS (IP TEAM INCLUDED) YOU BETTER REMEMBER THAT SYF IS NOT THE END, STEPPING DOWN IS NOT THE END, SENIORS FAREWELL IS NOT THE LAST THING. YOU'LL PROBABLY NEVER BE ABLE TO GET RID OF ME 'CAUSE UR SUPPOSED TO STAY IN CONTACT W ME ALL THE WAY! speaking of which, i get excited when i talk about the little porkpaus ahaha. right eunice! :D

alright emo stuff aside, jc team, the juniors have set a great eg. for us and we're going to shine as well and lets all just hope that we can achieve double gold w honours. even if we dont, rmb what nghia has said, we dont need the recognition, 'cause we know we're good enough. all really, thats all that matters.

syf!

2009-04-05T00:29:00.002+08:00

using gwen's words, we've alr reached our last lap of 2.4km. in fact the end of it, ip syf is tmr! considering that its past 12 alr and its sunday alr. jc syf is another 2 or 3 days time. we've reached this point of time that we're just waiting to know whats our final results. for jc team, we still have a few hours on tue and thats really our final sprint.

somehow the syf tension wasnt as bad as i thought. i think we all really want the gold w honours, considering how much hard work we put in. and how we all want to show everyone else that njc malay dance is good. im excited about syf! just like how excited i was when we perform for cikgu's other schools. when i dread knowing that the 7mins is just gone like that. we practised months for it, and i really hope the 7 minutes is like never ending. i dont know how to phrase it, but i guess it'll be the exact same feeling ive during curtain call on aristal night. working so hard for months, and suddenly its like all gone, and you just dont want it to end. and i really dreaded thinking of post-syf.

yes, i can rest more.
i can concentrate more on my studies which arent v good in the first place.
i can recover from all my backaches and bruises and muscle aches.

but i cannot dance anymore.
i cant see my dancers as much anymore.

i just dont want to step down luh. i'll only have one commitment then-studies: mugging for a's. i can go down for dance practices and watch the j1s train. but i cant train w them together anymore.

some ppl wait a lifetime, for a moment like this.
despite all the emoing, im so glad that ive waited much less than a lifetime, and i found a FAMILY like this :D

busy

2009-03-29T22:28:00.002+08:00

really busy. 'cause i havent completed like half of my hw during the mar holidays, i practically have to rush through hw in between lessons, during breaks whatever. and its all 'cause i was too busy to complete work during mar hols. but if given a choice, i'd choose to dance everyday than mug everyday, like duh! (:

okay this week, although being really busy, has been rather fun somehow. mon ive 5 stations. was feeling really nervous about it 'cause ive no time at all to train, but look at the results:

sit-ups: 44 :D
sit-n-reach: 43cm ):
standing board jump: 178cm (WTH 2CM TO B!)
shuttle run: 10.8s :D
inclined pull-up: 23!!!! :DDDD
oh yea and 2.4km: 14:07!

thur, i was really grumpy in the morning probably 'cause my half day became a whole full day. reached school at 830 for dance. well, what can i say. sorry to the dancers, somehow i always bring in my own personal feelings into dance, which may have affected some of you. thinking was saying some ppl are putting in their all but some ppl just want to slack so the whole group has to do it over and over again. well, i didnt try to slack but the fact that i actually thought twice whether thinking is referring to me shows that i hadnt put in my best too. which i really hate myself for that, 'cause syf is like real soon and im still not putting all my heart and soul into it ):

but dance in the afternoon was fun (: thinking praised us for being consistently dancing rather well and that the energy level didnt fluctuate much despite us dancing it over and over again. is it 'cause of my magical fingers and huiwei's aura? :D then we should just press forever man. it feels good to feel that you've done ur best. i really hope on syf day, i'd do my best and not in the tired grumpy mood that i just want to slack and get it done and over with.

fri, cca room cleaning! now i know who is really useful haha and who slacks the most (i think its me!). the cca room is so clean now. thanks to all those who come down :D to those who arent free, fret not. there's still painting plates session coming up real soon! (: haha, camwhoring with any props available was fun too, i like the fake hair one! and the one with the bride. the expression on travis' and quyen's and thinking's face is really classic :D and some nice things happen. although its just a small gesture, but it really makes me feel a lot more significant! (: its just these little things in life that bring a smile onto your face!

buying of makeup ytd! ordered pizza for lunch. and yea only managed to set off when its close to 4 uhhuh and we met with lots of obstacles really. so to all those who went to orchard to get makeup, really to bring in this obstacle feeling into the dance okay, how we overcome the obstacles and finally bought the makeup. lissya wore this shirt that says : 'ive lost my telephone number, can i have yours?' haha thinking's reply is funny : 'you already have mine' HAHA.

syf is drawing near. im kind of like excited but at the same time i dread it. it means that ive to step down and stop dancing soon right. i really dont want to think of life after i step down. somehow, malay dance has become such an important part of my life and i really cannot imagine life with just mugging sessions and no dance. whats life without njc malay dance? i really dont know.

emo no more! (:

2009-03-22T22:09:00.002+08:00

yay im emo no more (: so there, saying everything out and sorting everything is still the best way to solve problems. and i was being emo there for nothing, 'cause someone wasnt even angry with me. thanks luh, wasted my time getting upset. but i'm glad that everything's over! (: yay! so i can stop looking at the floor during warmup LOL

anyway, speaking of which, this incident allowed me to grow! yes again! haha i always say i grow but i never seem to be growing right. i mean i grow mentally and not physically. so now im like more mature once again yay :D so yea, still thanks afterall (: i like to know that ive grown a little each time after i overcome some obstacle or solve some problems. it gives me this sense of satisfaction :D

pp is telling me to update more, and to make my blog less cheem. haha see! that means im so mature and i talk about stuff that're so philosophical instead of just typing out whatever that has happened throughout the day. haha, you're supposed to be proud of me pp! :D but anyway, talking about such cheem stuff apparently doesnt seem to have improved my gp ):

okay, i know that i shldnt be online. and that what mrs tan said is really true. that we're all so tired and any time we have, we should use it for dance, rest, or sleep. and we should stop coming online just for these two weeks. haha but then again, im still online. somehow, habits cant be changed so easily. have you all heard of this, its quite interesting. habit is really hard to correct. 'cause when you remove the 'h', you still have abit, you remove 'a' you still have bit. you remove the 'b' you still have it! so you've to keep removing for a few times then you will get rid of the habit. okay cool right, anyway, i havent finished all my hol hw, so dont ask me why im here. i dont know. prob just to post that im emo no more.

anyway, thanks to all those who cared that i was emo, which is like no one?! how come no one tagged and asked about my emo posts! and then lissya just told me aiyah pretend nothing happened luh. okay luh, but she did give me a big big hug though kind of unwillingly, and she told me not to cry.

and what else. syf is in 14days! excited, but i dont really want to think of what happened after that. i will have to step down soon, and i really cant imagine my life w.o njc malay dance, whether its the dance or the people ): and that also means ive to face a's soon, i feel like i wont win it urgh. okay okay today is supposed to be a happy day, so there, no unhappy posts.

(: (: (: (: ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

its just so awkward; i cant say anything

2009-03-19T23:00:00.002+08:00

i wonder how come people can hide their emotions so well.
i really should learn how to manage my emotions better.

i really dont care, but its just so awkward.
and i cant say a thing.

this is weird, it should stop soon. like real soon.

off to sleep, dance tmr! :D

it feels so good to dance and just dance with no school.

how many sorries

2009-03-17T23:17:00.002+08:00

okay the emo part, anyway its quite rare that i actually post twice in a day. i wanted to post it on another blog, but aiyah nvm its so troublesome setting up everything so yea.

its kind of emo really. if you know that im going to talk about you and you dont want to read on, please feel free to go away.

but this is gonna be really general.

i was just wondering, how many times can you say sorry until it has become insincere already. it somehow seems to be similar to 'i love you'. just look, 'i am sorry' and 'i love you' are all eight-letters words. okay actually i think im trying to force out a link between them. anyway, i believe 'i love you' is too precious to be said and repeated every now and then. and i really hate to hear it so often 'cause it makes these three special words sound v general and just not special anymore. i guess its the same with ' i am sorry'.

i dont know whats wrong luh. but i realise i kept saying im sorry for any small lil things ive done. so much so that it has become insignificant, up to the point that you can actually tell me not to apologise anymore. i guess luh, its probably 'cause you felt that there's no point since there's no real meaning or real sincerity in saying it. i shdnt have abused the use of these words.

and i realise that i always dont learn my lesson. or rather i take forever to learn. whatever happened in the past, i really just forget. time sort of like really brings away with it all the pain and hurt and whatever not. which i think isnt good. 'cause i'll never learn my lesson that way. some people thought its quite good, 'cause i forgive and forget and move on with my life. but the moment i forget, i will repeat the same mistake again and i dont seem to be able to grow out of it. my teacher used to tell me this : ' once bitten, twice shy. twice bitten, you can go and die luh' really, i thought it really makes sense. its twice alr, shd i go and die haha. okay anyway casual remark, i wont commit suicide, dont worry about me.

but i feel that we always dont realise our mistakes until someone pointed out at us and until we fall down or fail and then we realise what we've been doing all along is wrong. and i really thank everyone single one out there who has pointed out to me where ive gone wrong, so that i will walk the right path from that point onwards.

i cant swear that i'll be able to change fast. 'cause thats who im, and i behave like that. it may be my flaws, but no one is perfect luh please. i'll change it, and i need time. random but i want a big big hug from lissya soon D: thats one of the ways to make myself feel happier. and thanks lissya. really (: for always giving me lots of big big hugs and forgiving me everytime i say smth i shldnt. its 'cause of such wonderful friends around that makes me realise that i shd stop, in some sense, bullying them. lissya, can you just cover my mouth next time.

somehow, i feel that its gonna be awkward. lets wait and see...

dance camp.

2009-03-17T23:01:00.002+08:00

dance camp! is officially over yay :D it was a nice time, altho trg took up like 3/4 of it? the nightwalk was fun (: although i was kinda scared sometimes. miss ting is so not scary luh! but when she sings or hums along, its kinda scary. anyway i got scared by kurt, nice one! -.-

i hope malay dancers have enjoyed urself during camp. for bonding games group, i'm sorry you guys put in the effort to brainstorm for ideas and stuff and we didnt get to play everything, but its okay! i thought the team was kind of more bonded after that too, and the newcomers from both jc team and ip team get to know each other more also. which is good :D 'cause njc malay dance is one whole team!

anyway, i know everyone must have been tired and aching. rest well tmr okay, its the only rest day till like sat, so please please please rest! if not, we will all be struggling to keep ourselves awake and energetic so yea. everyone, dont go out tmr hor! sleep more and mug more :D

the dance is like getting more and more up to standard i thought. progressing rather well, not super huge jump in standard but still, as long as we're improving, its good enough! its three more weeks before, endure okay :D having said that, ive to admit my legs are super tired from joget and then aiyah im just aching ALL OVER. my back yes! 'cause cikgu gave me a v cool pose, but v difficult luh. ive to train my back and stuff luh. i dont feel like im doing my best yet. but if at this point of time, i dont give my best, when do i still want to wait to?

ive lots of hw undone and stuff. but i cant complain much. 'cause if i had stopped blogging and coming online which im doing right now and spending the time to complete my tutorials and asgs, i'd be able to finish them. but alright im glad that i still finished my complex 1 tutorial even though im super tired now. perservere on everyone! (: that applies to the other CCAs too, 'cause i know everyone's super busy and camping and stuff.

okay the end to the general and less emo post.

adventurous week

2009-03-15T00:03:00.003+08:00

this week was quite an adventurous week, compared to the previous few. on tue night, we took some pictures and videos after dance for the nightwalk for malay dance camp :D which is tmr! anticipate it ppl :D anyway, that was kind of fun. i laugh like hell, i think everyone's stomach was so painful. anyway, yea i think we shd put behind-the-scenes stuff man. its gotta make everyone laugh like crazy.

anyway yea, after that got a ride out on saniah's dad's car. mygosh, so all the houses i pass by when i took 156 wasnt the most gorgeous and biggest i have seen. the houses behind the school area, gosh they're massive! really huge and pretty. we were saying if only we could have a quarter of it! gosh too bad that im not born so rich, if not i'd have just dropped out of sch and slack at home everyday. and anyway, i was at kap's stop which means i only have one bus-154. waited for close to 15mins but see no bus, so gwen and i decided to seek the help of the 'sbs ask-iris' service. haha smsed and realised that 154 takes another freaking 13mins to come!! in the end, gwen hwarng pushed me up 74 which ive never taken before. great, i was there praying that i wont get lost, 'cause its so dark still you know. and i couldnt really tell where i am.

and then i safely reached dover mrt station. in fact, i thought 74's route is much nicer than 156/154. 'cause ppl at clementi is really inconsiderate man. they block up the whole escalator and i miss my mrt twice in a week. super nice! singaporeans really should know how to be more considerate and stand at the left or smth. irritating, i was so pissed off i wanted to curse someone. and anyway, my mum was waiting for me at redhill mrt station and i walk back with her. there was this kid, i just merely look at him and then he was like ' look what look. stop looking luh' MYGOSH haha i actually ignored him and continue walking. i practically like wth and rolled my eyes altho i was kinda scared that he'd bashed me up or smth. but my mum was there so i was not that scared. then, i saw this dead cat lying on the road. gosh it was gross. dont talk about it luh.

thurs! costumes have arrived. mygosh it was horrible, at least i think so. but after wearing it today, it didnt look that bad luh. just that my pants and everything kept slipping. tell me that ive lost weight, then i will be real glad. but everyone else's too, so its the tailor problem, not me losing weight ):

yesterday fri! went to celebrate yeap's birthday. haha lilin came up w some lame excuse of a farewell meal for ros 'cause she's going kuantan for geog trip -.- LOL anyway ate at sakae 'cause there's this 1buck per plate promotion. mygosh super embarrassing, yeap was like 1 dollar huh. 1 dollar then take. WAHLAO but in the end was really full and i spent about like 8plus. considered rather cheap for sakae right.

today danced with costumes. i can only say that my costumes wouldnt stop dropping. and i couldnt stop stepping on them. anyway, i havent packed my stuff for tmr's camp. and i havent even told my dad about it! haha, the nightwalk is going to be scary :D

and i look forward to the s21 dinner at mrs poon's house, altho im still thinking what mummy can cook.

lissya always have inspirational quotes. or rather interesting quotes.
' the perfect words never crossed my mind 'cause there was nothing in there but you.'
haha, and yea, i really know more about tictac, and what was that occasional glances mean today. lol no not really, its a one day thing. im over it, i dont really want to know.

bad mood week.

2009-03-08T20:45:00.002+08:00

i think less people bothers to visit my blog now ): 'cause its all about dance and dance and dance. but i dont have much choice, dance has overtaken my whole life.

i had a break on monday 'cause i was having a headache. break from studies, and also a break from dance. i think the break was just in time, and i actually completed a lot of work that day and i was kind of free for the whole week. and my bruises sort of recover already so rolling and backrolling aint that painful already, so (:

basically, i think time is like literally flying past. 'cause i reach home at like 9? after dance. and by the time i wash up ate smth and stuff, its close to 10. so yea, school, dance, sleep. so yea what else. okay skip, i forgot what i want to say.

dance@pa. finally, we made our way to the mrt station to eat icecream. but ended up me saniah and lissya drank smth instead, 'cause the weather is super warm. and poor gwen, she cant join us AGAIN! gossiped with saniah and lissya. AGENT S REALLY HAS LOTS OF INFO! AGENT S IS SO AWESOME! haha, there was some breaking news haha. and now ive lots of things to investigate on too: more updates on project quantum energy, more news from tictac haha, the one hr or so aft sch and before dance has become gossip sessions (:

oh and for thur dance, i was in quite a bad mood luh i dont know why. i got a big big hug from lissya after that :DDDD im sorry to whoever that's training the group. im sorry 'cause everytime im in a bad mood, i will start getting grumpy and tired and uncooperative.

aiyah, i cant think of what to blog about already. oh yea oh yea! eyecandy's results arent that bad afterall. though he's quite disappointed about his econs. and to jeffrey, stop emoing hor! to all other seniors who scored super well, congrats! :D to those who dont do as well, dont be sad luh. life still moves on. i really wonder how i will feel when i get back my results next year.

i hope people stop emoing and be happier. life is already as stressful as it is, lets not make it worse :D

busy week

2009-03-01T22:36:00.002+08:00

this week is a really busy week. finally, ive found time to update.

anyway, as promised, the new blog song! hear the lyrics, its super cool! esp the chorus

"This is a retake of my life, I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed, and you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on, but remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it wont last! Same script, different cast."

ive some friends that are like just one of the two girls and they all ended up getting quite hurt. there was this girl, i thought she really changed her bf, but still... im super disappointed in that guy. anyway, ive a guy friend that's totally like the guy in the song. lots of gf. but then, that doesnt mean that he sucks. he's still a nice person, just that i feel quite sad for his every next gf. and similarly, i thought his recent gf changed him, then again... but im not disappointed in him. he may fail terribly rship wise, but he's a really good friend :D

anyway, 4 practices in the week again. tired, thats the only thing i can say. its really until everyday, someone will ask me : do you have dance today. its that frequent. im seeing the dancers like every practical day, which i didnt say it wasnt good. but its really exhausting and i reach home at 9pm everyday, too tired to do anything. but still, ive to wake myself up and at least get smth done.

friday, harp appreciation. cool! :D the harp is so cool. ive always wanted to be musically inclined, like being able to play the piano, violin and the harp! oh and the guitar. but i love the piano best. imagine you get home really tired, and you just play some random nice soothing piece for yourself. mygosh but i never have the chance to ):

sat. road run. have to wake up at like 545am. anyway, i completed my road run :D dont ask me about position/timing. being able to complete is good enough. it somehow seems much easier than 2.4km. anyway, i wasnt v enthu about the cheering and stuff. to be honest, i know only one aqua cheer lol. but i still rmb the aerius house song lol. and one terra cheer i guess. anyway, we went for class lunch together! yay craving for pizza hut settled :D haha 20/26 turned up, how cool is it! and those who dont come are mainly not free and stuff yea. but i was rushing to finish my food so i didnt participate much in the convos and stuff.

i rushed home, bathed and get changed. rushed off to city hall but yay, im still late haha. met up with porkpau nghia thu and khue. yay 1 singaporean against 4 vietnamese. anyway, we wanted to go some mac to discuss but i dont know how to get there. haha! and to think im the only singaporean. sorry luh i know bugis and fareast better. anyway, settled down at starbucks and yay, my fav choco cream chip frap! all thanks to kiat! i fall in love with the drink ever since he treated me to it, i wonder how is he. havent seen him for a long day, maybe i shd meet up with the mg ppl someday w kat jimmy! alvin alfred nicole kiat yea. i hope kiat hurry up marry her gf luh lol. anyway, back to the point, our bonding games are so fun yay (: haha at least i think. nghia was being v enthu, he suggested most of the ideas while the rest of us improved on it. thanks nghia :D and then we met the others and went off to esplanade for the performance! quite cool. the performers mygosh, see how easily she backroll. urgh im so jealous LOL i must have looked really unglam when i backroll. but haslina! at least i dont kick my legs around alr haha

sunday, which is today. dance! its postponed to today 'cause of roadrun. cikgu sort of like finally finished the dance. i guess, think so right. finally! but im super exhausted alr! and here, i want to thank nuorlissya binte suwandi! :D haha, 'cause altho she isnt in the exco, but she's practically doing as much as what an exco member does. she goes around helping me and saniah get this get that, go and put the radio w me and gwen, goes here and there w me, brainstorms for ideas, suggests outing etc. YAY LISSYA I LOVE YOU <3 ! and thanks for going to get the plates today!

urm there's dance tmr and tue. i really love dance alot, but sometimes, i feel like there shd be a break. i hope im not too tired out tmr. i hope i can be high enough. i really hope so! but im half dead, really half dead. struggling to complete work, struggling to dance well enough. im not being emo, but im v tired. but i know all the other dancers are equally tired too. so we cant give up now. we gotta work harder together :D

backroll YAY :D

2009-02-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

okay rounding up this week, all i can rmb is dance practice has increased to four times per week. and then, yea all i can rmb is that the dance is getting cooler and cooler by the day :D

i like phuong's and porkpau's part yay :D haha, and now gwen and travis has a part too. haha, fun (: when will saniah get a part w XXL LOL?! saniah actually cursed me to have a part w XXL. i'll kill her tmr *EVIL GRINS*

i'm loving dance more each day, but somehow some ppl arent v happy during dance. yea, maybe 'cause its the really stressful period. and the syf tensions have started to sink in. gwen has been really nice, sending us encouraging smses every now and then. and sometimes, i edit them so that my exco group got personalised ones :D haha, but i hope everyone can love dance as much as i do, and put in all our best for the coming syf! (:

and anyway, sat, which is yesterday. yay ive to backroll :D at first im like omg omg how to backroll. and i was kicking my legs in the air just like what gwen hwarng did when she first started backrolling AHHHAHAHHA i still rmb that scene, but i bet im not half as funny as her HAHA. anyway, yay i can backroll now :D and then lissya has more unglam photos of her up on fb, that day when we celebrated shairah's bday. yay, looking at the group photos over the months, malay dance seems to have expanded quite a lot. (: and we're all a bunch of AWESOME ppl haha :D

btw ive a rather nice blog song to change to. but ive no time now. 'cause its 11pm and its my sleeptime alr. haha, and then yea, so i will change soon. some time in the week. anyway, there's dance tmr :D and then there's dance performance to watch on sat and dance practice on sunday! (: we're so going to eat icecream.

btw, happy birthday angela (16/2), sandra (16/2), pengjie (18/2), hongjie (20/2), shairah (20/2), guohao the ultimate slacker plus lagger! (21/2) yea.
to hongjie and shairah: selamat hari jadi! semoga impianmu menjadi nyata! :D
to guohao: thanks for always suaning me. and cursing me for my every single test haha. i hope you suffer in NS :D

random

2009-02-18T22:19:00.003+08:00

this is really random. a random post.

today is wednesday. and it seems like wednesday is the only day whereby i can come home early (not very early too, 4pm) and relax for a while. watch an hour of tv and stuff. life is getting really hectic with dance increasing to 4days per week. thanks all for your concern, but i love njc malay dance so much, that malay dancers really just drive all my fatigue away. of 'cause the weariness come back when i'm on the bus home. i don't feel like touching homework everytime i get home. but i still have to, i mean, its alevels year.

i still remember the mugging sessions w lw. when syf and all the commitments are over, then i can meet lw for mugging sessions! :D i need to meet yanlu someday too. my date with him has been postponed for months. and it'll just get postponed luh i know it. i think sometimes, its quite good to have like someone you like alot. 'cause at least when you feel like giving up or when ur sad or smth, they just need to say some lil things and it can just brighten up ur life. my life has been wonderful since 09 but obviously, i dont mind having lil talks w them once in a while.

i just realised i forgot to wish ylw happy vday ):

the song playing in the background is some random song i heard during my relative's wedding dinner. and i thought it was quite nice.

alright, off to sleep. more dance tmr :D

to every other malay dancer, hang in there! the dance is getting cooler and cooler! (minus the part that we've to turn in a CIRCLE for 10 eights.)

vday outing w malay dancers!

2009-02-15T22:32:00.003+08:00

just like how everyone else had a wonderful vday, this year's vday is also the most memorable one for me. i really dont remember how i survived through vday in my previous 16years. last year was fun, playing secret valentine's w ao1. memories that will always remain :D

secret valentine's with s21. mine is jinghui! and lixin's one is me! i guess we all have fun. BUT IM SUPER BROKE! and my fridge has lots of chocolates and sweets now haha.

this year, vday happens to fall on a sat. and we have dance :D yes, and w my AWESOME planning skills, 16 people went for the malay dance vday outing cum late lunch! (i swear they werent dragged and pulled to the outing) haha, we're all one bunch of lonely single fellows who voluntarily decided to come together to celebrate vday to feel less pathetic (esp to lissya :D ) haha at the end of it all, we had more memories to look back at, and felt so much more loved after that! im really glad seeing how everyone has enjoyed themselves, and it just gives me more motivation to org more outings LOL. maybe it can become a malay dance tradition to have outings monthly or fortnightly or smth! (:

anyway, a brief description. had late lunch at 4pm? at plaza sing's pastamania. was really full and my strawberry soda is super nice :D if picky and indecisive ppl aka thinking chose my strawberry soda instead of LEMON TEA?! (sorry travis im not critiscising you for choosing lemon tea) then he will love it more lol. anyway, took some photos and we went out and just sat down at some random place to play 'i never'. reminds me of ao1 again, 'cause we always play that during free periods last time haha. i had to run off at 5pm to attend a relative's wedding dinner.

nothing much about it. just that i got to wear pretty dress and wear heels again! (: yay haslina im declaring my love for the heels again haha. and the food is gosh yummy! thinking still wouldnt appreciate me and lissya for sending him a cupcake. he kept doubting our intention and accusing us of lying to him etc. FINE WE ARE SO STUPID TO SEND IT TO YOU. hahaha, should have sent it to nghia instead so that he would have TWO anonymous ones LOL!

dance is gonna be on mon too. mon tue thu and sat. but the steps are getting cooler and im totally loving it! but i really have no time. im lagging behind for hw. not yet, but soon. i understand the rationale of all these trainings, but dont attack my free periods luh ): they're for me to rush through my hw LOL and thinking is abusing me, he wants me to sleep 45mins less on thu and come and help him teach the new kids in town whom he can comfortably teach. and he's telling me he's SHY?! lol like WTH. omg i hope i dont get killed by thinking.

talked a bit to nghia ytd too. he's actually really nice and funny, so nghia please speak up now! (: and we've discussed and we'll decide to kill people who attack our breaks and make us go back to class sweaty, smelly, tired and sleepy. i'll leave the killing to him though, i'll supervise haha. and right, so ive been pronouncing nghia wrongly for a year.

ive to rush off at 5pm ytd as ive already said. but everytime ive malay dance outings/practices (on saturdays), i really dont feel like leaving. haha weekdays trg are just too tiring 'cause its a long long day of school. anyway its 'cause i really LOVE NJC MALAY DANCE so much that they drive all my fatigue and whatever not away. and although 14feb is over, i'll still declare my love. NJC MALAY DANCE, I LOVE YOU :D

vday eve!

2009-02-13T22:21:00.002+08:00

yay vday eve! :D

sad 'cause i didnt get to see tac's reaction. i dont even know if he has received it. it was kind of chaotic. everything was all over the place.

anyway thanks s21 for lots of chocolates and sweets! (:
thanks lissya and peisi for the balloon :D
(sad luh, my balloon no more helium leh. it cant float already ): )
continuing, okay thanks cheryl for the packet of stuff! (:
and everyone else!

AND WAIT THIS ONE IS SPECIAL!
thanks to mingli for the rose! omg big big surprise ok. i think masu and debbie both have a great surprise too! haha yay i got rose, im more special haha. anyway, thanks mingli! much appreciated luh. haha funny someone is in jungle now and yet still asks peisi to send us flowers. haha the thought of mingli just reminds me that ive no fate w him again. quite a number of outings before right, but i never seem to be able to go LOL

OH AND THIS ONE IS SPECIAL TOO!
sharon tey! haha omg this is like the first time i got a gift from a teacher huh. its a really pretty schedule book! HAHA THANKS A MILLION LUH! someone said i wasnt appreciative and suan her and whatever not, and takes forever to reply my sms. anyway liwei! haha her chinese name is liwei as well gosh. anyway, miss kitty's bday is on 2nd oct. what a nice way to broadcast your bday haha. i can say all i want 'cause you'll prob never find this blog one huh ms tey!

anyway, had a really nice chat with her over the phone few hours back. haha i know im mean. sorry! but my outgoing calls is going to explode alr luh, luckily i made you call me. if not, over by another 30mins. haha for you, even if you over, you got money luh. nvm working adult alr haha. talk about lectures, vday, malay dance, lots of things, the scary road from main gate, the bus being super crowded. she was laughing like hell loud luh, haha and i was like ' is everyone on the bus looking at you'. of 'cause, being typical her, the topic never drifted away from ________. i really wonder how she can link every single thing to ________. YOU WIN MS TEY! :D

P.S. i really dont mean to curse you and suan you and gek you tht ive rice to eat while ur at i dont know where paktor-ing. im really concerned about you slipping and falling down the slope haha. please do not stop writing the letters and giving me more random gifts! I WONDER WHO'S YOUR ANGEL!

and then tmr is dance plus dance vday outing! and at night, i might be going off to some wedding dinner of some relative. its damn cool luh, wedding dinner on vday itself. sure super ex. ive lots of hw, i havent touched any yet. and i doubt ive the time to touch any tmr. but i still want to go! imagine the good food and :D haha the time spend getting all dolled up and i can wear my heels again yay :D

anyway, i cant wait to celebrate vday w dancers! i wish wkb/lissya would be nicer to fake some anonymous person to send me an anonymous present! wahlao now i got no anonymous present/no secret admirer proposing his love to me.

BY THE WAY, thinking be appreciative of the cupcake. gwen gave us all a great big hug. i dont want your hug, but please be thankful :D me and lissya are such nice people yay!

gwen performing at talentime which shd be over by now. i didnt go but i know gwen must have done an AWESOME job! practice tmr, focus everyone :D

vday

2009-02-08T22:45:00.002+08:00

yay i cant wait for vday to come. i cant wait to see tac's reaction. but then again, hard decision huh lissya lol. lissya and wkb are both mean people, they dont want to send my anonymous presents wahlao. whatever, fine i will get some real anonymous presents haha. yea like i will.

hey malay dancers, be more enthu okay! this is the first malay dance outing im organising, please give me some face! dont let it end up like lissya's pathetic one last nov haha. (i realise im super mean to lissya, but nvm lissya, you know i love you very much :D ) haha anyway, 14feb, those who're single and available just like me, or those who're attached but love malay dance so much!, haha please come ok. dont you guys find it cool to celebrate vday as a whole cca. for more info, refer to the email i sent you luh!

anyway to everyone, the profile picture on my facebook is ME! how many times must i repeat to different people. it is me! how can i dont look like me. thanks for all those who said that the person is pretty, 'cause im that person. but no thanks to those who said the person is too pretty to be me. wth this is so ridiculous, im me. how come i feel like ive split into two.

anyway THINKING change my name! i dont want to be cuckoo, the who?, or the bamboo. i want to be the cool! haha, okay okay, ive come online and i have not touched the gp hw at all. luckily the deadline is extended to tue, not tmr. ITS NOT TMR RIGHT. people tell me i did listen to the right deadline. ITS ON TUE RIGHT haha.

i like the new steps that cikgu has choreographed so far. esp the one where thinking nghia travis porkpau quyen joycelyn gwen phuong stands in one line. COOL :D

cca fair!

2009-02-06T23:21:00.003+08:00

(: hello im here again! and im really happy 'cause i managed to curb my desire to come online and successfully do hw everyday and today is the first day im coming online this week :D can everyone out there see my strong desire to excel in studies and be as smart as a scholar! LOL doubt it will ever happen though.

right, let me recap. monday was urgh forget about it. i hate mondays and fridays. its so super damn long and just two/three mini breaks in between. the timetable is really sucky. some days ive so many breaks that i can come to sch just for a lecture and a practical and a tutorial or gc or pe or whatever not stuff. and yet end at 3pm! monday during pe ran 2.4 AGAIN. im dying alr luh. im no longer a badmt player ok ppl, im a dancer now! stop having the impression tht i still have my stamina and the speed. i dont have alr luh. and the ylw trick is not working anymore luh!

tue had dance. measurements! haha quite cool. i can be some tailor's assistant. at least i draw better than saniah :D right, haha its quite cool and i really want to kill some ppl who have like teeny weeny waist!!!!!!!! that also means that i cant grow any fatter if not my costume will burst when i wear it.

on wed, theres the cca fair! yay yay yay, not much different from open day. but at least a 1000 times more ppl walk past haha. gwen phuong lissya and me were in a total rush and we didnt have time to practise at all! haha, and my sarong was inside out for half the dance. but thinking said he didnt notice! cool huh, we're so much more attractive that ppl focus on our faces and smiles, and not our sarongs HAHA. took many photos as usual. and gwen hwarng, you dont have to mention my fingers in each and every photo! haha porkpau's unglam shot is up on fb! SUPER DUPER FUNNY. comparable to lissya's apa ini! HAHAHA malay dancers are hilarious man seriously. i wonder which day, there will be this unglam shot of me up there on fb too.

ytd had dance again. practise with the music :D yay i can finally do the flick! haha nothing much then, just that being around the dancers means fun and laughter :D

and dont talk about today, long draggy day. BORING haha. but ive a nice nap! so long since ive a good afternoon nap. haha and i cab home instead of squeezing on the bus (: mummy paid my cab fees yay!

theres dance tmr again :D i want to go shopping for vday gifts! s21 playing secret valentine's as well. haha i still rmb my secret valentine's is nicholas ang! and im pinxuan's one. super hilarious the card pinxuan wrote to me! yay yay can we org outing! lets go celebrate vday luh malay dancers OKOKOKOKOK (: if not lissya no date nowhere to go pathetic HAHA. actually me too luh, but its just so nice to tease lissya. haha, but hey im super broke. SUPER! but im anticipating the ILU balloon from peisi huh! i want the one zhixin got last year, got sweets inside leh!

omg omg vday is so much fun. to all my admirers out there, consisting of lissya peisi whoever not, please rmb to get me gifts! haha the thought that someone's gonna send an anonymous gift to someone just makes me feel like receiving some anonymous gifts too! lissya, why dont you fake some anonymous cute guy and send me a flower HAHA :D

supposedly emo but i smiled!

cute emma and christopher! thats during cny though!

AND TADA, with that, i end my post :D

of sch and dance

2009-02-01T21:29:00.002+08:00

j2 life is really like zoom, hectic. i dont know luh, somehow i dont seem to be able to find time. probably its smth wrong w my time management. ive really been working much harder. doing tutorials and asgs and reading lecture notes beforehand. reading for every mini quiz and stuff.

im quite surprised how i can find time to do it and yet sleep at 11pm everyday. but 11pm-6am dont seem enough for me ): i still find myself dozing off in the middle of lectures and stuff, altho i will slap and pinch myself awake and try to pay attention. but it'd be better if i dont even doze off so seriously whats the problem. i dont think its the lack of sleep. 'cause ppl like lilin can sleep at 1am and yet am so awake.

anyway i realised everyone's so busy that they dont have time to tag on my blog anymore. oh or either that, everyone doesnt like me anymore ): can alive ppl pls tag to show ur love for me haha. anyway prob its 'cause my posts are all full of words and BORING. but how come, i find some of them quite inspirational you know haha

sat dance was fun :DD cikgu finally started choreographing. and everyone seems so serious, so far its been quite cool (: haha but cikgu apparently doesnt seem pleased with what he has done so far. but im glad that we've started choreographing (: its gonna be fun, and with all the beloved ppl (: i cant wait to dance again! although im still suffering from muscle ache and ohmy there's pe again tmr. not 8 rounds again ):

and i'll end off here! by the way, there's this super funny pose lissya striked. and it was captured by gwen! everyone shd go fb and find it! :D

i cant wait for dance camp, and its quite a pity that i cant get to celebrate vday with dancers, and i'll be alone like wth. lissya lets go out! i know you've no date too HAHA

happy cny!

2009-01-27T21:25:00.002+08:00

happy cny! :D i receive like a thousand and one smses from malay dancers, so thanks! even from lissya who dont celebrate cny haha. and the scholars! now you see why malay dance is love :D they're just so sweet!

okay cny, as ive said, is just the same old boring thing. feeding each other with information about hows life, hows studies and stuff. smth more interesting is that this year, there're two newborns in my maternal side. both my cousin's wives have given birth to two little boys. and i took some photos of them too, haha but i guess babies just dont like to look at the cameras! i put on some light makeup for cny and my aunt kept complimenting me about my super smooth and flawless skin haha! but i think half of the reason is that its the foundation powder. but of 'cause, my skin is kind of perfect from the start too (: HAHA it just feels so nice to be complimented. but i totally hate my own skills at using eyeliner. i must learn from lissya!

and today, the 2nd day of cny! i actually have nowhere to go! i normally will go to my aunt's or uncle's house but they're both not free this year so ended up, my family and my cousin went to catch a movie: the wedding game. alright luh it was nothing super awesome! haha gwen's fav word. i wore heels out today. it always feels so cool, i feel so tall and i feel so elegant walking LOL. ate at thai express. finally satisfied my thai express craving but i feel kinda disappointed. maybe 'cause i just ate mac at 330pm and i was still full at 6pm when i eat dinner considering i was eating popcorns in the cinema as well. but aiyah, somehow was quite disappointed at the food. maybe dining at swensen's might be a better choice. but then again, just had it on friday. haha dont know luh

oh yea today is shiqi darling's birthday! happy birthday (: i hope you stay as pretty as youre now, and be prettier, happier, healthier and whatever not. love you <3 oh yea and for jingmin dear, im so sorry i havent got ur present. maybe by next week ok :D haha yea love you too! <3

life's gonna revert back to studies and studies again. im kinda looking forward to dance camp. and celebrating vday with malay dancers <3 haha, i hope there's no strong objections from those who're attached :p and yea i'd probably not come online until friday. time to focus on studies and studies again :D

love 09!

2009-01-25T22:02:00.002+08:00

its new year's eve!

alright actually there isnt much to be excited about. 'cause besides having pretty new clothes/shoes/bags to wear/carry, there isnt much thing exciting about cny. okay fine, getting the hongbaos and spending the money inside. its like most of my cousins are working alr, so its like there is some gap in between so somehow it's always quite weird.

but alright, i shant complain. i should think of the scholars who have no relative and friends here, quoting from thinking. and quoting from an, didnt get to have reunion dinner 'cause she returned to hostel late. anyway, their reunion dinner is like on last tue, why so early huh! luckier ones like porkpau and travis can have some fun back at vietnam haha.

okay and then 2009 has like come and one month has passed! and the thing i wanna say is that i really love year 09! somehow, a lot of wonderful things have been happening to me (:

first, liwei asked me to mug with him! <3
second, yanlu told me to take care! <3
third, have been talking quite a lot to ex eyecandy and understanding much more about him! (:
fourth, njc malay dance is love! <3
fifth, gp lessons havent been boring!
sixth, econs lessons are no longer slack!
seventh, s21 is fun and going to sch isnt that much of a chore! (:
eighth, jiamin's great and she'll go further in css3! (:
ninth, I SAW ALAN LEE TODAY! :DDDD

okay i was at this rather ulu ntuc, but rather big one. bukit merah ntuc, ulu 'cause its like bukit merah is so ulu. and while i was on the escalator up, i saw this familiar botak head person! yea alan lee! i squeaked and was telling my sister to look. haha, afterall my first crush ok! haha doesnt seem to have changed much, didnt seem to have grown taller too haha. he was smiling happily haha i guess he's also doing last minute shopping with his family, and probably found something nice to get?! i dont know haha but i was super high! (: called masu to tell her about the GREAT news and my voice was like still trembling haha, i took some time to calm myself down.

2009 has been great, its like only one month has passed and there're like one thousand and one good things that has happened to me. and everyday, there seems to be this little thing that just brightens up my day. ohmy, and i got the photos i took with emma! some of them haha. the malay dance lunch was fun! we really shd have more outings!

its like the other time when lissya has this icecream craving, we called some of the guys and went to venezia for icecream. haha, and then in the hols we have this locals outing 'cause all the vietnamese/china scholars are all back in their countries. in the end, although only huiwei gwen lissya and me went and i was stuck with lissya for like 3hours?! but it was really fun! haha we had fun camwhoring and i still havent got the photos urgh! really, we shd have outings like once every 2 weeks or smth, aft trg at pa. like just a lunch or smth! what do i want to say. its like with every passing day, i just want to scream and say that i love njc malay dance a little more each day :D i bet i'll be running back to practices just like what ferleen just did on sat. haha ferleen is still as pretty as ever ok (:

I LOVE NJC MALAY DANCE! NJC MALAY DANCE IS LOVE <3!

im not a christian, but i want to thank God or whoever that has been blessing me with happiness. i anticipate every single day, knowing that something nice will put a smile onto my face everyday. its so cool that everyday, i can just smile my way through despite whatever not that im facing. its like thats really enough, nothing more that i can ask for. and i hope everyone else is as happy as im too haha :D

happy cny btw!

oh and happy birthday jingmin dear! (23/1) nghia! (26/1) shiqi darling! (27/1) kahneng! (30/1) coach welly! (31/1) sorry my memory has been failing, i hope im right. if not, then sorry haha :D

i'll learn

2009-01-23T22:16:00.002+08:00

jingmin dear's birthday :D thanks for the past 7 months being my dear. LOL I KNOW ITS SUPER NOT EASY AND I COMPLAIN AND GRUMBLE A LOT. btw you know, the rose you gave me died long ago HAHA. omg but the whole point is, happy birthday <3!

then, to ______, be strong okay :D i'm not forbidding you to cry it out when you cant get it right 'cause i do so myself too. haha but the thing is after crying our hearts out, we must all stand up again and do it again and again until we get it right yea (: hard but we'll all be there for one another so yea.

what else. yea, i realise 1.5 months really isnt enough. or probably to phrase it in another way, it wouldnt even work out right in the first place 'cause besides the fact that we gossip, we're actually quite different. but i did learn a lot throughout last year. whatever that you've taught me, i think i shd apply it to you too. the 1.5 months and the few months after was a nice time, something really wonderful whenever i look back at it. and i really truly feel that you care for me, was there for me and stuff. and seriously, thats enough i guess.

thanks for telling me. i just realise my always casual remark can be really irritating too, to some extent. im adding something to my new year resolution: to be able to give others adequate breathing space and privacy. of 'cause, in the end, seeing you happy does make everything worthwhile.

okay, something nice then. today i had the cny dance! finally its over :D PHEW! alright, i made two stupid mistakes. my sarong was stuck to my big red flower like a freaking TWO TIMES! so actually, the real thing wasnt my best shot but urgh, i cant do anything now. the smile was also more of like plastered onto my face 'cause i was really nervous i dont know why! the finale was much better, not nervous at all! ahh and miss khoo brought her niece and nephew. gosh they're really cute! emma chan li en right? haha, she's like so brave and not shy at all for a 5-years-old girl. and her brother, christopher chan yi en, he's like ever so active, always running around. according to emma, christopher loves to run around. they're like so cute. when you talk to kids, you just feel like they're like so pure and innocent and ive to like talk to them in the kiddish way haha. kawaii-neh~! :D

then, we had cny malay dance lunch. talking about lunch and thinking about food, i didnt lau yusheng with s21 luh! 'cause i forgot to look at my phone's smses, but anyway, i cant go up and lau yusheng in costumes and makeup as well. so yea, had to give it a miss. lunch at swensen's, and the teachers treated us yay double yay double thanks (: save me a lot of money haha! it was fun! emma came along too, but not christopher haha. miss khoo said she alr had difficulty handling one. anyway, emma is a really bright girl. i took a lot of pretty photos with her and emma loves to take photos right (: haha she's like the princess, everyone loves playing and talking with her. HELLO PEOPLE SEND ME ME AND EMMA'S PHOTOS :D haha and whenever thinking raises his camera, me and lissya will pose and he will accidentally snap a photo of us. so the camera has lots of me and lissya's same pose photo haha. and it was fun certainly imitating saniah's funny face haha! and the truth and dare session at the other table was fun, but how come it involves our table too?! the funniest thing was the guy (shucks i dont know his name) and yuan staring at each other and lots of cameras were snapping away. all the flashes and stuff haha, and we were counting at some snail's pace and 20s took like a minute to be up.

to summarise, njc malay dance is love <3

dance tmr! dancing for 5 consecutive days wow! i hope i can finish hw before new year!

yanlu : D

2009-01-18T22:50:00.002+08:00

okay one really short post.

ive to stop coming online frequently. at the rate i come online, i can never complete my hw! i managed to finish it this week, but this is only the first week and im alr struggling w hw. ive been reaching home at 8pm average over the last week.

okay just wanna say something happy:
yanlu! :D HAHA yea had a short sms-conversation w yanlu! yay haha. YLW just brightens up my life man. omg and yanlu told me to take care! what rare words from him, considering that he's always suaning me haha.

sat's dance was fun :D celebrating alison's birthday was fun too! haha and i just realise that guys shldnt drink too much soya bean. is it a vietnamese belief or is it a fact!

alright alright, i shd go off to sleep alr. i mean, study for my chem quiz, but then, aiyah sleep is more important right. i'll study during breaks and on the bus tmr! (:

thousand and one ppl's birthdays, happy birthday to :
stella, junhao, woonshin (14/1), szekiat (15/1), junya (16/1), tuanying, alison (17/1), chrismin (18/1), markus (19/1), weirong (20/1). okay i'll stop here 'cause i believe i'll come online to blog soon haha. my dears and darlings are all born in jan how come! like samantha(1/1)! xiaoxi (2/1)! jingmin dear (23/1)! shiqi darling (27/1)! i hope i got shiqi's and jingmin's right.

stressed

2009-01-16T23:18:00.002+08:00

its only the first week of j2, right. its like a totally different feeling, a v tight schedule, hectic life. and i actually have 2hours to blog and get online and read through chatlogs like wth, when i shd have completed my probability and blog qns.

this whole week, let me see ive been reaching home at earliest 530pm which is today, and latest 845pm which is when ive dance practices. and i actually read through the lecture notes before i go for lectures, smth that ive never done before in my entire life, or rather last year since j1 is the first time we had lectures. free periods are spent mugging and rushing through hw. reading notes on the bus instead of sleeping/listening to music. my life now really just comprises of dance and studies. thats all. and next week is going to be equally busy. monday is like if we cant leave after the results show, i might reach back at 11plus. but the thought of supporting jiamin at mediacorp is so COOL :D GO JIAMIN (: tue ive dance, wed is full dress rehearsal for cny celebs(omg i cant wait to wear the pretty costume :D ) and thu is dance again. and friday is the actual thing! i dont know if we're going to go back rv, but thats like the norm right. but then again, on the other hand, malay dance is having like a lunch or smth, and they somehow forgot that there're 3 MAINSTREAMS who have ssch to return to lol. aiyah i dont know how. prob i can have lunch w dancers and then rush to i dont know where to meet 4h peeps. it will work out somehow luh.

im still v worried about cny dance. you know, urgh my 'L' shape thing which syafiqah and angela and everyone else has been correcting me since the first few dance practices, the running as if im floating feeling, and the irritating thing which ive been doing for an hour or so but still cant get it right. ohman, but nvm ive like a week more. and i can do it one luh. i will do it and ive to do it somehow!

oh and lilin got some really pretty pencils back for us from korea. haha me and peisi both wanted the white one, so we bullied steph again and she got the black one instead :D i promise that i'll be nicer to steph and stop bullying her. but hey! who were the ones who made me go photocopy timetables for them and get journals (lucky the stocks werent replenished yet!) and anyway, i found something inspirational to write about in the journal. but gosh, are you allowed to start writing now?!

cny is coming :D yay pretty pretty clothes and gosh my pretty shoes. and urm not so pretty bag but nvm. steamboat, mahjong, cards! all the house visits (hopefully there are many this year, its always super fun :D )

im going to sleep so that i'll be in top form for dance tmr :D introduction games yay!

dance!

2009-01-14T22:06:00.002+08:00

omg the three days in school has been really busy i felt. hw and dance just filled up my entire day. and i just got this excuse to come online 'cause ive to discuss smth w gwen and saniah. yay thanks (: LOL

okay yesterday had dance. gwen and huiwei basically taught me and jenny, i mean jenny and me the steps yea. i have so much trouble remembering the directions. its like 45, back, front. and the formations. diagonals rectangles circles. MYGOSH i was so stressed out yesterday and i kept on 'omg-ing' throughout seriously. it doesnt help at all 'cause by the time we ended yesterday, i still didnt feel like i remembered anything. and its like once i get stressed out, i cant remember anything seriously! the steps that ive practised at least a dozen times during the holidays, gosh and that im so familiar with alr, i actually forgot whats aft what.

then today, had another practice. supposed to end by 4pm i think. but ohmygawd, im so sorry haha i kept standing in weird positions and then when i realise ive to jump there lol. really, probably thats the disadvantage of having short legs. to have to take big big steps, and yet look so glam and graceful. omg how i wish i was mango. long legs plus ever so graceful. haha, today was clearer, i hope. at least it was better than ytd i thought. but its really only until the last two dances that im like more in the circle, more in my position and stuff. and ohmy, ive actually been doing wrist rotation wrongly for a year! no wonder it was like ever so easy for me, flipping roti pratas and i dont understand how it helps to rotate the wrist seriously. until now then i know its wrong. and my legs are aching like hell. altho its 3rounds only. and really slow. anyway, i took height-and-weight today. seriously, im 152.5cm haha i think junkai's method helps a lil. i really shd be taller man, the scale is wrong. but considering that the scale said i was 151cm last year. i did grow 1.5cm okay :D dance makes you GROW haha right, glow maybe.

tmr's tech run for cny celebs. i really hope my sarong can fall off nicely. i can slip into the sarong gracefully. i dont want to get stuck halfway. once im stuck, im dead. i cant continue. i shall not wash and dry sarongs tmr lol. and wth, ive to go for gp retest >< i dont want to be in gp clinic!

first day of school

2009-01-12T22:10:00.004+08:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL WOW! alright, i should be rushing through chem hw and you know what those stuff BUT im really tired after 2hours of exco meeting. and yea lol, there's dance tmr! yea finally! but got quite some stuff to blog about.

new teachers! ms clara lee and mr felix lim. i heard that mr lim is quite good. mhm not bad. haha, and new style timetable. but its so confusing. will go do up one nicer and cooler and easier-to-read one when im more free. which is after the cny week i guess. mhm, oh yea what else. started on lessons like the first day of school man! smth nice i like about the new timetable, free periods! remind me of a01's damn alot of free periods last time, spent playing 'i never' and truth or truth those games luh. but its like a hell too many right? 4 tmr! and omg i even have breaks that're 1.5 hrs long. good to have free periods, but an hour a day is enough right. tmr's free periods actually add up to 3hours -.-

second, i found out smth interesting. i knew it luh, all those info can all be found on njc website. you can even have two names lol, who knows if the school is right. even if its right, the fact that you've two names alone just means you're out to bluff me and her and whoever right. right, still apologise and still tell me to trust you. this feels so fake. next time i wouldnt waste so much time already. but since i wasted so much time, might as well have a revenge right...

third, just confirmed about you two. very funny, just about 2 weeks ago, i was still feeling so happy that i dont regret my decision. i let you go, i promised that i wont be disturbing you anymore, 'cause if both of you are happy, im happy as well. VERY FUNNY. how lame can i get. i dont feel the least hurt now, 'cause ive got over it. i still miss the memories, but i really despise you. how can i ever talk to you again like normal once again. NEVER seriously. i know alot has changed but still, if it was so fragile from the start, you shldnt have spoilt ours, you shldnt have spoilt me and her's! like totally wth, even if she's feeling real bad now, i also cant go up to her and say anything. 'cause you've alr spoilt me and her's. damn funny, im just feeling v pissed off at you. open your eyes and see, i bet you'll live to regret.

fourth, i dont know why did alot of people think of you that way. but to me, i see a different side of you that others dont see. you can call me silly, you can call me stupid. ive heard a 1000 negative things about you and probably two or three nicer ones. haha but still, fav <3 (: and how come yanlu is ignoring me ): since like i dont know when. he stop replying me on msn. probably he isnt the one using the com. i shd sms him someday.

oh yea fifth, i went to my cousin's house on sat. and yea it was his son's 1 month celebration. till now, i still dont know the baby's name. but he's quite cute. he's so small and im so scared that i'll hurt him. but still haha i carried him and my grandma was like teaching me how to put my hand such that he feels most comfortable or smth. really small creature. took some photos of him. might post it up since my blog are full of words and words only. yea oh oh the baby next door right. she (i think its a she) yea, she's learning to talk now i suppose. blabbering away lol. really cute. but she can recognise me now and she always smile when she sees me. not always luh, when i happen to walk past and see her mum then her mum will carry her out. i hope when she starts speaking, after learning how to say mummy, daddy, grandma, she will learn how to call me jiejie :D

with that, i shall think of what to do during free periods tmr, except eat and do hw

school reopening!

2009-01-11T18:29:00.002+08:00

school's officially starting tmr! and i'm glad that ive finished my hw :D hahaha i bet its like the first time in i dont know 3 years? 'cause i believe in s1, i'm still super afraid of teachers scolding when we cant finish the holiday hw. LOL INNOCENT OKAY. but not anyhow after i grow up. bad influence luh, seniors and friends around are setting bad examples lol.

alright i realise something. i actually didnt like thank whoever that has helped me out in year 2008. i merely did a reflection. and its on the whole kind of thing. so yea i shall specifically say it out now, although its 11 days late already.

firstly 2008 is a really nice experience. going into a junior college, getting into 08a01. all these are really wonderful experiences, esp 08a01. hereby, i'd like to thank every single one out there in 08a01 for letting me have such wonderful times. and it wont be memories, we'd continue keeping in contact (: i'm really glad that 1.5months can really bond us so much that until now, we've had so many outings and gatherings at nicholas's house and elson's house, at curry wok, at heeren, at whereever place, watching whatever show. really, i wouldnt imagine life without you guys. and even up till now, the thought that there's ao1 outing coming up soon just makes me excited throughout (: I LOVE 08AO1 :D

then, 08s21. my class after jae. one whole bunch of rvians. but i actually only know lilin from the start. whether its the rvians or the non-rvians, the pae ones or the jae ones. im really glad that ive you all with you. laming with debbie and yangzhi are always fun. crapping w spins :D haha and gossiping w masu about everything under the sun, running up the rooftop to find you-know-who LOL and learning malay from dhiya everyday! haha crapping w sipei, talking to swetha on bustrips. and and yes steph lilin peisi! and many many others. jinghui that gang lol. shuyi jingmin emily lilin my pw mates! went through so much this year, and im glad im in 08s21 :D

NJC MALAY DANCE! it was an utterly different experience for me. 'cause firstly its dance again aft 6 whole years, and its malay dance! haha, but it was really fun. aristal and yea everything. all the vietnamese people are superb and of 'cause the singaporean girls too luh. thanks saniah for helping me out alot! and thinking and porkpau really fun people. then ly my fish! :D alot alot. anh jenny thu. omg i cant list everyone luh. gwen huiwei lissya joycelyn hazi. blahblahblah so many people. it was so nice to dance. and everytime i felt so stressed out by hw and stuff, the thought of dance just wakes me up luh, although sometimes its like urgh omg so tiring. URGH PHUONG AND TRAVIS IS GOING TO TORTURE US. lol and stuff, but still... <3

last but not least, thanks to everyone who has been with me throughout. like yea zhangbei, my best guy friend ever. throughout my whole sec life, has been there for me, and even when we went into different jcs, and sort of lost contact, but still, everytime i talk to him, he just makes me feel that there's always him there for me (: hongjie, who has been listening to me crapping about dance, genting trip, everything about msia haha. and jingmin dear, samantha dear, shiqi darling lol. tons of nice people. jin xiaoxi too. always scolding me to wake me up from whatever fact. lol, i guess she knows that only scolding me helps. always damn fierce lol but i can always feel her concern. and many others luh. and all the mg ppl that has been still keeping in contact w me, sam, seng, kat, kiat. yea blahblah. ive so many people to thank for making my life so great, oh yea and my family of 'cause. 'cause its only recently that i really feel how much i love them and how important they're to me.

okay the list will go on forever luh. but really, 2008 is a great year i hope 09 is even better :D

school has started. shldnt be blogging often too. mug for a's! :D you too huh! mugging sessions yay :D

liwei!

2009-01-10T00:06:00.002+08:00

i realise i didnt say everything about chalet!

oh yea to add on, shaun went missing for a while during the night cycling. lol, for a moment, i thought the same 2g thing happened again. the guys split into two directions to find him and some others stayed with the girls. alright, i do must admit that our 4h guys can be quite clear, organised and ahem! gentlemanly only when its v v necessary LOL! yea and luckily we have junjie the stjohn's! shaun's leg cramp and siqi's wound, haha without him, we could be panicking away huh.

and yea sorry ng tinghui! i promise next time i'll try my best to go (provided my mum dont discover again) i hope you've a nice party :D

ex-eyecandy enlist into army alr. lol byebye, out of sight, out of mind! mingli went into army too, so fast everyone's going into army. aww i bet someone must be missing him like crazy. the system sucked man, shd have let him go in after the 11th what!

on a happier note, cao liwei talked to me! (: if i remember correctly, its the first time ever in 4years that he has initiated a conversation w me, without asking me for some favour luh. fine i know its just msn, no big deal. but still, smth really nice :D yay im anticipating future mugging sessions!

heard that they arent together anymore. really, im quite sad. got tears rolling in my eyes seriously! i dont know why. 'cause he's so important to me, he's so great, say im still so obsessed over it i dont care, but i really felt that he deserves the very best. and at least in my opinion, she's a really nice girl. really wonderful. and im really happy that both of them are tgt, but not anymore ): its kinda sad, i hope neither of them are hurt. and she's like ever so gracious, just like another stella. haha yea stella's bday is coming soon! (: lol funny how come i end up liking my supposedly love rivals?!

school's restarting. im only left with one organic chem qns and online chem quiz. thats all! (: its alevels year, i'll mug hard, its syf year, i'll dance hard :D

4h chalet

2009-01-07T22:23:00.002+08:00

I'm back from 4h chalet. Not bad, it was quite fun, the ONLY chalet I went to this year, no in fact, I didn't attend any chalet in year 2008! I kept forgetting, its 09 already! And today is already the 7th, ex-eyecandy is going to enlist into army tmr haha, just hope life's gonna be interesting for him 'cause he ain't looking forward to NS life, but i'm sure he is able to handle the tough drills easily. Like duh, he's so fit luh (:

Okay luh, quite interesting seriously and happening! Haha right, no BBQ just like last year. No dlim, haha he has school man sad, if not we would be able to make him sponsor us money again (: The turn-up rate of girls for 4h stuff is getting less and less. Basically, when we meet on the first day for lunch first, there was only me, lilin and siqi. Along with about 10guys or so. See the vast difference! When there're actually three more girls than guys in the class. Anyway, jump through the boring stuff, later in the evening more girls came and we rented bikes for night cycling. I'm not going night cycling again man. It's so damn tiring! 8hours of cycling inclusive of the many breaks in between luh. from 10pm-6am. The freaking scary never-ending road to Changi Village just to see shemales, she-man whatever, ren2 yao3 okay and to stop for a bowl of ice kachang at 4am! AND WHY DID WE (ME AND LILIN) AGREE TO GO FOR NIGHT CYCLING? Well, that's 'cause some guys mainly jiaqiang and shaun said they'll definitely cycle behind us, very nice, they were only behind us for the most 10mins I think. So here, I would like to thank Yeap Pinglin, Kenneth Lim and Lee Shengda for cycling behind me and lilin and siqi and yes especially Shengda (unwilling to say so but the truth) 'cause throughout the long scary neverending road to Changi Village, he was cycling beside me and we're the last two. So yea thanks. Oh yes, we actually have to CARRY our bikes up the overhead bridge?! So yea, thankyou to Frank I think who carried my bike down for me. What an adventurous night! I'll not go for night cycling again. I'm like having muscle aches everywhere now!

Reached back at 6am and dumped myself onto the bed. Sorry I know the way I sleep sucks, how I will kick people (I think so!) and flip around and yes grind my teeth. My mum always slap me till I wake up then I will grumble about how painful it is and slept and get woken up again for like at least thrice a night. Anyway yea, woke up at 9am or so. Haha oh yea I smsed my sis before I slept, asking her if she's already awake for school LOL! Yea skipped breakfast, returned bikes and waited for Ros and Juehong to arrive so that we can go for lunch. Left a quarter of the noodles untouched lol and yay saw Mr Low Kwee Peng :D (I hope I spell his name correctly) He was at Canoeing chalet I think but didnt get a chance to talk to him since he's with the canoeists. He looked so small and cute with the other canoeists haha! Right, then went arcade quite fun the games haha. And then the guys went pool. After that all of us went for bowling but I didnt want to bowl. 'Cause Joseph has some free stuff luh so ended up everyone only paid 1.70 for a game and shoes rental lol. Slack around bought some stuff and went back to the chalet. Oh yea btw Downtown's Mr Bean is not nice ): Took class photos before Cheryl Huishan and Xinyue left. 5 of us stood on the sofa and tada~! Some stuff happen luh. After Yenchai (Crash our chalet) clicked the button (but didnt manage to snap a photo probably 'cause he didnt hold it long enough) there was this loud sound and the sofa gave way! We all got a huge shock man, luckily I aint the one standing at the part that sank down. Considered quite a lot and decided to report it, but they eventually still retained our $200 deposit so in addition, everyone has to pay 10bucks more! What nice stuff during chalet.

Anyway, left the chalet with some guys and met the others outside E!Hub's Kbox for a Kbox session! Oh yea, saw Sheena and Shermaine, you know the twin sister in Campus Superstar 1 on the way up. Told Jiamin and she went down for a while to look for them I think. Went in, the room was big enough to accomodate everyone so yea the first song we werent high enough luh. But eventually, got quite high after a few songs. Those more common ones luh, we were practically screaming instead of singing. Cant remember them offhand, I only remember it was damn loud during 'Dui Mian De Nv Hai Kan Guo Lai' :D It was quite fun luh, minus the fact that I fell asleep at 12plus 'cause I was too tired. Probably 6hours is too long, 4hours might be just right. And yea maybe we should have split into two groups 'cause we seriously have a variety of songs man but then again, it wouldnt be as high already. Whatever luh, but I was freezing inside and Deming refuses to lend me Yenchai's jacket. Please! It isnt even his in the first place, and how ungentlemanly! (: Haha and Deming seriously behaved like a father, nagging at us when we dont finish our food and stuff. Again freezing cold when we are back at the chalet again esp the girls room, 'cause the temperature cant be changed! I think its forever at 18 degrees luh. Slept on the mahjong table 'cause the room is too cold. In the end, it's so uncomfortable that I decided to just run into the room and hide in the blanket. Yea luh like what guohao says, I give in to sleep -.- Whatever, he just wants to make me sound like a pig.

Third day nothing much. Ate 2bucks Mac meal 'cause we're all broke. Packed up and went home yea. Slept from 12pm till about 5pm when I reached home. But I'm starting to feel sleepy again. And I noticed Jiamin has really dark eye circles! Probably 'cause of the tight schedule and tons of commitments all of a sudden. Take care yea (: She really sang so well yesterday at Kbox and she deserves to be in Top12 :D And to continue getting through all the rounds.

Oh yea, I said I'll start to be myself more. Learn to live for myself instead of others/under the impression of others. Yea and I'm glad that I took another step to hopefully just be myself. It may have caused unhappiness to some, puzzled the others, but who cares. Seriously, I feel much easier and more able to enjoy myself like that. It probably wouldnt be the same if I hadnt decided to do it. It may be better, but probably for the worse. Sometimes, if you took a wrong step, its like really hard to reverse back already but whatever steps that I've taken, right or wrong, I'll not regret what I've done and yea just live with it 'cause nothing I do now can change it already.

happy mode

2009-01-04T23:13:00.002+08:00

Im happy today haha, on a happy mode :D Why mhm, three reasons.

First, I managed to finish all my maths and phy hw alr :D DOUBLE-YAY although I know there're gaps and holes in the middle I can't fill in haha. But still, it feels so great to get rid of them already. And yea, remember the GP I said was really draggy and I was complaining how to survive through it! I actually finished 2 yesterday! So, one more to go and I'm done with GP too (: And I plan to finish that by tmr, as well as Econs Activity 3 before I meet the others for chalet. I hope I can haha.

Second, I saw Jiamin on TV just now yayee (: She was so great, and yes Im going to support Jiamin. (PRAYS THAT IVE NO DANCE THAT DAY) But the sad thing was... HOW COME JAVIN WAS THERE AND HE DIDNT GET TO PERFORM! HELLO, I WAS WAITING THE WHOLE NIGHT FOR HIM TO PERFORM URGH URGH URGH ): Thats saddening but nvm haha.

Third, saw some photos of Xiaoxi and Jiaqiang (: It looks really sweet and Xiaoxi looks really blessed and happy! Haha although Jiaqiang was acting cool and didnt smile, but I bet he's also feeling v happy inside. You know, seeing your loves being so happy, even though I havent been keeping in contact w Xiaoxi very frequently, and I may not be there for her very often whenever she has any problems and stuff but it just brings a smile across my face when I see their photos.

Okay I suddenly thought of a fourth reason! Ahma! Yea I think Ive been seeing my grandma quite a lot these days. Ever since I stop going to my grandma's house on Sunday since s2 yea I dont really see her often although we live at most 10mins away. And it's like her house is under renovation now, so and yea its the holidays, so I'll go away with my mum and sis to help her out or smth and Ive been going out for dinner on Sunday nights with her so yea, seeing her quite alot these days. She's like really cool, a really strong woman, a lot of her stories were like so dramatic but she survived it all and everytime I think of whatever that has happened to her, I really admire her for her courage at how she managed to stand up strong everytime. And yea, although we've some language barrier 'cause she mostly speaks Hokkien and yea I can understand but I dont normally speak 'cause I think I sound really weird, but yea sometimes just nodding and smiling at whatever she says just makes her feel v happy (:

I think sometimes, it's just all these little things that will brighten up our lives. It may not be happening to me actually, but just seeing how happy my friends are, how my ahma also smiles at me whenever she sees me, and many others. And I think if we all stop to think and see and appreciate whatever that's happening around us, and be contented with everything we have, life will be so much easier and happier! :D

Off to sleep and I'll wake up damn early to pack so chalet tmr yay. Will blog about it when I return which is 7jan?!

new year

2009-01-02T22:57:00.002+08:00

its 2009! (: a new year, so i hope its a new start for everything that hasnt gone well for me and anyone else last year. have done a reflection some time back, so i shant do one now.

havent been finishing my hol hw for the past few years, but ive to get it done this year. its alevels year, no more fooling around. to quote from jiahui: olevels im lucky, alevels i might not be as lucky. exactly what im feeling right now, even if ive all the luck in this world, it will eventually be used up one day luh. time to work hard seriously, urm well and yea, i aim to finish maths today, and yes, ive two questions left urgh! i'll spend tmr on hw and hw! must must must finish maths and at least 2 more phy topics. no might as well finish phy too since there're only 3 topics left. or maybe i shd finish the half-done gp article first since its half-done for 4 days. I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW IM GOING TO SURVIVE THROUGH GP HW ):

4h chalet's in 2 days. okay 'cause of hw and dance, ive not been going for alot of the 4h gatherings and stuff alr, so okay, i'll go for 4h chalet. although i really still have that stack of hw undone. but i think i shd be able to finish huh i really hope so. okay and i gonna start packing on sunday. yay im looking forward to the campus thing at 9pm. support jiamin okay :D my companion gonna sound and look really awesome on tv haha. haha, oh yea 4h ppl, shd have received jiamin's email right. her 1st performance i guess. 19jan @ mediacorp! who wants to go support her! i want i want i want (: who else wants to go with me. i hope ive no dance. she has a roadshow in ngeeann poly and nanyang poly i think on the 10th, but its cousin's son's 1st month celebration so yea. sorry i couldnt go down to support u jiamin, do ur best though (:

alright i know im late but new year resolutions, might as well call it new year wishes:
(1) Manage my work well and do really well in As :D
(2) Do my job as a QM WELL and that malaydance njc will get gold w honours for both the ip and jc team :D (OMG THE THOUGHT OF PLATE DANCE AND SPLITS AND PT)
(3) Papa and Mummy to stop the cold war and behave like a normal couple :D
(4) Everyone to be healthy.
(5) Live life to the fullest and be happy, oh yea the same thing, never do what i'll regret later on in life.

right, surprisingly, even with so many eyecandies and so many ex crushes in my past 17years, there's no ' (6) i desperately want a boyfriend ' wish on the list. 'cause next year i'll be so busy 'cause its alevels plus syf year. enough for me to handle. anyway, aiyah, for the past one year, no offence, but nj guys not much to expect luh. my ex-eyecandy is going into army on 8jan alr. i mean the most recent one, can people please forget that the previous aqua one was my eyecandy before haha. and seriously, i hope i have the best family in this world, i think it really beats everything (:

anyway happy new year everyone! happy clearing the hw!

ending

2008-12-27T22:36:00.002+08:00

Okay I'll give a short update, 'cause I want to do my gp hw like right now, if not I'll just continue proscrastinating and it will never be done. Alright, firstly, happy birthday to the following people:
Steph! (20/12), Peisi! (23/12) and Zhanhao! (27/12) :D yea so hopefully, all your wishes will come true luh hor! :D

Mhm and then yea, on 23/12, we had ao1 xmas party @ elson's house. Okay luh, it was fun and I can see that everyone enjoyed that half a day or so catching up with each other's lives. But somehow, it felt really weird. I just cannot get high and enthusiastic luh I really dont know why. And this is not the first time, I was so excited about genting trip 'cause I can finally escape from the hw, but when I reach there, I just couldnt get high. Whatever my cousins suggested, Im like 'oh okay, Im fine with anything' but I wasnt. I really just want to get back to the room and sleep. I'll have this weird feeling like occassionally, not often but its just like sometimes yea and its like your whole body feels so lethargic and you dont feel like doing any single thing. I was thinking through a lot. Seriously, what else is left, when nothing else matters anymore. Its like Ao1 outings are always something I look out for, and now, even Ao1 cant make me smile and get high, then what/who else can?

Right okay that aside, now homework. Ive not been following my schedule real tightly, but at least Im not that far off. Lets see, Ive finished chem (of course I have to!), alright and Ive done slightly more than half of phy, 2.5 out of 4 maths paper. and yea thats all. Im going to do one GP article after blogging finish and I hope I can finish before I go off to watch WO CAI. Right, and for tmr, I hope to finish up the other half of the maths paper, so I'll be left with RJ's one supposedly the toughest I guess. And then also, up till 3/4 of phy. Haha right, maybe I should start now, instead of thinking whether I can complete it by tmr!

Im such a no-life mugger. I actually havent gone for any single chalet yet! Right thats 'cause Im off at genting when there's badmt chalet, and yea s21 chalet is like when?! I also dont know. 4H one is not here yet, and Ao1 one was cancelled 'cause they didnt manage to book one I suppose? Yea, Im thinking whether I should go countdown! Haha kay luh thats it (:

quiz

2008-12-21T21:26:00.002+08:00

okay so new year is coming soon, i mean cny. not 1st jan haha aiyah whose bday huh. 2nd jan also, whose bday huh. well anyway im really really broke. i've no money for my phone bills, my contacts, and chalets. for your info, i do pay for all these myself, thats why i hope everyone understands my difficulty when i dont go for outings and stuff, 'cause im really v broke. and my mum doesnt give me pocket money during the holidays! and i decided to give up working and to conc on getting my work done and stuff. so really, forgive me the 1st and 2nd jan person, your presents will arrive. just a lil lil bit (i hope) belated.

oh yea so cny is coming soon, a month's time. my sis is complaining that once her hols end and sch starts, she'll have no time to shop for cny clothes. i thought true too, though ive like 10days more than her 'cause sch starts on the 12th but yea, so went shopping with her for the past few days. omg that dress that i just bought today is really pretty :D and the shoes i bought ytd was v pretty too (i've been eyeing it for quite a while)

joshua ang is going to appear in 'table of glory' and i think he and teresa (css1) is acting as a couple or smth and there're rumours about him and teresa (css1) and the thing is the rumours said their love rekindled or smth. wahlao, the rumours just come when you get famous. so whatever, i choose not to believe it and i'll choose to believe what joshua ang said on his blog, that they're just friends (:

One of your scars?
can i say two please? alright the first one's on my chest when i accidentally knock into my mum who was carrying a hot kettle when im 8 or 9? the 2nd one was more recent, during sec3, yea when i knock into my mum (again!) who was carrying an iron (its heated up one okay!) so yea. that was on my right thigh but yea both has slowly faded alr.

What is on the walls in your bedroom?
a fahrenheit poster, when i was once crazy about wuzun, but later it feels too plain with nth there, so i just left it there.

What does your cell phone looks like?
its red, with a bit of gold. it looks exactly like yihfang's phone (:

What music do you listen to?
any nice songs.

Do you know what time you were born?
dont know.

What do you want more than anything right now?
to get that pile of hw done.

What do you miss?
i know im greedy but i miss alot of things.

What is your most prized possession?
my POSB bank book?

What is your favourite smell?
lissya's strawberry hydrating spray from body shop, which cant be found in msia's outlets ):

Do you get claustrophobic?
im sorry but wait, ive to check the dictionary. okay a strong fear of being in an enclosed space or a situation that limits what you can do. urm i guess yes, to some extent, esp in the lift.

Do you get scared of the dark?
yea but i'm trying to overcome it now.

What is your favourite cologne/perfume?
no preference luh

What kind of hair do you like on the opposite sex?
i dont know, just something that looks like a proper guy.

Where can you see yourself being proposed at?
i dont want to think; it just makes it not a surprise anymore.

Coffee or energy drink?
neither?

What is your favourite pizza topping?
huh dont know. i eat whatever the pizza comes with i guess.

If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
thai express (: haha im craving for it for really long alr, but yea you know im broke =X

Who is the last person you made mad?
mr seah i guess. but alright, its over alr luh.

Do you speak a different language?
yea mandarin and hokkien to my grandma haha, and malay! dhiya saya cikgu. i bet the sentence structure is wrong.

What was the first gift someone of the opposite sex gave you?
i cant remember. i guess its probably something my father gave me.

Do you like anybody?
yes if its to everyone else.
no if its like romantic kind.

Are you double jointed?
im sorry but i dont know whats that, and i got this quiz from xiaoxi, and she said she dont know whats that too. so i cant answer this.

Favourite clothing brand?
i dont care about brands , as long as its nice. of course the price matters too for a poor girl like me.

What's your dream car?
urm whats that, isit called a beetle. uh i dont know, whatever thats nice. i go by feelings.

One of your dreams?
to be married to the best man ever.

What is the best way to tell someone how much they mean to you?
xiaoxi said this and i thought its really true : " Show it, not tell."

A number from 1 to 100?
it has to be 23.

Blondes or brunettes?
dont care.

What is one number you call most often?
It has to be either my mum, my sis, or my home number. If you mean friends, then I guess it has to be Lilin.

What annoys you most?
Those irritating insects.

Biggest weakness?
Indecisive I guess. As in cant make decisions on my own urgh.

Where do you want to live?
I dont know, Singapore I guess, since its safe enough haha.

First job?
The Mussel Guys Seafood and Steak Restaurant, haha located at Vivo City #02-123. I miss working times. <3

Ever done a prank call?
Nope, but someone did one on me. Haha but its really cute. (:

What were you doing before you filled out this quiz?
On facebook, and hopping from blog to blog.

If you could get plastic surgery what would it be?
Probably every part of my body that dont look perfect, and make sure everything is perfect. Haha but I guess I dont want to get plastic surgery.

Why did you fill out this quiz?
'Cause I felt that this quiz is interesting but I just realised there really is a lot of questions.

What do you get complimented about most?
Eh I dont really know. How come I have friends that are always so stingy with compliments but I know what I get suaned about most - socialising urgh -.-

What would you do if alcohol became illegal?
I think it has nothing to do with me, 'cause I probably wont touch alcohol frequently.

What do you want for your birthday?
Aiya my birthday just passed a few months ago can, its too long to think about what I want for my 18th birthday. Probably something special since its like I'm finally 18! (:

How many kids do you want?
I used to want 2 but I love babies a lot so I thought maybe I want a very very big family. Aiya now how old only, its like way too early for family planning okay.

Were you named after anyone?
No.

Do you wish on stars?
No. Aiya it wont make wishes come true too right, like if wishes can come true, then you dont have to wish for them alr what.

Which finger(s) is/are your favourite?
My ring finger, either that or my little finger.

When did you last cry?
I forgot, its like when I watch some drama luh.

Do you like your handwriting?
Oh yes! Haha Im super proud of my handwriting, both eng and chi one. (: Okay I shall not be humble about it, many people like it too :D

What is your favourite lunch meat?
o.o I dont know.

Any bad habits?
Procrastinating again. Urgh I thought of it 'cause I just saw that pile of hw on the table again.

What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?
You know, yea but I dont buy CDs.

If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself?
I guess so.

Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?
Yes, I dont think I swear, I just promised luh. But yea, I regretted but nevermind, it doesnt help 'cause its true that I leak it out.

Do looks matter?
Yes, to a certain extent.

How do you release anger?
I dont scream at that person, 'cause half the times, its my mum. Just do something I like or I will just scream into the pillow.

Where is your second home?
They always say school is the second home what but technically, I only have one home. (:

Do you trust others easily?
Yes and way too much.

What was your favourite toy as a child?
I dont remember playing with toys eh. This is going to sound like I've no childhood but I do have just that I cant remember much about it. I probably run around playing catching more than sitting down there playing with toys.

What are the first 3 digits of your cell phone number?
932

Do you use sarcasm?
Haha yes, but I kept feeling that whatever I meant to be sarcastic doesnt come across as sarcastic to others.

Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
Not applicable, I dont know whats that. Is it my language problem or is this quiz just a bit weird.

What do you look for in a guy?
Right I know but Im not going to list down everything or else it will seem like Im holding an audition for my boyfriend position (not like anyone will participate in) but yea I'll just list one- Humour. But then again, Ive to have feelings for the guy luh. Ive a guy friend and I think he has possess everything but I just dont have feelings for him.

What are your nicknames?
I refuse to list them.

Do you un-tie your shoes when you take them off?
No, but I untie the shoelaces when I wear them, which I realise a lot of people dont.

Who is your crush?
Sorry can I list down my ex crush HAHA, it definitely has to be Alan - the most memorable crush so far :D

Favourite ice-cream flavour?
Strawberry cheesecake.

When is the last time you went on a date?
This is so embarrassing but never fine. I ALMOST WENT ON A DATE WITH YANLU THAT DAY AND !&@%#&%@%$ I WANT TO GO OUT WITH YANLU LUH!

Favourite colour(s)?
White, pink, orange. Lets just stick to these three for now.

How many wisdom teeth do you have?
I think Ive two already. Or maybe they arent wisdom teeth, 'cause I dont seem to be wise.

Who/what do you miss most right now?
It has to be YLW - Yanlu and Liwei (:

Do you want everyone to answer these questions?
If they want, you know, I dont force people! (Haha that feels so fake)

What are you listening to right now?
Nothing.

Last thing you ate?
Tang yuan (:

Last person you talked to on the phone?
My mummy.

The first thing you notice in the opposite sex?
I'll be honest, the face. I mean what else can I notice except the physical appearance, its just one glance leh.

Favourite thought provoking song?
A lot eh seriously.

Favourite thing to hate?
What?

Favourite drink?
Sorry Im going to be weird but plum juice? HAHA

Favourite zodiac sign?
Huh, I only care that I am a goat.

Favourite sport?
Swimming I guess.

Hair colour?
Brownish-black, if thats such a colour.

Eye colour?
I dont know haha.

Do you wear glasses?
Yes and I wear contacts too.

Siblings?
One elder brother, and a younger sister.

Favourite month?
No favourites.

Do you like sushi?
Yea I think so.

Last thing you watched?
Miss No Good Ep 11 Part 4, 'cause my brother is watching beside me now. Altho I'm already at Ep I forgot what, 13?

Favourite day of the year?
Birthday I guess.

Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Not really I guess. Definitely not if you ask me this in the past.

Summer or winter?
Summer at a lower temperature. That means hiding in aircon room right.

Kisses or hugs?
Hugs.

Relationships or one-night-stands?
Relationships.

Who is most likely to answer these questions?
People who're bored?

Who is least likely to answer these questions?
People who're busy?

What books are you reading?
Love stories (:

Is anyone in love with you?
No, I guess not. At least no one confessed to me haha.

Oh yea, and Ive to blog about Baskin Robbins. I know it has been really long but yea, I ate Baskin Robbins when I'm in Genting. It was the second time omg and that icecream flavour is still so so nice. Strawberry cheesecake. If only I can get a tub back and it wont melt but aiya ): Its really nice okay, I wonder why Baskin Robbins dont open some outlets in Singapore.

Alright okay next, Im going to talk about something that I saw on the bus yesterday. I was taking a bus from home to Bugis uhhuh and I saw this auntie. She was so inconsiderate man, you know she was like eating apple on the bus. I wonder why the bus driver didnt stop her when she came up the bus. And yea, its those one whole apple kind, not those cut-up ones. Right fine, Im not going to care about her if she doesnt dirty the bus. BUT THEN, you know, after she finshes the apple, she actually tried to stuff the core into the little ticket collecting bin at the bus door there you know. WTH luh, but luckily its too big, and she couldnt get it in, so she had to hold it on her hand.

Orh right, I just wanted to say that haha. I put a note on my phone saying : 'Disgusting old woman throw apple into ticket collecting bin' to remind myself to blog about it. Haha right, I didnt do the hw that I want to do today. Okay oh yea, anticipating xmas party @ elson's house yay :D

reflections

2008-12-18T22:00:00.002+08:00

the year is coming to an end soon and i always reflect on what happen. and how to prevent the not-so-nice things from happening smth like that. not the 31st of dec yet, but still, there's no specific time for you to stop and think right.

actually, ive another private blog, and there are all those really emo entries. when i got real sad and i just dont know how to tell someone. does anyone feel that same before? that you've so much to say but somehow, maybe it is so deep down in your heart that you just dont know how to say it out. i wonder if i should not keep it private anymore. i dont know, should there always be this small part of me which i dont reveal to anyone else, or is this just an attempt to like maintain the impression people have about me. i realise most of the times, when i get emo, a lot of people cant accept it. i dont think of myself as a happy-go-lucky person, in fact, i always get really emotional often.

i kept wondering if this is the real me. but i think throughout all these years, ive changed so much that i really dont remember what is the real me. i remember that when i was in psch, i wasnt like that. i wouldnt do those stupid and lame things, i wouldnt broadcast to the whole world who the hell is my eyecandy, i dont whine when things dont go my way. i dont sit down there and start crying for whatever minor or major incident. since when was it that i started having so many tears, and wasting them over some people who definitely are not deserving of them.

i couldnt agree more that we all change, and most of the times, we're all forced by circumstances. i used to be you know, someone whereby every bad things come and go. those 'come and go' kind of mood when i can cry and next time, its like nothing has happened. i must say that actually no, when smth happens, i rarely forget it. but the next day, i'll act like nothing has happened. i seriously dont know why i must act you know. prob just not to worry people, or make them feel uneasy because im seldom emo infront of people. but i dont like to pretend, its really v tiring to be someone you're not, to be happy when ur sad. i guess i never really quite understand the meaning of friends in the past. not just someone you can have fun with, but also someone you can cry with.

and i guess i did try to change now. 'cause whether you like it or not, but well i dont like to be happy everyday. i want to be able to throw my tantrum when im really angry, and really just be me instead of living under the image that everyone else has shaped for me. and i really think i feel so much more free now. and now that i still seldom get angry/sad, its not 'cause im trying to hide them, but really 'cause there's nth much i can be sad about.

to the one thousand and one people who really felt that i've wonderful socialising skills and somehow has so many friends everywhere and that i just seem to be able to know everyone and talk to everyone, i really have to say that actually thats not what i am previously. and thats not what i am now too. i hate ice-breaking sessions, and i get really nervous everytime ive to go up and introduce myself and know new friends but i always put on this tough front like im oh so brave. definitely not so. i dont know why, but i always feel the need to be surrounded by people, the need to feel loved and treasured. like you know, when you get onto msn, there're only usually some people you can talk alot to right, and when some days these some people arent online, you'll have like no conversations that day right. i just cant stand it, i need to talk to someone, to feel like someone is willing to talk to me. and of cos, some people are really nice, they dont say anything even if they arent willing. so sometimes, i dont even realise that they arent really willing or rather, i dont even know. until i realise that actually, all along, ive always been initiating the conversations and they've never before. never, and from how they can initiate conversations with others, you just know it. that friendship definitely takes more time than this to be strong.

i always give it too little time, i realise. for example, prob a month and i thought we were really close. or maybe its just me, and that others all felt that even years cant make a friendship strong. but i all along felt that time cant determine the strength of any relationship, maybe true, but still, too short a time cant say anything about the friendship.

i realise ive to start to learn how to live for myself. to stop hiding behind the image everyone has of me, to not cry over some people who are not worth it. and the worst thing is they never know that you're wasting ur tears over them. to really know how to stand up and make real decisions. and b'cause i really care about what people think of me so much, i really should care about what i think of myself now.

this year has passed, ive grown a year older, and i really hope its a year better. as we grow up, we really get to know how to treat ourselves better. how to change to be a better person. this year has taught me alot as always, and when i look back, im grateful for all that has happened, 'cause the bad incidents have taught me how to be stronger and braver, and the happy stories have never failed to make me smile. and all these will stay as permanent evidence that ive gone through so much and grow up (:

but im so glad that there're still so many more years for me to really grow and become a better person. and to those who've stood by me all along and watch me grow, thanks a million. im thankful that in my past, present and future, there is always you :D

xiaojun! jiamin!

2008-12-16T23:31:00.004+08:00

okay before the day ends today, i think i just wanna blog. two things to share:

first, 16dec09 : happy birthday xiaojun! :D we have known each other for so long and whether ur in scotland or any other land, you know that every single one of us here misses you alot. thanks for everything all these years and take lots of care, seriously (:

second, yap jiamin! i realise i was so lag with the well wishes and the updates luh. i just heard from sweeying that jiamin got into campus superstar 2009 top 12 :D congrats my girl. omg i was really surprised but again really happy for you. when sweeying told me she was at mediacorp supporting jiamin, i immediately thought that she has taken part and gotten in, although i really hear nothing about her taking part AT ALL. but i mean, with her good looks and sweet voice and everything, its really nothing woohoo, its so expected. but yea, still a pleasant surprise.

i still remember how i always like to stick to jiamin and sing no not sing rather say that 2 lines again and again haha.

-you were once my companion,
you were all that mattered.-

well, to my dearest companion yap jiamin, time really flies. haha companion, although ive lost touch with you and ur life these few months but i want you to know that i, in fact everyone else, although we may not be there supporting you and whatever, but at least i'll definitely be watching you from afar and i mean really afar 'cause i'll be sitting infront of my tv haha and i will try to go for whatever activities you have okay. jiayou! all the best and do everyone proud. but most importantly, enjoy the wonderful experience :D

oh yea and sorry swetha, how do you expect me to remember ur bday when u never look any older! haha yea, i took that out from some bday card but okay yea im sorry but happy belated birthday (:

oh yea i just find it v funny, frank is a member of jiamin's fanclub alr HAHA. i wonder if im lag or if he acts fast.

back from genting!

2008-12-15T21:46:00.005+08:00

omg i'm going to apologise for blogging a short post on 08ao1's blog. haha instead of my blog, alright, basically im saying i'll blog abt genting stuff today or tmr, and ive finally finished my chem hw which ive alr handed in phew :D

alright let me just blog okay about my genting trip (:

1st day-
i had to wake up at 430am and yea took a cab that mummy hired and yea and stuff, boarded the coach at 6plus and was feeling so excited that i cant sleep. i think i only managed to fall asleep at 1plus the night before too. oh yea i saw the sunrise it was v nice but the coach was moving so i couldnt snap a nice photo of it. then yea half the journey was like plantations throughout haha yea so the plants/trees covered my sun. but the ride was much shorter than ive expected it to be, it took about 6hours, gosh 2years ago it took 6,7 hours to reach selangor/kl too! alright, actually about the same, but i seriously thought its gonna take 8hours or so. the mist up there was really nice. the view was quite spectacular, sorry im a noob i havent been up there in genting before. anyway, its really when you're so high up that you feel so small and that you've so much more things that you can do, seriously. first day, nothing much, check-in took a long time, when we finally settled and stuff yea its 4plus alr. wanted to catch a midnight movie but the 11pm one was all sold out. and me and my cousins agreed that if we catch the 130am one, we'd all fall asleep in the cinema. so decided to watch it on the 2nd day instead. walk everywhere to every other hotel, settled at one bigger arcade and started playing. and yea, after that we took a shuttle bus down to mushroom farm for dinner. actually they dont really serve much mushroom dishes, but the stuff there are like cheap. it costs RM99 for the 8 of us, with drinks, so basically it was like S$5 with drinks. and best of all, it was nice :D but the weather was real cold, and me and my sis and my cousin was in shorts, so yea we were shivering like hell, but it was worth it 'cause the dinner is nice :D showered and played a while of taidi 'cause me gor mei and meiying jiejie arent 21 and we cant get into casino while the other four older ones went in ):

2nd day-
of course that's always the most exciting and fun day right. woke up at 8plus, ate breakfast and yea went down to kl :D board a shuttle bus and some funny things happen. alright there was this group of 8 guys, maybe some guys that finish a's, yea they boarded the bus and realised there were some other indian guys sitting on their seats. so yea, this guy was saying in chi luh, prob so that the indians cant understand, that he will make sure he claims the seat back when the driver is back. and he said smth real funny, i heard i was laughing nonstop, secretly luh 'cause i dont want them to stare at me haha. not like they will though, they look like a bunch of jokers, at least that black shirt guy does haha. he told his friend 'eh, lets bluff them that this bus is to johor then tell them wrong bus' okay maybe it doesnt sound funny but u really have to be there to see and hear it aha. then the driver came up and the indians and the driver sort of quarrelled a bit. one indian was reasoning with one of the guys, and okay v hilarious somemore, he was speaking tamil or malay, smth i couldnt understand, then the guy also couldnt understand, but he just kept nodding his head and smiling like he understood every single word, and the smile is just so fake haha. lol it was super hilarious, me and my cousins broke out in laughter. haha i really couldnt control. in the end only 2 indians gave up their seats, so only 6/8 guys get to sit down, 1 squeeze with the other 2. and another one sat behind me (there happens to be an empty seat there). at first he didnt want to sit, but his friend said eh one hour leh, its like taking 178 from jurong point to woodlands, i wonder if its really that long. haha, right this group of ppl who lives either in boonlay or woodlands, if you happen to see this post, i just wanna say that you guys are really just so hilarious LOL.

not done yet, the shuttle bus sent us to titiwangsa, some station of the kl monorail luh. i rmb there was this station called raja chulan! haha RAJA. anw my sister is fascinated w raja, she couldnt stop mentioning his name every few days. okay and yea we struggled to find out which station we've to stop to reach all those shopping/town area. my mum suggested asking the others, and me and meiying jiejie was like they also dont know! they referring to that 8guys luh, 'cause they were struggling as well. but we figured out earlier and went off. stop at bukit bintang, and the shopping centre on the left and right was lot10 and sungei wang. so yea ive been wanting to go to sungei wang despite hongjie saying that it wasnt v interesting haha. i think i sort of rmb he said that. yea and like what he says, its nothing interesting luh, just like any other typical shopping centre. i bought a pair of slippers there luh, 'cause my legs are aching from my shoes and yea the design is quite unique, smth that i havent seen so far in sg yea. went back and continue shopping at first world plaza. oh yes huiwei, i stayed at first world hotel and luckily, i didnt hear the horror stories that happened there, phew. and oh oh oh, i'm so sorry for being selfish and spending the money on my stuff only haha. which is basically a hp pouch, a new pencil case, a new wallet, and i forgot what. but talking about wallet, the guy selling the wallet is cute :D haha, i will talk about it more on the 3rd day part. at 11pm, me and mei and gor went to meet my cousins outside the cinema and proceeded in to watch 'the day the earth stood still' not bad luh, at least i didnt fall asleep 'cause its the first time im watching a midnight movie. and yea, so its quite good and interesting to some standard such that it can captivate me and my attention. the adults which are my parents and my aunties and uncles and my grandma, only came back from the casino at about 130am. and i only fell asleep at around 2plus to 3am 'cause i couldnt stop laughing whenever i think of what the 8guys did on the bus to genting haha.

3rd day-
i know this is a long post, please bear with it. awoke at 730am but 'cause the temperature is just so right and the bed is so comfy, yea i lag around in bed till 830am. wash up and went down to shop w my sis 'cause she claims she still hasnt finished shopping. but the shops arent open till around 10am so after breakfast, we started to shop again. went to see the cute guy again haha :D that cute guy that sells wallet (lilin, when you go genting, pls take note of the cute guy at level 2B 2nd store near the escalator, its those movable trolley kind of store). i cant really rmb everything but lets just post our conversation up here (:

him: -blabbers on about the prices of the wallets-
-after he finished talking (which is quite long 'cause he was telling my sis more about the wallet but actually she was only pretending to see)
me: oh ya i know, i was here yesterday.
him: yesterday?
me: yea i bought a wallet here yesterday.
him: -thinks for a while- yesterday, isit 9plus PM?
MY SIS: yea when you're closing alr.
him: OH..OHH! yea yea yea. -then he goes on to ask about the guy that was with us ytd which is my brother-
him: so, are you all from singapore?
me: mhm yea.
him: singapore where?
-me and my sis dont know what to answer, 'cause msia got kl, selangor, malacca, penang but sg got no such states-
me: urm redhill, you heard of it? (and obviously he didnt)

okay so ive realised my post is really long alr, so i'll stop here. anyway, after that wasnt v interesting luh. hah said bye to him and yea got teased by my aunties 'cause they were all waiting for us to go board the coach. whatever, like i'll fall in love with a guy so easily haha.

but alright, basically genting is really not v interesting. i didnt get to go the theme park 'cause the 2nd day i was down at kl. but yea, it was nice as in 'cause after that, mum and dad did talk more, and the cold war was sort of not present for that three days. although it was just three days, and i hope it will continue longer. but yea, haha and i know ive been pestering hongjie these days, 'cause i know much more about msia now, and im v eager to share it with someone that knows equally much, if not more :D and i can only say that its quite unlucky that he happens to know me haha (: but yea, thanks and sorry (:

to badmt ppl, sorry i cant attend the chalet. and yea to the other girls and coach rosie, sorry i couldnt make it in time to have dinner with you guys ):

and to joshua ang, sorry i couldnt go down to jurong point to show my support. but then again, i also wont be buying the telemovie 'cause first, im broke, 2nd, sorry altho it has joshua ang, but it doesnt attract me much. i hope joshua ang get well soon, and i'm expecting him new show :D

genting!

2008-12-10T16:06:00.002+08:00

urm im going genting tmr! finally :D yay haha, its like the only time this year i can really relax. and recharge and i can pia for next year haha. oh yea actually ive been recharging all this while. watching dramas straight for 5-10hours nonstop haha! thats enough recharging right. and im glad to say that ive finished my chem ytd :D and i'll start doing the other 3/4 of phy hw, and 3 more math papers and yea stupid econs and gp which i havent touched at all. but i felt that i did alot alr haha dont know why.

before i end off this, let me do the quiz. 'cause sam dear has tagged me to do it for really long, and i only sort of have time to do it now.

1. Do you have secrets?

haha actually not really. somehow someone knows something secretive about me. even if i dont tell my friends, i'll let my sis know. so i've no idea why my secrets are called secrets.

2. Would you fall in love with someone younger than you?

no, even if it was only few days younger. somehow, i just feel weird luh.

3. Do you enjoy going to school?

urm yes and no. i look forward to the fun and laughter and dance :D but not the studying and submitting of hw. seriously, this year is the first time i actually fall asleep in class.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?

buy a really big bungalow, decorate it really beautifully like zhishu's house in 'it started with a kiss' and 'they kiss again' and make my family and relatives all stay in together. so that its fun (:

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?

who knows? my previous crushes are my best friends! but then, thats crush not love. but probably not. 'cause i read somewhere that as virgos, we will like draw a clear line between friendship and love.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

actually i think loving someone. being loved by someone you dont love is really irritating. but then loving someone who dont love you is a total torture. but at least you will get really happy easily, like when he smiles and says hi you can be happy for the whole day.

7. Who do you idolise?

joshua ang, ethan ruan jing tian (ji cunxi!), the jia shi le in MS NO GOOD, please all shuaiges. oh and probably all the smart kids like teolilin and stephanie yik.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

please i feel that no matter the person is my crush or my eyecandy or someone i like, its never a secret. i like to tell everyone, i mean its such a happy thing. and half the times, they're attached. and i wont do anything! i will just continue to go gaga upon seeing them :D

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?

feeling that my life now is really good. (although i dont have a boyfriend and people keep reminding me of it, but so what.) I LOVE THE PRESENT :D

10. Do you have any regrets?

not really, i dont believe in doing something to end up regretting later on. and if i do anything, i make sure i wont regret even if im really starting to regret.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?

being married to the best guy in this world, making plans to start a BIG family 'cause i love babies. and feeling like im the most fortunate woman in the whole world with the best hubby who loves me a lot haha.

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?

LOTS. dance mates, clique mates, family, besties, YLW, anyone else who made me feel as loved and treasured and happy.

13. What kind of the person do you think the person tagged you is?

samantha lim! i wont say bad things about her, 'cause she's one really good friend! well, i really would have regretted if i went ac sci instead of nj arts and didnt meet her in pae NJ08A01! that totally applies to the other A01-ers :D

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

no such thing. rich and married. haha, if ive no choice, married but poor. but married as in happy married, not some disastrous marriage.

15. What is your favourite colour?

white, pink, orange. alright, lets stick to just this three.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?

no, never all. unless in a marriage. 'cause i dont want to be able to not pick myself up after i break up.

17. What would you do if someone whom you hate ask for your forgiveness?

honestly, i dont really hate people. thats too strong a word. and if i hate that person for a particular thing that he/she did, i'll just make sure he/she changes such that they wont do it again, then i wont hate alr what.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?

yea although that would be hard. but hating is a waste of time and energy 'cause hating someone is really tiring. you'd rather spend time and energy loving someone who deserves to be loved. (i sort of learnt this from jinxiaoxi! :D )

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?

they both have their own good and bad points luh. but still, having a rship. 'cause my ultimate wish is to marry a wonderful and best guy and be his one&only love.

20. 6 people I have tagged:

masu, zhengpin, lissya, haslina, thinking and YOU! (:

sorry ive run out of people, and anyway, all those all the list are those who visit my blog more often :D so yea haha poor thinking.

alright alright im off to bathe and packing for tmr :D yay update more when im back!

cunxi :D

2008-12-08T23:17:00.002+08:00

i'll just give a short update. urgh ive finished watching 恶作剧2吻 which is they kiss again. alright mhm what shd i say. its quite good not bad, compared to the first one, the standard wasnt v far off. 'cause i realise like you know those singapore dramas right, like they always have the 2nd serial. and it just gets v draggy and boring. but then again, thats my own opinion and i do show my support for sg dramas too by watching it haha which i dont know why. urm and yea, afterall tw dramas know how to capture everyone's attention with all those funny scenes and cute guys :D

oh yea im really proud to say that ive only 3 questions left to complete for my chem hw. so i'll enjoy my genting trip and have fun and just come back and do the rest which i cannot do. and hopefully, i can do them after the hints ive seen from km. uh and then what, yup i was doing my chem just now in the late afternoon, evening time. and i wanted to go turn on the tv and watch 100% entertainment. then im like forget it i shall just do my hw, 'cause sometimes its really boring if its just plain talking! but urgh, my sis on the tv at 530 or so, and shouted that its cunxi! omgosh haha i drop my pen immediately and ran out to watch! its nice! ethan ruan was like so honest and on with the questions and it just makes everything more funny. haha and thn just now i search on youtube and watch the first half which ive missed. so yea, but i still finish doing the part that im supposed to finish today.

i intro guohao to fated to love you! the superb drama 'cause he said he was bored. and he actually said thats my fav drama 'cause i think that i havent met the person fated to love me yet, and thats why i dont have a boyfriend! alright, fine i dont have a boyfriend. but whats the big deal?! LAU GUOHAO, LIKE YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND LIKE THAT?! its gonna be so embarrassing if he says he has. anyway, with such perfect guys like ji cunxi around, i really dont feel like lowering my expectations 'cause i want ji cunxi! i mean, woah, he's like everything combined together to form a perfect man. sorry his attitude might be really bad and may seem like a jerk in the first few episodes, but what can i say. i like bad boys! haha guohao does that sound familiar. bad on the outside, but not bad on the inside.

HAIX ITS SUCH A PITY MY EYECANDY IS BAD ON THE OUTSIDE AND BAD ON THE INSIDE TOO. AND MY EYECANDY IS ONLINE RIGHT NOW. ohno, he isnt already. he was just now. OH OH EX-eyecandy. i realised he always come online for a short while only. probably i scared him off haha.

MISS NO GD seems not bad, but i dont like rainie's voice inside. and i just get this impression that wilbur cant really act. but we will see as the show goes on.

song lyrics!

2008-12-06T21:28:00.002+08:00

hmm just a short update. uh i was doing chem homework halfway and i just suddenly got this urge to pen down some thoughts. alright was sort of inspired by what lissya told me and lissya's sub nick, which is something like: " its too late now for you and your white horse to come around" its adapted from taylor swift's white horse. and i sort of got this urge to write some song lyrics.

i used to write them and edit the lyrics from jay chou's songs and the songs are actually dedicated to ylw, alright mostly. one was an emo song during my most emo period in life. i wanted to post the lyrics up here but i think that frequent bloggers that come around to my blog are like haslina, lissya and phong, and they all cant understand chinese. haha and it would have lost its meaning somehow and niceness after i translated it. so yea, shall not attempt to post it up on my blog now.

mhm and okay, i can try to complete it and maybe i can send it to some company and earn big bucks haha! and i alr have like some parts of the melody alr. and my sis actually created one too, not bad too her lyrics and stuff. and i thought i was very pro alr -.- okay i will hope and pray that one day, someone will buy my lyrics so that i can earn big bucks and maybe jay chou will sing my song, ohno thats impossible he writes song himself too. uh i dont know, but maybe someone can buy my songs so that i wont feel like the huge chunk of chi vocab that ive gathered over these years are of some use, other than writing chi compos.

alright, homework. ive done more than half of chem! : D and i actually still have 3 more days to sort of complete it before genting trip so yea (: im so glad im on time.

urgh first time in my life that i did homework even before half the holidays is over. normally, i will slack till the last 2 or 3 weeks then i will start piaing. but haha, im so proud of myself this time round. i will work hard next year, i really hope i will luh. if not ):

activities

2008-12-02T21:22:00.003+08:00

it has been so long since i last blogged haha. well, i guess i will just recap what happened this week since there're not much stuff to blog about.

well tuesday, celebrated lilin's birthday with clique. met steph earlier to shop for lilin's present cause' peisi has piano lessons till 12. mhm, haha i guess we both arent decisive people so we took really long to buy smth, and we had to call peisi and ask for her opinion. haha so it was actually just walking around aimlessly for an hour or so. and cause' we hadnt gotten the presents and the card ready, so yea we planned some plot to make sure she believes that we're late instead of writing well wishes on her card at the v last minute haha. well, after much contemplation, we still settled at pizza hut like as always. and we had some hi-tea haha and drank my fav drink choco chip frappe :D which was what kiat introduced to me! (:

on friday, i went out with pw137! jingmin didnt come but jinghui came haha. yea and we had a picnic at botanic gardens. alright we brought those junk food basically haha, chips and stuff. the real thing is with jinghui. she prepared self-made meatballs and dumplings for us (: it was not bad, quite nice haha. esp the meatball! and then we lag there, and cant believe we actually sat there for like 3 hours or so? emily shuyi and jinghui went around taking photos with dogs and one angmoh baby called jake. haha and we saw quite a number of couples taking wedding photos, and we approached one couple to take a photo with them haha. and jinghui and shuyi took a photo with this angmoh guy that was 1.96m! even jinghui looks small besides him haha :D

just yesterday, i gathered with the malay dance girls <3 alright, it was supposed to be a malay dance outing and all girls that are left in singapore (which means we're all singaporeans) are asked to come. but in the end, hazi couldnt make it, joycelyn had some stuff cropping up at the last minute, saniah was un-contactable as usual haha but she had tuition too. shiqi had research and left her lab real late. so me lissya huiwei gwen had dinner. i window shop with lissya since 330pm and at 4plus close to 5, i thought that my legs got real tired with pumps, so we settled down at mc'cafe. i had double choc frappe :D lissya had mango smoothie and oreo cheesecake? i think so, and waited till almost 7 and huiwei finally arrived. followed by gwen. well, had dinner at secret recipe after discussing for really long and after dinner, we took some photos which we felt was quite nice esp the lighting haha, so well.

i havent finished alot of hw, but considering that holidays is only halfway over, and ive did some hw like nyjc promos math, 1/4 of phy, 1/4 of chem, i thought its wow alr haha :D and ive distributed chem nicely so that i can finish it before i go genting.

woah and everyone is like overseas now. joycelyn and peisi are doing ocip. lilin is in korea shuyi is in hokkaido. alright actually thats about it only right. haha, well fine, i will look forward to next week (: and we're probably meeting up with coach rosie too :D oh, and gwen knows norine ha!